To be a "Dad" is really tough,
not to mention kind of rough.
Demanding this expecting that,
trying not to be the ole doormat.
No matter what the issue may be,
my son can always count on me.
To be there through the thick and thin,
to open my heart and let him in.
Open arms and a open mind,
really helps when being kind.
The day your child is finally born,
your heart becomes suddenly torn.
Between the masculine guy you were,
to having all this love for him or her.
A love so deep and ever so strong,
hoping they will never do wrong.
But, this we know is the impossible dream,
soon we discover they even scream!
Then we see that they are people too,
and hope they turn out just like you.
Again we see that this is fiction,
and pushing to much can cause some friction.
So, back to having that open mind,
will surely pay off in due time.
Now, no matter what they say or do,
take the time to say "Love you."
And when they can learn to say it back,
you know you got them on the right track.
The track of love, caring and concern,
the lessons of life, they live and learn.
And when he grows and have kids of their own,
they'll share the same love that their father has shown.

THIS IS WHAT I CALL A "FATHER'S LOVE"

Dear Heavenly Father, I have a confession to make.
For I have received yet another heart break.
She stole my heart, broke it in two,
Then said, “I’m no longer in love with you”
Father, why does she have to be this way?
Please tell her I don’t want to hear what she has to say.
Father, for I have committed a sin,
That day when I let her in.
I want to forget her & what we once had.
All because she lied to me and made me sad.
Father, I am done playing her game.
I’m done with her handing me all the blame.
So if you would father, help me out,
And please show her what this is about.
For I still love her father
But she doesn’t love me so don’t even bother.
She said it was all a lie,
Father she made me cry.
I am weak but have to be strong
Father, what she did was wrong.
I know that now, I knew that then
Please father; get rid of these horrible women.
She used to control me father
Stop what things used to be.
I guess what we had was fake father.
This is the confession I had to make
She never loved me father.
So please don’t even bother
I don’t need someone to hold me tight
I was wrong & they were right
All I need is something that’s not there father
All I needed was for her to care
Father I do not want to let her go.
But its time, and we all know.
Father, my confession may be sad, or a bore,
But my heart hurts so much more.
Pleases father take the pain.
Remember she once said I was a little insane.
Take away the scars caused by this knife.
Oh please father, just take her out of my life.
I miss her so much father.
I miss her kiss and her touch.
For I must leave father,
Cause no one will ever replace me as the babies father
This is my confession.
They all said she was ‘my obsession’.
Father the time has come for me to stop needing her,
Now I believe them father.
Father I need some help down here.
Because you knew loosing her was my fear.
Now you’ve heard my confession, the one I had to make,
So please forgive her for her love, that was so fake

I seize in the day, I seize in the night

Convulsions plague me throughout my life

  The stiffness comes, And then it goes

But the worst is afterward, when I’ve discovered that my friends can turn into foes

The mere sight of it has scared them off

As a result they laugh, taunt and scoff

I seize in the day, I seize in the night

Medicines plague me throughout my life

The neurologist says “Let’s try this one”

Dilatin, Depakote, Tegretol, Topamax

They try my last nerve, Until finally I say

“Haven’t you tried enough on me, you quacks?!?”

I seize in the day ,I seize in the night

Must I wear a “dogtag” for all my life?

This little tag, on my necklace, it labels me

Can’t you see the medical symbol and on the other side in big bold letters “EPILEPSY”

It’s a ****** on the self-esteem

It’s a reminder that I belong to a different regime

One of a nature gone to extremes, If that is what I let it be

I seize in the day,  I seize in the night

I don’t give up, I say to my brain and my soul, “Fight, Fight, FIGHT!”

I’m frustrated and don’t give up
Although there are times when I want to, I don’t.

I’ve been a fighter from the day I was born

And in the heat of this battle of neurons and neurologists

My determination and perseverance were forged.

The more I seized, the more I fought

Through the trauma of it all, lessons were learned and taught

And the more I seized, the more I realized

  That Epilepsy was a lesson in Serenity.

my addiction to your love and body engrosses me so
your love in your eyes shine in my soul your body so beautiful my Paradise complete
loving everything you do to me
every thing you want every thing you need
wanting to be the air you breathe
addicted to you your body makes me smile
pleasure going on way beyond time
peaking sensations contentment so deep
you and I will forever be
love and lust in harmony
moving in circles inside of you
feeling all the love I feel from you
addicted to you words could never contain
the pleasure I feel when you moan my name
so lover with your body strong emotions deep
your body and mine forever to be love done always addiction so complete
can't get enough you
never will there ever divide
my addiction for your love and body till the end of time

What ever happened to love?
What ever happened to all the dreams we shared?
The way you showed me how you care
What ever happened to all the tender kisses?
What ever happened to what was suppose to be
Mr. & Mrs.?
What ever happened to walking down the street
hand in hand?
Through all sorts of weather
What ever happened to your promises and
your undying trust?
All the precious moments we shared together?
What ever happened to love?
What ever happened to
You And I

Always and forever

Two people in love try to deny
The feelings they have for one another inside
The relationship that lasted so long
But in between somewhere, something went wrong
The relationship ended up with hurt and pain
After all the terrible feelings
There was nothing left to gain
The emotions of love never left their hearts
They were to close, for too long
They thought they would never fall apart
If they'd try harder, their love again
I'm sure they would see
All the love they were trying to hide
Was meant to be

Thinking of all the pain I went through
Thinking of how I use to get hurt
Thinking of all the lonely nights I use to spend
Thinking of what Id be doing if we hadn't met
I really feel that all the pain and suffering is all over now
I thank you with all my heart
cause your the one who changed my heart