You push the weight off your chest with ease. Because it's nothing like the weight on your shoulders.

You look at the world how it's twisted and warped.

You look at your hands how weak and powerless against the darkness in life.

You beg to fight. You wanna help make the world right you wanna leave your home and go fight.

You wanna protect your country, you wanna save your loved ones from the darkness out side.

As you rest the barrel on your skull you slowly begin to pull.

The icy sting of metal on your skin as you begin to think about all your sins.

Images run a cross your mind as you count down from 9.

You hear your family down stairs as you get to six.

Once you hit three you break down falling to your knees.

You say one as hot tears pour down your cheeks.

...suddenly it's the end.

as i sit in bed all alone in my head
i try to rest my head but i just can't go to bed
i re run the day through my head
i can't stop it honestly its kinda obnoxious
i think what can i do better
what did i do wrong
dear god why can't i sleep why won't you let me leave
i feel so alone all these things in my head
all i want to do is sleep

you know when you try and go to bed but everything starts running around your head? how do you put them to bed. do you sit with a song running through your head. do you just sit and picture your love in your mind? do you run through your mistakes or things you didn't do. when its 4 in the morning and you try to go to bed how do you end the things running around your head...i sit here thinking how do i end these things in my head i sit here all these things in my head making it impossible for me to rest i sit an sit and think and think but you know nothing can show me end of this night so i sit here feeling so alone i wish you hear or anyone was here i want you to ask are you OK but i can't you chose to go to bed...i want to tell you i miss you i love you but i scared all you'd say is ok so instead i sit here will all these things in my head...as i try to go to bed

when you see a cute girl your head starts to twirl what should i do should i give it a whirl will she say yes or leave you in stress is it worth the risk she looks kinda cute but she could be a little rude you go up to her all this scenarios inside your head...if she says no well man that would blow you'd probably go lay down on your pillow and re-run it inside your head what did i do how can i do it different but if she says yes well man your in you did it what a win shes cute shes funny she lets you call her honey man all these scenarios in your head.

'Weights all over I try and lift it over and over the baggage I carry is far greater then these weighs on my shoulders…I try and try to get it of the floor and walk out the door but I just can't take it anymore every one around me they seem just fine why can't I find a rhyme to make me forget what's on my mind. I try to get these weights of my floor but I just can't take it anymore maybe its time I walk out the door…

I look at her I see her eyes…her soul I cant help but cry how can it be so beautiful I know the world is full of beauty but nothing comes close too you when you stare at me you break me I burst open all of the things inside they rise and come out and out you amaze me how can you do this with just that look you seem so lonely so sad all I want to do is help I want to take you by the hand and leave and take you away to a place without this without worries without fear but my dear we are to far apart but yet so close and the space between us is slowly going way day by day we get closer and closer soon we will have nothing to fear we will leave this place of fear and worry and run around carelessly we leave fear here and go into clearing you and I will die slowly growing old wrinkle my dear you should't have anything to fear