My secrets are sins
that God washed away
my secrets still follow me
day after day
and God said “Forget 'em,
but don't go astray”
still I peek over my shoulder
and suddenly grow colder

A man who keeps followin' me
reminding me of the past
He doesn't exist
and all he does is laugh
A laugh I can't hear
So slow and so fast
his breath I can't smell
but it stinks like hell

I can't forget what's already forgiven
Lookin' for peace when it's already been given
And sometimes I feel I'm not even a man
Just a bag of bones and blood in the sand
Been washed by this tide
a thousand miles wide
a thousand times more to satisfy my pride.

You're always there but I don't always feel you
Most times I forget that you're near
It's like forgetting the feel of winter
'Cause it's the summer sun's burn you fear
And when it's fall you get the feeling
like a cold face you see in the mirror
that you forgot what's coming at you
'til an icy hand 'round your neck has grabbed you

This man needs to leave me
this battle I can't win
the man I can't feel keeps touching me
his non-existence is wearing me thin
alone I can do nothing
without You I'm a fish with no fin
my gills are sealed up
in a broken paper cup

a cigarette (could be empty
for all i care)
drips its fumes out into the air
as i sit on a cold bench
outside the airport.
i breathe it in
in and out.
it means something to me
i can feel it
i just don't know what.

i look, i listen
this music, its waves of sound
somehow making music
and the music means something to me
i just don't know what

the fire burns it down
approaching the filter at a speed
i cannot measure
try as i may
(and i have tried)
to measure its burning time accurately
i cannot determine when it will reach its destination

the filter looks to me and says
"careful,
don't burn yourself."
it looks to me and says
"Don't. Burn. Yourself."

this cigarette
(it could be empty
for all i care)
means something
i just don't know what.

these people mean something
i just don't know what, either.