She was my best friend until she lost him
I cannot control my need to let her go and rid myself of her burden
But in the deepest part of myself I am broken

She was my dark side and my light
I hate her for all the things she has done but I hate me more
Why cant we all be "friends"?
Maybe because its all a load of ****!

There are catalists that I wish would disappear, the root of so many evils
To a passer by it is but a beautiful Rose that doesn't smell so sweet from up close.

Take my hand and let me lead you through the garden of flowers
Lay your head down in the daisies and look up to the dancing dogs and laughing monkeys in the sky
Raise your hand to feel the air rush by

These are the times of our life that allow us to rest our weary hearts and minds
To unclip our baggage and though it still lies beside us we are light and alone for a short while
For all the troubles and challenges of life there are moments of calm
There are moments of quiet
They are the raft in the middle of a vast ocean and although you know it will eventually break and float away
It will carry you through a few waves

Take my hand my friend and let me lead you through the garden of flowers
Lay your body down next to mine and in the breeze and the sun beams let us be quiet
See the sky and hear the grass sway
Let time be but a memory of a past life that has been mislaid

Close you eyes

Shut out the light

Let the darkness take over your mind

Breath it in

Don't hide

Let it trickel like a stream and turn into a waterfall

Feel the depths of yourself

The place you had not felt before

Let it fill your every void

Let it hide your every pain

Until only nothingness remains

Allow everything you fight everyday to shrivel up and fall away
Take it to the end of your soul and bring it back again

And when it seems that everything is truely lost
Open your eyes and be blinded by the light

Let it chase the darkness away and with it all the sadness and the pain

You will find out of the darkness come the brightest light
If you first allow yourself to face the fear of the the unknown
And trust yourself to guide you back to what you where before

The life you lost was never gone
But buried deep within you all along

Let the darkness carry all your days of fear away
Allow your love of life to start again
And know
Out of Darkness Comes The Brightest Light.

Sometimes I think I know,
And then I remember I don't.

When I'm in need it's always you
But when I'm strong my need is gone
What does that mean?

Who are you to have this effect on me but still I am not allowed to truly love you

When it appears you are no longer partly mine
I yearn for you

And when you have another to distract and occupy your mind
you turn back to me every time

How do I love you
When will the penny drop
Are you the one or are you not?

To be around you now
I feel that there has been love lost
But still a fragment remains
Enough to fill the hole upon my heart
Others have tried to fill in vain

The thought of you I fear
Is a fantasy of heights
Never to be reached by others
Or worse by yourself

Where is the line drawn on sacrifice and lovers less?
Do you wait to find the certainty of every want
Or at a point,
And dare I say
Settle on a lesser love

How easy it would be to just love and be loved
To know and be known
No doubt
No hesitation
Just to purely, deeply, love another

But alas it is not so
To love it not a friend nor is it a foe
But vague and uncertain
It is blind
Like walking through a foggy night

You are the flicker of a flame in the spectrum that is love
And even though it may be small
It is there where no fire was before

Is love a flower if not watered will not survive

Or is it eternal and needs nothing to stay alive

Alone I stand within the crowd
A million bodies just outside
My hand that lies upon the pain
That forever keeps me out

In sight of eyes that look straight through me
A pain of glass I'm barely balanced
To fall and shatter would be so easy
Just a knock could break my stance

What love that burns so deep
the light that flares a thousand miles
of caves so dark the world above is lost
to that which it once was

From plain a heart
that was left to seek another
while left bereft of the hands that held its two halves together
Of where does such sadness live
On what does it survive
When starved and broken
From where does it find its fight
If love was the solider from heaven sent
Why would it allow its two halves to separate

Intertwined the threads of love that remain
Are bold as the ivy that strangles the tree in its embrace
From such intense love comes the most devastating heart break
And in the final hours of the day
The final moments you wish you could forget
They are the friends that hold you back
They are the walls that protect
They are the soldiers that stand and fight
For when the light is dimed and the moon not yet arisen
The in-between that allows the heart to rest
Is the eye of the storm of loves great battle lost.