You find anything you can to deny me, my personal peace you seem to despise see?
To busy and focused nit pick so tiny, my life must encompass every minute of thee.
When I’m the subject so quick to criticize, and i theorize you’re unwise and mind other people’s lives. I guess  your ego blinds your eyes to lies , and despise the ties that bind the minds of ones who are kind.
Cause me to stumble waiting for my fall, an innocent look they don’t know you at all. Standing so pious like a statue tall, if one needs help it ain’t you they will call.
I don’t claim to be faultless, I have crossed some lines. Honesty broken is everyone’s crime, but I’m brave enough to admit this crime.
I do unto others only what is good, and can stand proudly where the honest stood.
I have followed the path as best I could, defining what’s right as I understood.
Playback rewind go through your mind, and try to find the kind of sign to remind the times you have dined on pride, and denied and lied.
So what are you proving coming after me, life is easier let others be. You must really be wrapped up in misery, to wallow in deep hypocrisy.
I say again and I put to thee, live your own life let others be.
Don’t judge others and peace you see, such is life Oui c’est la vie??

About life
The odds are crazy and they are stacked, the burden’s heavy and that’s a fact. determination you never lacked, but ambition has been cracked.
Things go well just for a while, a time and place that see’s you smile. The happiness does so beguile, from the heart flow’s like the Nile.
Happy moments like precious gold, joyful memories some untold.
Then black sadness dark as coal, grief thine heart securely holds.
Plant a kiss on baby’s nose, tickle its pink cute tiny toes. Then grows up bloom’s like a rose, what they become this no one know’s.
A new mate of life be grand, happy walking  hand in hand. Then one day it is the end, with hope at least to remain friends.
A rainy day a sunny sky, and each one has seen you cry. So depressed you know not why, you sun inside as eyes stay dry.
A loved one lost yet babies born, with emotions spirit torn. The crown of pain upon on thee worn, yet peace within the is adorned.
We grow up and become wise, and cope with what in future lie’s. We know   joy along with strife, be brave and strong….just face your life!!!

i maybe your nightmare, you think i am a dream, i can even walk you, right down in between.
i distort reality, make you not know what is real, i can even make you, not know how you feel.
i will promise heaven, while bringing you to hell.
the sacrifice you make now, you will never tell.
i’m the venus fly trap, i catch you in my spell, i know all your secrets,for to me them you must tell.
you know you can have me, we know very well, you will pawn the pride to me, your soul you will sell.
i got you i have, you i’m never letting go, you want me you need me, you can never just say no.
leave your children and family, and closely follow me, my dark cloak surround’s thee, my prisoner you will be.
i’m sickness the quickness, the source of your affliction, in blindness and thoughtlessness, your feelings under thick skin.
mindless and pointless, no regret for friction, i own you i thought you knew, for i am your addiction!!!

Not every game played has been won, certain years were not much fun.
Cloudy days without the sun, some promises were left undone.
Some friends false and others true, after this fact is when I knew.
Experiences old and new, time dragged on and yet
it flew.
So many memories I have lost, for others came away they washed.
To and fro this mind is tossed, I pay a price and that’s the cost
This mind wanders it will roam, in this brain yes it is home.
Others have friends with they’ve grown, but here  
I stand proud and alone

a moment in time. .crosses ones mind, a torrent divine. .tosses sublime, and sadness and joy do so intertwine. .for its realized. .the memories fine. .are somewhere behind. .and never again experience. .that time. . . so hold to heart thine. .as i wiil do mine. .memories in mind. .a moment in time. . . .

be self critical but don’t beat yourself up, be self confident just not too much. be compassionate know when’s enough, strict in control but never too tough. be understanding but do not be fooled, let each moment be the life school. be somebody’s shoulder they can lean on,be like the boulder support and stand strong. use the past as a guide to help you along,but you will get lost if you look back too long. do what you can and live for today, pay no mind to what others say, rumours will die they will go away, just work on yourself and you will be ok!

We all have things that each does worship....and you with a negative thought of it...is this one tip..let them believe on what makes them free...for you or I just might not see...that each shall choose their own destiny...and shall therefore accept it eternally..so what will be shall really be..each to their own as you and me!!!

To sit upon one’s own high horse and call someone else down, spit vile words and insults look on them with judging frowns. think you’re better in nice suits or fancy gowns, you wish in their addictions that they should all just drown.

What is it in your own life that you’re unhappy with?
Or is it just to try and with the popular ones fit?
Where’s compassion in your heart is there not one single bit? Not to care for their despair makes one’s heart a dark pit.  

I do not judge but do ask why, so many are like this. To make one day a bit easier for others is a wish.
If a heart can soften up to empathy’s kiss. Show care to all and not a single one to miss.

How can we be truly good as normal human beings?
And goodwill with no witness the heart for it redeem’s? you’re to wrapped up with your image the superficial see. And praised upraised applauded by public you pray to be. For the good so publicly you do so constantly. hitherto and unto you live hypocrisy.

As your Jesus lived and your god did state, your fellow man try to elevate, yet opportunity you eliminate letting goodwill slowly sit stagnate.

I do not judge but I speak the facts, you need to be seen doing false good acts. Giving Pennies holding gold filled sacks, you are a candle but you lack real wax.

I talk and maybe I do take action, I may do nothing or do it with passion.
It’s my own knowledge and satisfaction, I may not show it but may have compassion.

We don’t need to lead nor should we follow, or seek adulation that’s truly hollow.
we must all fight to not be shallow, give all a chance for a better tomorrow!!!

Listen, can you hear that, the rustling of those leaves?
See the gently swaying of the branches on the trees?
Isn’t life so beautiful, in this summer breeze?
Waves unseen but heard, cresting lively on the seas?

In the morning life’s great sun,
the moment of its rise?
Do you see the deep blue sky,
As you raise your eyes?
softly hear the fluttering,
of the butterflies?
The beauty of this whole world, no one ever deny’s?

See the splashes of each drop, every time it rains?
And the picture a rainbow, upon the sky it paints?
See a tiny whirlpool, when floodwater drains?
I have seen all of these, when I was still here.
I will always be this close, to your heart so near.
do not please your faith so lose, in your griefs sad tears.
Remember me and when you do, a part of me appear’s

things going down in an uncontrolled  tailspin, with the mindset that most are now living in, when if it did this sickness all begin, it’s worse not better that things are now getting, like a virus reality is infected from within.
all the world is going sideways off track crazy,
the violence and hate occasionally will face thee, even me the face of death does no longer faze me, reality insanity the line between these has now become hazy.
vilify or sanctify me like a deceiving rotten poisoned daisy.
mass media right or wrong saturates all influence, geared to remove our own minds inner independence, i value your opinion but neither do we less, and follow the program or left sitting on the fence.
you want to see someone die, hit the search tab and it’s there before your eyes, you have access to which you fantasize, unedited videos and pictures no lies.
this world is bad now it has become wicked, information highway is now everyone’s ticket, it’s sad and true what you want you can get it, open the search window on heaven or hell...CLICK IT!

I sit and then wonder, then i wonder some more, mind slowly drifting from my life’s shore. sitting and staring at the welcoming door, yet can’t decide to walk this inviting blank floor.
Is the grass greener better growing and tall, jumping the fence and just leaving it all.
do i answer the appealing inviting loud call, is it my heaven or to hell my last fall?
my cloud in this sunshine, so warm and divine, holds the peace captive and locked so behind, hurricanes and earthquakes in control of my mind.
what am i looking for, i really don’t know, feeling so empty to the pit of my soul. i have no objective with a set goal, only the hope to one day become whole.

you can’t help feeling down and totally worthless, your spirit is weak and feeling so lifeless, you outward smile but it’s all so pointless, feeling so down and oh so helpless.
you can’t come out with your secret confession, you believe no one else your grief can lessen, to find inner peace is all your wishing, caught in the grasp of this bad depression.
everyday is a struggle just to push through, how to get past it you just wish you knew, to search and find what it is to help you, frustration desperation and sorrow surround you.
take baby steps the next set is your goal, you made it today as long as you know, one track forward begin and just go, one seed of hope is all you need sow.
never give up in this worrisome night, where the soul is caught up in the cold with no light, work against it with all of your might,  one day you know everything will be right.
you have to believe one day you will smile, but accept it might not still be for a while, carry on walking that spiritual mile, sooner or later all shall reconcile.
i won’t pretend i know how you feel, or even a hint of what you conceal, i will not say it’s not a big deal, but i know and support your depression is real.
all i can do is help you to stay strong, to be beside you no matter how long, whatever it takes i shall help you along, i offer you my shoulder, my friend to lean on..

I gaze up to the night, and wonder where you are, im not really sure if you’re really here. I think deeply to myself, do you true exist, is it all a joke I somehow had just  missed. I asked so much of you, imploring in a prayer, I waited for an answer, and nothing I found there. I even made a promise to live a better life!! yet nothing much did change amidst all this heavy  strife!! Then I realize that, things do really change, everyday my soul , encounter’s peace so strange. I look up humbly so, in awe but with no fear. I find im thanking you, for me still being…..here

You ever have those awesome dreams, and oh so real it all just seems?
The great blue sky leaves on the trees, the warm sunlight light gentle breeze?
The spirit high and joyful free,
Everything seems right to thee?
The soul’s delight soar’s merrily,  you coast along so weightlessly.
Well I say this honestly, this is what dreams are to me
And then I wake so suddenly, back to life reality
I close my eyes sleep’s not to be, yet I try so hopelessly
Because in this dream a memory,  I woke up you’re not with me……. But I know again I’ll sleep, and my heart In dreams will seek,
To find you there the one unique, in life are gone my heart you keep

remember to just try each day to laugh and even smile
happiness is inside and this you should not hide…….
you know you care and positive  messages you can share
here or there you may be joyous as it’s anywhere …….
laugh and play be free your aura calm will steadfast stay
kind words they will mostly be generously honour made……
oh unto thee my fellow beings
i wish your hearts will see
what will be is how you choose
to make life truthfully….
meditate orate or pray or good rituals vocate
know good memories will stay
……..enjoy what is today

I look at you your so well made, admired by all eyes, you walk in pride with oh such grace, your beauty tells no lies.
your voice so smooth emotionless, to hear you talk is nice, you appear glide quietly, like wings of butterflies.

The smile so innocent demure, so many do admire, you’re manners and how you look, by everyone desired. No one knows i think i do, your poor soul is tired, your will to live seems all well, but it’s  long since been retired.
The hell you lived it’s still in there, but you try to hideThe innocence that once was you, torn savagely wide. the happiness that you recall, appears forever died, yet you try you don’t give, but you’re so broken deep inside!!

Go ahead and judge me, despise me, chastise me, revile me, evil eye me, with your stares in hell I’ll be

rebuke me,
Quote your bible verses, disown me with curses
Jesus is your saviour, not mine for my behaviour
I’m a spawn of Satan, the source of all you’re hating
Im just evil meditating
Your peace of mind I’m breaking

On me you’ve passed your judgement,
The source of your resentment
The sole unequal element,
And in heaven paid no rent

With my words I shatter peace
Sweet harmony displace
Sensuality in lace
I dare shove in your face

I chose to make a new path
No sanity I hath
I carry anarchy, try to draw you like a moth
My life now is as Thoth

You deny I am your friend
As equilibrium I rend
My life no good will end
Well now hear me defend

I bleed I feel I see and smell
Distinguish light and dark as well
I’ll pick someone up who just fell
And bend my knee When hear the knell
Yet you condemn me all to hell!!!

i’m not after likes at all for all the poems i write, i just think they’re adequate and maybe even right,how can me in darkness then thus give somebody light? i have just been gifted with the sharp and keen insight, and some things that bother you were never meant in spite. for some have been too sharp it seems the bark is like the bite, mixing words with colour so that black is just as white.  i only do this poetry to give your spirit flight, and give reprieve to heavy hearts to soar to greater heights.

i’m putting you on a pedestal on this special day
let me start off now as i have a lot to say.
this is all devoted to a mom who’s full of love
a gift as such was surely from the heavens up above
the gentle ever-caring one you are my snow white dove
tenderness forgiveness and compassion you are of.
here i am being self aware an adult on my own
because of you i made it here your care for me was shown
as i grew you were always near i never was alone
where you were is the place that always felt like home
i saw you smile and heard you laugh, i remember when you  cried
no matter what how hard it was you always, always  tried.
you worked so hard hand washed my clothes, and hung them out to dry
in winter froze you walked outside, took these cold clothes off the line.
there never was a holiday for you my dear loved one
keep the house clean and kids fed, the work was never done
you continued the tasks each day, while others had their fun
always taken for granted and this is every mom.
every person reading this would not be here today,  if not by birth the sacrifice was by all mothers made, so from the sweetest part of each heart we all humbly say....thank you mom for everything and a happy mother’s day

Everyone does look outside, for blame and fault to find
Try so hard the fact  denied, but mind knows what’s inside
A tongue so easily has lied, I’m honest you have cried
No account is on your side, for truth in you has died
So many lies have multiplied, and friendships they divide
To speak truth you so deride, it drowns in false lake’s tide
There’s chance it’s open wide, to try and make things right
For the fair why don’t you fight, have peace with you tonight

What am I looking for, what do I need.
Open the spirit door, mind be freed.
What does my soul abhor,
Yet not Afraid.
So much I adore,
To dust I’ll be laid.
Let me be relaxed,
Today be at ease.
Will stress now release,
Leave mind in Peace.
I reflect and you pray, to chase ill away.
And you must not relapse,
But stand to come what may!
Ideas dark gloomy grey,
Yet I’ll Stay another day.
Readjust then adapt, I always find my way.

mission is started and it will be accomplished, you decided to diss so you will  be demolished,
my mind is refined my wordplay is polished,  you’re
getting hit with verse like a hook from a right fist
followed up with a left one uppercut with a twist, try to hit back, unwise just you missed!
playing with fire you get scorched by the flames, third degree and beyond, the burn is your shame, your trapped by my rhyme, stuck in my domain you lose every sense child this is my game.
wilder than  wild i’m too hard to tame, your brain has been warped and never the same, go sit in the corner stay quiet and lame, try to confront me, no never again!

my words are hard and like a diamond they gleam on, you woke up the rhyming inner possessive high demon
you’ve been shut down and off before you even say game on, now all you can do is whine and mindlessly rave on.

news flash mind your self this is just stage one, zero in on your brain cell until the last one is done, i’m bringing you pain mentally this is fun,still playing this game even though i have won.
i shoot straight and quick like a laser, stinging your nerves like a taser, spewing forth word sets like a volcanos geyser, cutting you down fast and quick like a razor, try to keep up you’ll just lock up and seizure.

yes you started but now you are finished, your childish insults reduced and diminished,
you woke up the beast, im the nightmare the menace, i render you mute and stupidly mindless.

i lord over you my superiority
your inferiority only amuses me
you’re falling short to my intellectuality, you’ve been given a rhyming lesson this is the reality.
i’m  your sickness a deplorable disease, blocking all your insults desist and decease. heavy hitting verses knocking you to your knees, coming back at you you begging  stop please, now give up and quit it
i leave you in peace!!

Am i a flirt i guess i am and i cannot deny it, but do i try no i do not it’s just my natural habit,
all i do is just be me and then effects are rapid, i set a trap put up some snares and snag you like a rabbit.
i’m not vain nor am handsome but my words do get me there,
i weave a web with growling tone the wolf it’s fangs do bare,
supreme and gleaming confidence apparent in the stare, your hypnotized and held captive to move you do not dare.
annoying and amusing you my contradicting charm, the warning bells your senses have refuse to sound alarm, as i barely stand too close the hairs raise on your arms, a tingle rushes up your back and yet you feel too warm.
you hope i don’t but wish i do, conscience is split in two, that i take you in my arms you want i think i know, the leash i have around your heart will pull you where i go
my wit is fast as lightening flashing in the darkened sky, herbivorous carnivorous omnivorous is I, my jokes are never ***** though not like a pig in sty, but you get the gyst of it through my gleaming eye.

you be glad or mad at me because you’re not the first, neither of the previous have been got much less or worse,intellect is indirect transcends the universe, you all fall endearingly to my captive verse.

like a silent shadow though i follow on your track, observe the words that i do use and you might know my tact, i stole your heart so easily you know this is a fact,i’ll hold a piece and will be nice,  give you the rest right back!!

starting off minimal with syllables and nominal phenomenal optimal flow, decibels in treble
voice a growl i speak low!!
enticing exciting inviting poem writing, i’m a little devil a pen is my trident!
verbally undress you i possess in excess the finesse and prowess, impressed? i digress it’s a mess i confess, this syntax a test.
with a verse it gets worse i go first and i burst spitting out words.
a maniacal search overpower your church making your mind freeze then stutter and lurch.
not meaning you harm it’s all about charm, tickle your ear like a tongue it’s so warm.
i shall mesmerize double cross up your eyes sensual rhyme is like touching your thighs. these lines are like whips spew honey from lips getting attention like hands on your hips. here am i now you’re hearing me how weaving my crown breaks everything down, get ready to bow
on your knees low get ready to go i ain’t no charles dickens or ed allan poe.
prepare to be knighted mentally flipped and uprighted, who just upended you lefted and righted lift your eyes up here then you know  that i did!!
let’s try this again cause girl your my friend turn it around begin from  the end, get up and then stand then give me your hand you can now tell me that  i am the man


show me, what you can do please

I look at the sun shine, see the breeze in the trees
I’m trapped in my own mind, and I just want to be free
But while this cool wind blows, there’s a chill that it brings
There’s no place that I can go, so burdened by things

Watching the stream flow, like the tears from your eyes
They are like windows, your pain’s no surprise

Time is the ruler, nothing else wins
The end is much sooner, from the start it begin’s

I must remind me, and hear my confession
To just fight blindly, overcome my depression

So easy to quit, and shatter the dice
But I must stay cold, remain solid as….ice

Im thankful for the sunshine, and thankful for the night.
Im thankful for this one time, and thankful things go right.
Im thankful for the weather, wind snow rain and ice.
Im thankful for whatever, comes my way that’s nice.
Im thankful for my mother, and her sacrifice.
Im thankful for my father, who gave me much advice.
Im thankful for the bad days, for the good follow’s behind.
And thankful for babies, on parents they depend.
Im thankful for so much more, this list will never end.
Most of all im thankful , because you are my true friend

I try to be positive all the **** time, when things go wrong I say it will be fine.
I walk through cloudy days is if the sun shines,
Frustration I keep locked so deep in my mind.
The words I speak to all so sublime, while doubt and wonder I keep as all mine.
Always happy and infectious carefree, no worry is apparent to be seen by thee.
But this is not true and I do worry like you, I just tell my self that another day’s new.
So each day I make it and I push through, if you think about then so can you too

You try all you can to capture the wind, put out your hands and cup them in.
open them up but it’s gone again, it’s the same outcome if you try again.
stand in the stream to stop the water flow, it always has a path it chose to go.
you build a **** but it just barely slows, eventually a leaks and erosion shows.
you block the sunshine to keep it on you, as soon as you move it still shines through.
you built a wall and higher it grew, but time will win and sunlight is on new.
you try so ******* your sad sad mind, to hold me there but it soon unwinds.
you open your eyes hopeful and wide, but i’m not there you soon do find!
you may have had me one time you know, and me being there this fact did show.
but things do end we both do know, so cry not my dearest...just let me go.

you can question my sanity, lace words with profanity, accuse me of vanity, an oddity, in spite of me living in simple reality.
you can intentionally despise , ill-willing attempt to entice, reputation abuse and defile, go and revile, use all your wiles, i’m unaffected i sit here and smile.
you can call me the devil, unrepenting and evil, unbeliever, deceiver life’s cantilever, stirring up masses in unbridled fever, i reply with nothing for nothing is neither.
creating complicating synthetic syntax for the quick mind, overpower’s the ones lax,
splitting your brain cells with a  dictionary axe, only in truth do i put forth the facts.
i am normal not crazy insane, but i play minds like you play video games, i could leave you in verse borderline and deranged, this was always me and nothing has changed, it’s my revelation that you think is so strange, welcome to my mind as it roams the free range.
who i am is what i will be, no need to to change who you now do see, i accept you as thee…so just let me be

Life is a beginning, but death is not the end
Relatives or family and maybe a good friend
You’ll no longer see my footprints, upon this hallowed ground
And hear no more my footsteps, in death
They’ll make no sound
On earth you will not see me, but soon you all shall follow
The sun no longer shines on me,
I shall no longer cast a shadow
Shed a tear, if you must, and I will understand
I am near, just at rest, In the promised land
Remember me the way you will , as humble, even grand
November reigns and all things freeze,
Not a single flower stands
I am not gone, I’m just away in gods all loving hands
It won’t be long, to see the day
Together we will stand
Angel’s wings are fluttering, so softly I do hear
The heavenly harp is playing, I know now I am near
Now say goodbye just for a while, and pray all do not fear
I am now approaching, to heaven oh so near
And now my soul does soon rejoice
I rest eternal dear

Welcome to my nightmare, come on in if you dare, a sinister world of death pain and dispair . This is a place you will never relax, and you will never know peace even  if you beg or or you ask. Zero eight two eight the wolf was born on this date the year of sixty six, 1966. The 4th of twelve kids in the clan at the age of eleven I became a man, my very first best friend died about then, run over by a car in a coma for a month, the balance of his life was hanging on the edge. If he ever came out of this comatose state there was word he would never be normal again. Well he never came out of this life and death line the carefree and loving kid in me died. I made a pledge around about then that I would never have a best friend, no never again. I kept that promise for about five years cause my uncle B J G came to befriend me, i finally found someone who did understand me, he taught me to smoke, we'd laugh and we'd joke my sense of humour and life had awoke. 8 years later when I was 23, my second best friend died and left me, a perfect record. 2 best friends had 2 friends died. That very same I had another friend who I thought would be around right to the end, he's still around right? Guess again, he took his life with a sawed off gun, now number 4 are you ready for more?..I'll give e you a hint, traces of his blood still show on my door, that's why I won't call anyone a best friend anymore. Ive given up on friends cause they gave up on me. as I'm writing this poem I'm sitting about 15 feet from where one of my  friends died, their maker did meet. Life has been rough pretty god ****** unsweet. That's why I won't bow down I don't know defeat.  I've been pretty crazy with all my hard drinking to this day I don't know if I would do anyone in...but if anyone were to act up  even right now, who knows they might end up 6 feet under ground, or they might disappear and never be found.  I'll keep on being defiant no matter what the cost, I am the way I am because of the friends had and lost. Yeah life is hard and so ****** wicked!, but life is what you choose to make-make of it...life is hard and so ****** wicked,  but life is what you choose to make-make of it....

you feel sad unattractive, one who’s defective. you’re negatively subjective, self attitude destructive.
you treat yourself unfair, with others compare. you really shouldn’t dare, you say you don’t but you care.
outwardly display youre affable, self esteem low unbearable. the pretence isn’t laughable, for inside you feel horrible.
you see clothes that you want, but you say that you can’t. this is where it’s really at, your self confidence lays flat.
you should be very thankful, stop acting like a fool,
stop treating yourself sad cruel, for inside you’re beautiful.
just learn to let it go, inner happiness let show.
you’re a treasure much like gold…i thought i’d let you know

I look within and try to find a soft and caring place,  I feel so cold no feeling there deceit is on my face. there is no shock or sadness there, my heart it seems so bare , sympathy or tenderness I search it everywhere.  yet I outward will contradict with words i say and write, and utilize what others feel somehow it don’t seem right. What is it and who am I who hath no tears to cry, is my heart true made of ice and long since it has died??
there is no love but nor is hate within me does reside, an emptiness a vacuum, of life it is devoid. yet i function normally in fact exceptionally,  maybe just unwritten plans that i was meant to be. I’m not cruel nor am i soft, i’m somewhere in between, i can be cold but normally the nicest you have seen. am i ****** a bit deranged i really do not know, but sanity does normally abide inside of me. i do not worry nor be stressed when i do think of me, as  i am then what  i am is who, i will always  be

If you’re outside on winter’s night
In clear sky moon is bright, crisp cool air and carpet laid by the snow so white, upon the ground and all around on snowflakes does glint light.
Or in the day this weather shows the gentle falling flakes, oh what a site your heart is light a smile does cross your face,  the happiness is so complete nothing can replace.
You catch a glimpse of a loved one completely in your mind, as tears I know yes they do fall, from your sad sad eyes. And you blink so deep you think, for they make you a moment blind, for the happy memories show that we’re there far behind.
Remember those light snowflakes? That fell softly upon the ground? Or the sparkle on this snow, on amazing moonlit nights?
It’s to show they’re still around, their spirits float near thy. and when you do remember them, they’re right there by your side.
When it’s warm or if it’s cold
Precious memories you should hold. for they shall not in life grow old but precious just like gold
I wish you peace upon your heart, for joyfullness can last.
Use the mind and just relive your joyful Christmas past.
There is a life to live today and future happiness, they would be glad for you to be, happy nonetheless, so in this poem on their behalf, and their souls say  en masse, good will to thee I bring you peace, be merry this Christmas

It’s not about the dollars and the odd cents, it’s the pure care through a simple present sent.
No amount of money or shiny new stuff, replaces one heartfelt and genuine hug.
Visualize a pure clean Snow White gentle dove, the symbol of honest unselfish pure love.
Yes purchase a gift that shows your true feelings, it’s the spirit of giving that’s the best revealing.
Focus on Christmas the reasons so true, the best gift to receive is just knowing what’s true, im just very thankful to know the real you, and im honestly happy to say for this Yule.
So know I am happy that you’re all still here, Merry Christmas my friends and happy new year

i ask of you that spirit we call ours, the one they call the higher power, but all the same it’s my creator, you of all who is much greater
let me be given to see another sunrise, and to see it set with thankful eyes. let me forgive all
malicious lies, help me refrain to say words unwise, for with me all rumour dies, if i slip my soul chastise.
if it be your great persuasion, give me that which is the vision, to bring together mans division, to foster hope upon the horizon.
look on your servant if you may, as an instrument of what to say, to help another through their day, to remove all doubt and sad dismay.
if it is by your great choice,
invoke your wisdom through my voice, to bless another you bless me twice, in me goodwill please optimize.
this is not a normal prayer, for no name is given there, living things are well aware, they do know you’re everywhere, your image everyone shall wear, you see each soul before you bare.
again is my own supplication, instil the words of understanding, teaching good and for good standing, to not forget yet be forgiving, to respect all things for all is living, to seek no end but new beginnings.
as you are from infinity, i humble bow my head to thee, i accept with pride your will to be, i gladly follow my deity this path to walk you chose for me!!

my dearest incomparable heart, i was mesmerized by you from the start. cupid shot not with and arrow but a dart, for i can’t stand when we’re apart.

from the top of your head and down to your toes, and everything in between i love all those, i feel yes complete when we’re hugging so close

if one were to even think dare, there is nothing to you will compare. my soul for you i lay bare, for me it’s just you who’s in there.
if i am down you alone  
make me smile, erasing my frown and for much quite a while. your charm is a weapon a wile, your beauty has locked me inside love’s turnstile.

the day you said so true you are mine, the hearts and love birds flocked around in my mind. so seductive those eyes
they made me fall blind, i left all worry and woe far behind.
i know you’re not perfect but then neither am i, but to find imperfection in you i don’t try.
for i am for you and you are for i, when i am with you oh so blue is the sky.
being together is like heaven it seems, the game of love played we’re such a good team. but what i am telling you and what i mean, i am awake but you’re always...my dream

I close my eyes and im there again, then I smile because I still have my friend. The mind dissolve’s all the passing years, I hear your voice and laugh so clear. The same routine we always had on track , like pause rewind then hit the playback.  You walk through the door don’t even knock,  pour yourself coffee then we sit and talk. Story time when we were so much younger, playing outside or at the river. Yes those were the days but it’s been decades, the sunny paths of youth now in the shade. I open my eyes the memories fade, in this past I wish I had stayed. You’re just a memory of my youth, this cold and emptiness is the truth. I close my eyes now for I fear, that the young unknowing might see my…..tears

The work you’ve done, you always tried. The hurt you felt, and pain you’d hide. The help you gave, to those who’ve cried.
The thanks you got, good was on your side.
You did not brag, kept deeds inside.
Others seem to be so hollow, you do what’s right the path you follow.
You freely gave what others borrow, as better days will come tomorrow.
You carry other’s heavy sorrow, so in grief they shall not wallow.
By no means are you perfect, but you walk with true respect.
You show you care though indirect, doesn’t matter if they forget.
You give of without personal fear, for material is briefly here.
Tradition of giving you hold so dear, to good spirits I hope you’re near.
I wrote this poem and just for me, then I found in words reality. To be kind potentially, this poem thus applies to thee!!

All my life you were always there, you were not shy to show you care.
You guided me with insight fair,
And filled my days when all seemed bare.
From a baby to a child, your tender heart so loving mild
As a teen I was so wild, you steered me right and sometimes smiled.
Then I grew and on my own,
You made me feel never alone
No matter where I chose to go,
Where you were, was always “home”.
Your waning years, begot some fears
I have shed so many tears, for you have gone, my heart so dear.
I never thought that this would end, in agony my soul does rend
The parenting on me you spent, turned me into your best friend.
I can not help it and I cry, life has changed the day you died
But now I must this last goodbye, with much love I won’t deny
On those angels wings soul glides, to heaven now to peace do fly.....and one day my soul thee’s nigh

Hey, come hang out with me, and let’s watch some TV
“I’m on a streak, just one more match” is what you say to me
Now it’s late, the show is done’
And I watched it with no one

Let’s go for a jog, and do two miles, it will take but just a while.
“I’m messaging a friend of mine” you tell me with a smile
I get on the treadmill, just to use up some spare time

Come into the living room, and I will tell stories all true
You reply “I’m sure I’ve heard,all those tales before from you”

Come help me work on the  car
I’ll show you what to do
“Im busy on YouTube right now, and watching  videos”
I work alone, finish the car, as another day it goes

Now I can’t run much anymore, and time has slowed me down
“Why don’t you come and jog with me?” You ask me with a frown
I can’t remember stories, I had lots just for you
“How come no more stories are ever told by you? Is it because they were not true?”
Is all I hear from you

Time is cruel it carries on, with no consideration true
My strength and my own stamina, and memory is going too

My child I tried so very hard, just to make you see, how much time I sacrificed and it was all for thee, now the person I once was becomes a memory...the time I tried to give you child.....oh so desperately, as life it takes this very time, slowly day by day
This life I tried to give you time, life now takes it all from me....

You can have my body but you’ll never take my heart, it’s been lost somewhere from the start. to have real feelings i try so very hard, you want to hurt me you can’t touch one part.

In frustration you say such hurtful things, this wall goes up knowing word assault begins. emotion takes flight on its golden wings, it is a war no one ever wins.

Why do we stay together i don’t even know, genuine care neither of us truly show. all you wish is to keep me in control, defying common logic you won’t just let me go.

You hurl profanity and insults while standing there, you don’t realize that your not getting anywhere. my nerves are steel hard even when they’re bare, you don’t realize that i no longer care.

I look at this one picture, oh so many times.
For it brings a clear memory, so fresh in my mind.
it feel’s like that same day, is right here not behind.
when i close my eyes , the happiness i do find.
i may be foolish, to breathe in the past.
childishly wanting, joyous feelings to last.
but i wish so truly, it didn’t end so **** fast.
but i hang on so stubbornly, to this memory hast.
yes you are gone now,  my broken heart knows.
the saddest of all, of my sad spirits woes.
you’re no longer here,
my soul in pain throes.
for wherefore thou are, is not what we chose!!

i remember clear the day that you last went away, never had a chance to tell you what for want to say.
never stopped to visit you when i had some free days, this is what i can’t undo it stays with me always.
if i did at times to you go and say hello, i was always busy and had so much i had to do.
the chasm which i caused divide had widened through and through, i see now and way back then i really wish i knew.
now you’re not here and you can’t see i’m sitting all alone, my mind plays back the memories so aimlessly it roams. karma came and paid me back your loneliness i own, no knock upon that lonely door to hear this lonely home.
as you wished now so do i my lonesome heart does cry, can someone come visit me won’t somebody try. i ask myself in  sadness now please tell me just why, there’s no one to see the tears fall freely from my eyes.
as it is and as it was these things will always be, we reduce in negligence each other thoughtlessly. because our lives are our time we keep it selfishly, even time that we can give but nothings ever free.
i still hurt in loneliness and i never shall forget, our time will come our own lives will, see the last sunset, i took little time to visit you, this is my regret!!

Through the years I remember that, you were always there for me.
I a child you fed and clothed, and done so happily,
No complaints through all that, you cared for each selflessly.
From pure love it’s a fact, you worked so endlessly.
And each life of a child, needs such care everyday.
And when grown as adults, all children move away.
Time nor the distance, keeps this love and it stays. Now as stones parents lay, and resting in these graves….in all truth, appreciation, generations, hearts do say, thank the mom and the dad in each life that each has had…I miss you but I pray, peace be with you now always…you are gone from this life but the love, caring ways , memories with me all my days

my feet touch softly upon the hard ground, my personality brings tremors and ripples all around. much like an earthquake i’m quiet but loud, not too humble you see i stand proud.
boisterous an imp but not an imposter, annoyance and happiness a mental task monster, getting on your nerves but blended with  laughter, i guarantee you will smile, when you think after.
i am direct and show no attitude, though my remarks seem to you in fact rude. you may reflect and feel some gratitude, wisdom and humour you find you’re imbued.
if i do choose i can be quite  seductive, to common sense atomic bomb blast-like destructive.
directing deep thoughts towards whats reproductive, the question one ask’s is what’s my objective? but here it goes again  i’m always evasive, thoughts through your mind am i counter subversive?
propriety insanity melded and welded no longer divisive.
your brain is the house where i knock on your window, hand signs by design lightly veiled innuendo. i hint maybe later you reply yes but when though. i say when the door is open to the jengo.
my selection of words causes so much confusion, easier to learn about nuclear fusion. is this all real or is it illusion, you really don’t know me it’s just an allusion. spinning your mind so it’s close to collusion, all inhibitions now begin to loosen.
now your as guilty by association, but you may very well feel appreciation, finding your self in this situation, i’m just playing...this is recreation!!

Do I bow my head and pray, no one knows I will not say. Am I perfect no im not, who I am is all I got. Do I judge another when, they are doing all they can? Will I watch another suffer, or try to make their life much better? I do wrong sometimes I know, but do all my own true virtues show? I have my days when I am down, but you will not see me frown. I have my battles in my mind, just like you being lost and blind. I feel emotions harsh and strong, but I relax and they don’t last long. don’t let negative block my way, I know there comes a better day.you can do this if you try, just choose to smile no need to cry.  now you can that grief release, replace it with some inner Peace. Control your will and stress much less, then you will feel more happiness.

my body’s done my soul has gone unto the spirit world, no more pain or worry now i’m free as summer birds.
i know when i left you’re broken heart was hurt, the suffering so unbearable for it you have no
words.
every time  i know you cry when you remember me, this is life though very hard and how it has to be.
everything must turn to dust even the old trees, one day we will meet again you just wait and see.
please believe of what you hear because its really true
as long as you remember me, i’m always there with you

Just close your eyes and realize, that nothing really ever die’s.
Take a breath and then relax, memories are happy facts.
Visualize one glorious day, the happiness inside will stay.
A thought so quick of joyful youth, make’s you smile this is the truth.
In your mind you hear one laugh, your glad heart is your life’s raft.
When you cry once in a while, I’ll be here to make you smile.
So close your eyes and sleep now please, I’ll be here so rest In Peace

i bring disorder chaos is me, hurricane force a cyclonic tornado
the eruption is obvious, my words are volcanos.
hot like lava flowing outward,
tearing up your life like a jumbled crossword.
your peace i hate and is my nemesis, happiness and sadness what an antithesis.
i sow negative your mind is my garden, soft caring hearts i work to harden.
cancerous and rotten right to the core, you say stop it, i give you more.
my dedication to every nation to be consternation-irritation mass subjugation.
a lie to make truth be spit out sour, every single second 24 hours, destroy what’s right set fire to flowers!
divide what is peace and i prefer sooner...what am i you ask, i reply
“RUMOUR!!”