Have you ever fallen for a girl, that takes your breath away?
I see her and my mind goes blank, I don't know what to say,
Is it those big brown eyes, or that beautiful smile?
I get drunk on this love and the days feel like hours,
they keep flying away and I beg for just one more moment,
"Baby you don't have to go, come back and just stay."
She plays on my emotions and tugs on my heart,
She knows that I would give her everything, I was
lost in her beauty from the very start. She knows that I am
crushing, and she has the feeling too. Every second is special
as we get lost in my bed, she rolls on over and she kisses my head.
"Promise you will never leave me and break my heart,"
just the thought of it gives me a start. Life without my angel would
no longer be a life at all. I kiss her back and I grab her hands "Baby, for a man to leave you he would have to be out of his head."
She looks back at my with that sweet little grin, I hold her body close to mine and never want to let it go again. I smell the sweet fragrance of her hair as I feel her soft skin, I slowly slip back into this dream praying that it never ends.

Who have I become? Who can this be? The person looking back in the mirror is no longer me. I have become so hardend by all this pressure and relentless strife. My eyes dont gleam and smile on their own; and my smile isnt the same as it brightly once shown. I couldnt wait to get older, but now it is here. Age is knocking on my door and the time is near.

I will soon leave this place and embark on new life, creating a life all alone; away from my family, my friends and even my home. I have waited for this time and as it draws near, I am frozen in shock with great aprehension and filled with great fear.  I plead to God to show me the way.  What must I do? What should I say?

Now I am done with the pleading, I am not one to beg. There is only one thing that I can do, and that is live for each day. Take each day for what it is, and never take it for granted for the next one is not promised.

Just when I think you're looking at me, it hits me and blasts me. You weren’t after me, girl you had done looked past me. Girl of my dreams and that’s where u will stay, I push it down deeper…keeping my emotions at bay. I try for your heart and fall flat on my face. I have to keep going, I just keep my eyes straight, but even with the blinders I can still close my eyes and see that girl of my dreams looking back at me. Her big brown eyes, taking me all in. She rips me to pieces…it’s a thought that shouldn’t have been. Why won't you go away, o when will it end?  I have tried so hard, what could I prove? That she would stoop to me? What do I have to do? I ask myself the question of why not me? Girl of my dreams some day we will have our day, but for now I must sit and watch as we grow further away of what could have been, should have been, but apparently wont have been with me.