Time passes by as I blink
I realise that I take time to think
Of all the things that could go wrong
Or all the times I didn't belong
Deep in my stomach I feel something
Lurching and my eyes glaze over
I look up and wish to see a super nova
A brightness that I have lost completely
Over these past months where feelings have appeared fleetingly

Today I say, is the day of change
The day I hope to rearrange
To be born again but to remain myself
Will people accept me
Will I be loved
Doubt starts to enclose around me
Until I can no longer see
Today is the day I die again

When will the day come where I am embraced
When will the day come where I will not be erased
Substitution can only give me time
It can not give me life
One day I will be me
One day people will see
Belief is the only thing I live for

The screen was tinted and no one could see
The radio was muffled and no one could hear
Their hearts were closed,
I was stationary and froze
I told them I was hurting
I told them I was lonely
Their minds did not recognise my darkness,
To them my life was faultless.

I scream and no one hears,
I cry and no one sees,
Understanding is null,
There are worst off people than you they said,
But my situation was not the problem,
They did not realise the inner battle
I was alone afraid and far away
Dramatic they called me

But I wanted to leave
Leave permenatly
If they listened would I be the same
Would I still be hurting
Would I be so scared that I can't make friends
That I am shaking when I walk down the street
Do people know me
Do people want me here
Do people ever see me
Do people hate me