the tracks disappear into the fog
the mist dampens everything around me
i hear a train horn in the distance and then
it's silent again
the dusty, dawn blue sky hovers hesitantly
above the cloud i'm in
the train horn blows again and
i see lights through the fog
and dissolve into the watery air
the train rushes over the tracks with
the weight of a million tons
it crashes into my ghost and splits it
into a million slices

do you ever feel a scream
in your blood?

do you feel a scream
in your chest?

like a bubble of pressure
that feels like nervous laughter
building up in your stomach

almost feels like butterflies

but when you let the butterflies out
they burst into the air

they pop like balloons
and they turn into
a scream

ashes to ashes
dust to dust
from earth to sky
from love to lust
carry me out to a rainy sea
hide your tears and
set me free
you'll grow old and
I will rust
ashes to ashes
dust to dust

i guess some things really do
just slip through your mind
like sand through fingers
just flowing away

i suppose that some people
just dont know how
to let go of these things

i think that some people
try get rid of the thoughts
on purpose

sometimes it feels better
to feel nothing and calms
your feverish mind
to forget

push the thoughts out
like the tide
tie an anchor to your ankle
and just let it all
slip away

hit hit hit
clap
slam
clap

you're gonna miss me
when i'm gone
top
bottom top
you're gonna miss me
by my hair
slam clap
you're gonna miss me
everywhere
clap

i know you're gonna miss me
when i'm gone
hit hit

the memories you find
at the very bottom of
your brain
from when you were
just a little seed of a
person
it's like looking at the world
through a kaleidoscope
colors
shapes
they almost seem to fit
together in a
puzzle like way
but mostly it's strange
to see that you've
changed so much
it's even stranger to
find that you
haven't changed
at all

i found an *******
at the bottom was a smashed
frame
broken glass poking holes
at the bottom
i told them i reached in
and all the glass scratched me
and that was the
first time