I smile happy, but I think sad
I feel bad, but I express joy
Living in a plastic world, winding up for the day
Not colorblind, but everything I see is in grey
My soul is left in shock, my mouth is left speechless
My heart is still bleeding, my tolerance is depleting
A hospital could not take care of this beating
My eyes are tired, but my body is awake
My mind has ventured into a different place
Giggling to cover the pain hidden underneath my face
I stand strong, but lay in waste
I can't run, but I love to chase

Please take my sins as my mistakes
I shed blood across my body
As did Jesus on the stake,
I let myself get lead on by hate,
Forgot that love was an option
I gave my soul to auction was it fate?
Gave my heart to a girl
Her love for me was fake
Feels like it was karma,
For everything I've done
Not to hard to contemplate
At a moment of weakness
My demons confiscate what's left
Exhaling like it's my last breathe,
Inhaling clouds to remove stress
Too much weight on my chest
Can't push it off like a failed bench press
I guess that's why suicide peaks my interest
I figured making an exit was the only way to make an entrance
To a place where peace exists