Pretty pink flowers and perfect blue skies
Looking deep past the lies you tell with your eyes.

Holding your hand, kissing your lips
Placing my arm around your sweet hips.

The trouble with me is I can't see
Living this life except in my sleep.

Sitting there at the table where my dreams had come to die.

I was alone, bleeding onto papers
Never knowing you were always watching

I was just sitting there at that table, letting life pass me by

I was all about my past
Letting it get to me
My only regret is having regret

Sitting there at that table. Killing those dreams.

Murdering everything I wanted
Squeezing life out with my hands

Blood covered the blank pages of all my hate
tears washed it all away.

Alone at that table. Letting my love die
I was saved by the voice, the voice of something new to me.

the voice that gave birth to dreams I could not ****

I had to have that voice, i had to make those dreams.

You gave them to me.
But then your well ran dry.

Back to the table now, both of our dreams will come to die.

When happiness reached its peak I was with you
I know we’re so far away
I know what you said to me, and how you say you want things to be
I know that you’re not ready for a “you and me”
I heard you say that you’re sorry and for that you have my sympathy
But can’t you see?
You’re beautiful.

I’m up here on my pedestal left to daydream
Alone up on this pedestal that I want nothing more than to jump off of.

I would hate myself if I didn’t say anything
I would be a liar if I didn’t

When I said I want it to work, baby, I meant it
I don’t want to sit by and watch what could have been pass away.

I’m reaching out.
I want that second chance.
I’m just waiting on you to take it for me.

The last thing I ever thought I would do was try to make you cry.
Obviously being at college made me step back and look at things.

I realized how stupid I was, how I sacrificed my loyalty to my family to try and make you smile.
I know it was wrong
You know it too

I may have meant the things that I said and I never had really wanted anyone but you to see it.
I know it was harsh
I know I made you cry
I know.

I meant what I said
I’m still mad
and I still resent you
but I made you cry

I apologize for that

My one and only mission in this life is to make people happy
To make everyone’s life easier to live
I failed that goal
So miserably that it even made me cry.

I don’t expect forgiveness
I’m not even asking for it
I just want you to know that
So please know that

I love my sister, please leave her alone.
I love my family, don’t talk about them.
I love myself. I think you get the picture.

I loved you. At least I think I did.
I can’t seem to remember why though.
It could have been your smile
your laugh
your hair
the way you acted like you didn’t care about anything
how much you reminded me of myself.

Or maybe I was just mistaken.
I like to think it was that one.
I’m sorry, just know that.
I’m sorry.

I’m sorry.

You try and you try
You give everything you have
You pour out your heart
You put it all out on the line

It's never enough
It never seems to work out
It never matters how hard you try
It never matters how much you care

You keep telling yourself it will be okay
You reassure yourself you'll find the one
You say over and over there's someone perfect out there

But you never really know for sure
Do you?

There  was this girl. She was pretty, she was sweet, she was blonde, she was beautiful.

There was this boy. He was kind, he was caring, he had brown hair, he was naive.

They were perfect for each other. Where one lacked, the other succeeded. They complimented each others traits. They were made to be together.

           They never met
           They settled for different people
           They were never truly happy
           They died

im scared
its dark
i feel so lost all the time
hello?
no one is there
why wont you help me?
i dont think i can make it
im so scared