He's good at writing
He's good at dancing
I'm not sure if he's into singing
but for sure he's good at guitar playing.

What else can he do that could make him better?
What can I do to know that I'm way better?

He can get your attention by doing this
Speaking so smart like he's the bigger piece
He's that tall thin guy that she liked before me
What is in him that makes him so much better than me?

I dance good, not that great
I write literature almost like it's my middle name
I'm in the band, I play the bass and sing
Why is he so much better than me for fck sake..


Disclaimer : Im just bored. So I came up with this.
/feb.17,2012/

Love is defined in many ways. Through the simplest thing that could bring biggest smiles and the most red blushes to a girl. Through the most humiliating teases of friends, to the hidden smile of a guy. For the youth today, love is seen in, sadly just through relationship statuses online, love is seen anonymously in the internet half way across the world. Love is, depressingly hard to know if real or reel because of the liberating actions of the new generation. But, how well do I know love? I am not sure, but I guess love is not just some stupid messages that you see in the screen of your desktop computers or laptops. It is an emotion that once felt, can't be controlled in one second. It is a feeling that we eventually develop for some one that we think we've been waiting for for a long time. Just like in Hades and Persephone's story. Hades laid an eye on her, like a lion eyeing for a lamb but not for dinner rather for a lifetime belongingness despite the fact that somehow he is a monster. And surprisingly, Persephone felt the same way. He's from down under, she's from up above, yet they gave love a definition that could've mean, love is worth fighting for, love is not about where you belong in earth, but to whom you should belong.

The heart beat stops
The time remains running
My breathe is stuck
I would like to keep going.

Without you, i am vicious
With out you, i am uncomfortable
But with you, i am an angel
With you, im not strong enough to be cruel.

Your eyes struck my mind
Your image remains from time to time
Your sweet scent makes me shiver
Cold yet in you arms i feel warmer.

I dare to look yet i can't.
I dare to be closer but i started to melt
I felt a bit insecure of your God-like features
But i know that you are mine and i am yours
till we reach the future.

The sun burns my skin and the rain makes me sick
I'm sleepless , i am weak..with you , i cant speak
You're a Goddess and i am your soldier
You are as impossible as forever

You froze me with your cold breathe
Your kiss taste like sweet bread
I want to stay with you
I want to be yours..this is true.

I felt rude , this ain't good
You've put half of your life to death
You are a victim of my killer bed
It is not right to stay this way..
what should i do?

With all these , i promise to make you safe
I am a hero wearing no cape
I maybe a person full of evil
But with you, for you, i can be an angel.

Sept. 11, 2009

(Nov.13,2011) (c)GheeSantos


I don't want to know, I just want to feel
It's been fast but this love is real
I've been weak, not your'e man of steel
but I want you just the way I'm supposed to feel.

I can't be hurt, not again, not by you
Id rather be deaf than know things that might hurt me too
Id rather stay quiet than have a fight for a day or two
But I love you, and I know that this is true.

I can't be deep as him and do the little things
I can't be superman and have your heart beating
All I can be is me and you can have me waiting
Youre the girl I'm most anxious to have her hand in a wedding.

We had our minds have their talks
We let them got out. those thoughts
I dont know why but it felt like broken boats
"the pain is now sinking in" that's what I thought.

I cant force myself not to think about it
but the things are like fishes that escaping from it
I may have hurt you too I'm sorry let's leave it
Let's start again no more getting even.

My heart is still sinking like a boat with a hole
I'm trapped in the ocean cant hold onto a pole
I hope you can rescue me and start a new role
I'd stay, I'd live, I'd love for you like youre a gold.

I may have cried a lot because of this
But I know you felt the same thing about those things
I'm sorry, let's be together and leave this
I love you, and I'm ready to change everything for a love like this.

I told you it's fine, I'll be okay
I thought the pain will go away
Thinking the stories will fade
But I guess, Im still in pain

I fake a smile, and kissed you
Saying it's fine and I love you
And I do, whatever Im in..it's all about you
Though tears keep on passing through

On the phone, I said I'm fine
when on the other line I was trying not to cry
'Was hoping you wont notice im about to die
Ive proven that im good in pretending. I lied

It's been months; still I'm here
When I should've walk away yet stayed
Cos everything's going well even if Im in tears
I'd lie a thousand times that Im fine while I die a little inside.

Behind the shadow of my painful past
There you will see me dying so fast
Agony, pain and anger is in me
The darkness of my EGO, the other side of me


Melancholic music captures my ears
Then my eyes started to burn, filled with tears
I star gazed, seeking for a light at night sky
Yet my eyes can't help but to cry and cry


The shadow of my disastrous and painful past
Keeps HAUNTING me until i breathe air down to its last
The gloomy music still wanders in both of my ears
And I still suffer the pain as I felt some fear.


Sept. 12, 2009

(Written Aug.19,2011)

She told me she loves me but I maybe wrong;
she asked for space but my love remained strong
She told me she wants me but for how long?
She asked me if I still want her; I think I'm wrong.

She lied to me; she broke my trust
She then asked for time, satisfying her lust.
She told me how tough I am without a fuss
she asked me til when can I keep up? Well I think I must.

She told me she's liking someone new,
She must be thinking "I may not be the right one for you."
She asked if I'm ready to let her go,
She seem surprised when I told her "I'm gonna meet someone new too."

I only met you once.
But your image lingered in my head more than twice.
Even in just a photograph, i cant stop looking at your eyes.
If i could hang out with you, it will be like ice.

I couldn't resist not to see your photo.
Just a little image, a little of you.
Searching for weeks, it is just you.
You who captured my heart,you that i want to talked to.

Observe my lips while i speak
Trembling, shaking when youre the one i think
It was easy to say this is one hell of a magic trick.
You can now call me, LOVE SICK.

I've been listening to your thoughts from afar
Tryna figure out the beat of your heart
I am no paparazzi, just call me your love bug
I cant say im the one for you, i can feel the air with love.

Im still hoping for you to notice it
The feelings that I ought to keep
No one can ever make me spill it
This is something I wanna keep as a secret.

But if its going to make me burst some tears
Then i must admit, i feel something close enough to "fear"
I should now stop dreaming of you my dear
I cant see any reason just to make this thing clear

Goodbye for now my love
Feel my presence when you see a dove
Wish i had a chance to take your hand
But fate tells this is the end.

Your gaze that sees through to my soul
Your eyes that are as dark as a coal
Your smile that made me fall
The laughter that I once could recall


The hand that i once held for awhile
The reason for little bashful smile
The moment that i feel fly
The feeling that told me to have it a try


Melancholy was now placed with another memory
An image that hanged me happily
Ecstatic feeling that i could feel with thee
I was hurt before but now i can feel that i am ready



(Sept. 15, 2009)