forget me not snot
shot through the top of a
hot box,
popping the rotting thoughts
up town and then down to drown
in the down town
clown-around facade parade
made to order for the
penniless quartered,
fast pace like a rocket ship
drag race,
dragging and driving,
on mars for cliff diving
writhing in the conniving
need for superior timing,
space, time and rhyming
shattering mirrors,
pushing lightyears into the ears
of the universe beast,
waiting for his feast of
treats and honeyed beef,
give the monster what he
wants or he'll take both you and me
forever deceased in the
crease of the time box
space case and
rhyme...

Sometimes my mind gets really chattery and I just can't focus on anything.
I try to talk to people, I try to explain my thoughts, but it comes out as
ASDKFJAL;SJK!
No one seems to understand, they give me strange looks.
100000 blaring screens in my brain, screaming at me, begging for attention.
I'm only one person with two eyes and one brain, two legs and two rings on every finger!
ASDKFJAL;SJK!
Most of the time, I really just can't find the words.
Look at all these words I have, on my shelves, under the sink, on my bed.
I have them stacked in boxes, some are dusty,
Some are worn oooouut.
And even though I have all these words,
I can't find the right one.
I have this one right here, and OH, this one! This one's a good one.
But...
I need one to go in the middle,
Have you seen it? I can't... find it...
ASDKFJAL;SJK!
I have a lot of jars, too.
Big, small, tall, hahaha
The jars are all dusty.
A thin film of colorful light
lines the inside of each jar.
I don't know what they're for,
I can't open them.
Well, there was this one jar I opened
By accident. I dropped it.
It broke into precisely 800 little squares
and this grey, golden light filled the
Room.
It just swallowed up everything everywhere
and left nothing but everything
ASDKFJAL;SJK!

There will be a day when I leave this ugly place.
I will join the cosmos.
The light of every star will shine
In my eyes,
Comet tails leaving streaks of
Blue and purple on my skin.
I will float with whatever's in
Space and
Whatever's not.
I will cradle planets
In my hands and
Whisper nonsense into
The oblivion of space.
Spin along with time,
Twist and tumble
Dancing with glowing orbs.
I will roll over rings
and drift through pink
Clouds.
I will join the cosmos,
And leave this ugly place.

I stand in the snow
but I am warm
my bare toes nestle into the
broken crust of ice and crystals
I look up into the white sky
of frosted clouds and feel at
home
running my fingertips over
my cheekbones
I feel scars
I feel the weight of each scar
rooting into my skin
twisting the memories
and cavernous dreams
into each other
creating a web
of scar tissue

I grapple with my insides.
I'm pretty sure my brain is turning inside out.
I lean over the bathroom sink,
Breathing with my eyes closed.
Her legs like splinters,
All those memories flash behind my eyes.
She's seeping into me.
She is.
She is filling all those cracks with HERSELF
And pushing
Pushing my thoughts out
Herself in

And all of a sudden,
I fold.
Laying on the cold tile,
I feel it.
My skin flashes green,
To matching my eyes.
Black spikes erupt from my spine,
Down my arms and
My nails turn black.
Fangs sprout from my green
Gums.
I scream,
No longer myself.

I am the green monster.
I am jealous.

Oh, of what can be silently hidden
by a beautifully crafted string of universally
understood meanings.

I don my pale green hoodie,
blending into the seafoam crowd
Unsmiling eyes and unlaughing lips
united in a tightly held breath

Silent metal walls
curve over our pale heads
Cold, dull and smeared
with printless finger marks

White floors and white faces
waver under the ripples
of quiet breath
Tension strangling whatever
might have been left over