For no reason what so ever

For everything thats ever happened, is happening, or will happen

For something completely unrelated to your life

For something purely selfish

For everything and everyone thats hurt you

For you hurting you

For all the reasons you hate another person

For all the reasons you hate yourself

Tonight is that night.

This is a relapse.
This is not a wave.
This is a tsunami.
This is my broken heart rearing it’s ugly head.
This is your broken promises.
This is me.
I just want to be happy.
I was so ******* happy.
Why did you take it all away?

You know them when you see them

Perfect everythings and they know it

Perfect Lips, Perfect hips

Everything perfectly painted

Down to the smile on their face.

A boy on each arm

And several to spare

They flip their hair and

The boys snap to attention

Then she walks down the ranks

Smiling and winking

Cause she knows just what they are thinking.

I always thought i would grow out of being this sad,
not get sadder as I grow up

EVERYTHING smells like smoke and you….

I can still taste you in my mouth…

my body hurts.

my throat hurts.

my head hurts.

my heart hurts.

I know i did this to myself,

But i still hate you for letting me.

Nights I can’t remember
Texts I shouldn’t have sent
The headache ill have in the morning
Regret that’ll last longer than the ache
And of course to looking back and saying
“**** I can’t believe I did that!”

I feel nothing.

Your face,

your voice,

your laugh,

your smell,

They evoke nothing in me.

You dont make my heart soar

you dont make my mind blur

or my soul feel rich and full

you dont take my breath away

you dont give me palpitations

your complements mean nothing.

You used to be my greatest obsession.

Now you mean nothing to me,

because I mean absolutely nothing to you