so smoothly and stealthily, i prowl through my life’s  forest.
the scars i bear i proudly wear,
i keep  them like a vest.
i don’t recall of them all, which one would be the baddest.
a broken heart a damaged mind, can’t tell which is the saddest.
they’re physical and mental marks, words like thorns still buried deep that others ****** on me.
it’s quizzical amusement dark, with much force you try so hard, to cruelly cold  hurt me.
you can’t touch the feelings, calloused with old scars.
i play this game all the time, you try to make me sad.
i stay the same i do not mind,
and why you get so mad?
you call me names like dumb, try get under my thick skin.
my nerves are tempered numb,
through hell is where i’ve been.
been there and i survived, i’ve crossed a grief filled  gulf.
and yet here I am alive, nothing hold’s down “THE WOLF”

Sometimes I think when we were young, that simple things were so much fun.
With time’s one blink that is all gone, these fickle joys have come undone.
Played outside in freezing temps or sleet and snow or windy rains.
Stayed inside in late pm’s, our feet and toes were thawed in pain, but come next day we’re out again.
We had sword fights or played at war, our generation all have scars.
Hide and seek or just plain tag
Younger siblings on sleds we’d drag.
The generations how have changed, to their phones or game consoles chained.
Don’t even know if it had rained, so busy playing video games.
Technology was meant to make, one’s life much like a piece of cake.
Virtual reality is a fake, but so real is how much time it take’s.
This is life for all these days, computer age now always stays..keeps taking lives through all wifi’s, glowing screens now fills our eyes.
As days go by, we miss blue skies and rarely look to see birds fly...this cyber world I do despise, it took control and multiplies the life it steals....our free will dies

I try to be positive all the **** time, when things go wrong I say it will be fine.
I walk through cloudy days is if the sun shines,
Frustration I keep locked so deep in my mind.
The words I speak to all so sublime, while doubt and wonder I keep as all mine.
Always happy and infectious carefree, no worry is apparent to be seen by thee.
But this is not true and I do worry like you, I just tell my self that another day’s new.
So each day I make it and I push through, if you think about then so can you too

All my life you were always there, you were not shy to show you care.
You guided me with insight fair,
And filled my days when all seemed bare.
From a baby to a child, your tender heart so loving mild
As a teen I was so wild, you steered me right and sometimes smiled.
Then I grew and on my own,
You made me feel never alone
No matter where I chose to go,
Where you were, was always “home”.
Your waning years, begot some fears
I have shed so many tears, for you have gone, my heart so dear.
I never thought that this would end, in agony my soul does rend
The parenting on me you spent, turned me into your best friend.
I can not help it and I cry, life has changed the day you died
But now I must this last goodbye, with much love I won’t deny
On those angels wings soul glides, to heaven now to peace do fly.....and one day my soul thee’s nigh

Hey, come hang out with me, and let’s watch some TV
“I’m on a streak, just one more match” is what you say to me
Now it’s late, the show is done’
And I watched it with no one

Let’s go for a jog, and do two miles, it will take but just a while.
“I’m messaging a friend of mine” you tell me with a smile
I get on the treadmill, just to use up some spare time

Come into the living room, and I will tell stories all true
You reply “I’m sure I’ve heard,all those tales before from you”

Come help me work on the  car
I’ll show you what to do
“Im busy on YouTube right now, and watching  videos”
I work alone, finish the car, as another day it goes

Now I can’t run much anymore, and time has slowed me down
“Why don’t you come and jog with me?” You ask me with a frown
I can’t remember stories, I had lots just for you
“How come no more stories are ever told by you? Is it because they were not true?”
Is all I hear from you

Time is cruel it carries on, with no consideration true
My strength and my own stamina, and memory is going too

My child I tried so very hard, just to make you see, how much time I sacrificed and it was all for thee, now the person I once was becomes a memory...the time I tried to give you child.....oh so desperately, as life it takes this very time, slowly day by day
This life I tried to give you time, life now takes it all from me....

Go ahead and judge me, despise me, chastise me, revile me, evil eye me, with your stares in hell I’ll be

rebuke me,
Quote your bible verses, disown me with curses
Jesus is your saviour, not mine for my behaviour
I’m a spawn of Satan, the source of all you’re hating
Im just evil meditating
Your peace of mind I’m breaking

On me you’ve passed your judgement,
The source of your resentment
The sole unequal element,
And in heaven paid no rent

With my words I shatter peace
Sweet harmony displace
Sensuality in lace
I dare shove in your face

I chose to make a new path
No sanity I hath
I carry anarchy, try to draw you like a moth
My life now is as Thoth

You deny I am your friend
As equilibrium I rend
My life no good will end
Well now hear me defend

I bleed I feel I see and smell
Distinguish light and dark as well
I’ll pick someone up who just fell
And bend my knee When hear the knell
Yet you condemn me all to hell!!!

The sands of life they once did walk.....in your mind you see the track
They are gone now many years
And washed away the path by tears
How many times if they looked back
Would they see one hint of that

The winds of time so strongly blow
These grains of life no longer show
Every minute day and hours
Every spring it’s April showers
Holds a memory in its powers
Each memory is always ours

Just keep on going, and don’t look back
Even knowing, you leave your tracks
The sands of time the grains of life, are slowly swept away in flight
Take each grain of sand this time, as it is, precious, divine
As I know I’m Losing mine
I cherish it like gold is fine
Hold every moment oh so dear,
As the end is looming near
Face this truth and have no fear
One day each track erased by tears!!