When you spoke to me
I liked you

When you proposed me
I loved you

When you told me you already have GF
I felt to cry a loud....because of loosing you

When you walk beside me holding my hands
I felt secured in my life

When you said that Im beautiful..
I understood the true meaning of beautiful..

When you said that you wont leave me
I saw the trust in those words....

When you said that these words are not decided in one day....
I saw a matured man behind it...

When you said that cannot see a life without me..
I dreamed a life of happiness with you...

but the same person

took a night to break the relation ship...which was built in beautiful, trust, & happiness..were was that maturity......

Wanted to ask him:-

Was it because of my ugliness
Was it because of my age
Was it because Im a divorcee...
Was it because i had a kid...
Was it because i fight with you..
Was it because you had any revenge on me..

WHAT IT IS????

you  left me...i have not hided anything from you dala....

Married girl liked a guy...
This liking slowly changed into Love....
Craziness in his smile,talk, walk & style
Slowly she got addicted to it...
went deeper into him
not even thinking about her family
her kid....her world was only that guy..
They loved each other, he wanted her to come out of her married life...
She did moved her papers...to show the love which she has for him and was longing for him
she was always given a hope that he is there for her
Fool she was not even thought about the darkness in the other side....
Her addiction turned into madness....

Whenever she asked him about life..
He said Im there for you
Even the world is against you i will be there for you...
Fool she was didn't understand the meaning of it fully
Now her own world is against her.....
thrown her in to madness, pain anguish....
Don't know how to SAIL.....

Alone....in tears......no one to share, smile,talk, walk.....
In her own world of darkness...
Scared about life......
loosing happiness, peace.....
Waiting for him...to switch on the lights..

Many people say me mad
some of them stare
some of them laugh
some of them tease
some of them scold
some of them think to take advantage out of it....

when i start thinking about U ...
the arousal....
the smile
the kiss
the hug
the beautiful fingers
the sparkling eyes
stylish walk....
beautiful voice..
& the way of talk...
all make me mad.....

out of that group someone asked me even after he left you..
u still prefer to luv & become mad on him ....

i smiled and said...
im in confusion in choosing the words...between
Forever or always....

I Luv You Sweet Heart .....

Where are you sweets.....
It is painful, to be all alone
days goes by
months goes by
life is so scaring

Where are you sweets...
i came to you for the luv
you showed me what it is..
i came to you to know how our life will be after our luv
you showed dis is the way it is

All were said and given,
finally you also showed me what is the pain.... in life and luv without you..
which i never wanted to experience in my life
Where are you sweets....

Dreaming of rainy days
Beside my sweet heart
holding his hands, closeness to heart....
Oh what a day it was....
will the dream come true...

Yes it came true for two days..
Rainy days....
started my journey.. to his place...
carrying all dreams...
thinking his smile..
meeting him after three months..
whether to Hug or kiss first
how to start??
all the questions were falling into my heart..

suddenly came a pop message:
message me your coach no...
Train stopped...reached PKD
It was raining like hell...
i was little wet..got down..
eyes were searching for him...

Saw a flash of white striped T-shirt..
sparkling eyes searching for me..
and seeing the mobile for my message.
it was my sweet sail....
butterfly were flying inside my heart..
after seeing him....
first time in my life felt that hunger...
Saw me going towards him...

How to start...the smile which was seen after three months..
and he  saying,"Happy to c u here and my sweeto is with me..."
literally made me dumb..
He took my bag and holded umbrella in another hand..
got into an auto..
My sweet heart holding my hand...
closeness to heart..
Heat was felt...not only in my hand
which was holding him..
but also in my body..

climate was cold..
but heat was overruling it....
we were travelling
rainy days..
Sweets beside,,
it was dark..
seeing his eyes in the lighting light...
wanted to hold his face and kiss there...
but could not as the driver interrupted inbetween..

Reached his place..
He cooked and served the food,,
my happiness knews no bounds...
i felt O God wat a life,, u have given..
Im blessed....but didnt realise that it was temporary...
slowly after we cleaned the kitchen.

Moment came for my dreams to come true
Rainy days..
My sweets beside,,
room was dark
my hands was chill...
heart beat alone was heard in the room
it was complete silence..
how to start...
by the time i went near him he rushed hurriedly
holded me in his arms,,,and kissed me
saying cannot wait.....
heat was felt on me..by the time i wanted to cherish the taste of his lips...and tongue.
he was inside me ..
O GOD im thankful to you for those beautiful moments...
Tears fleded...in my eyes...i have got a guy who luvs me...and wants me...
but didnt realise it was temporary...

Rainy days are here,,,
Standing all alone......
Waiting for my Luv..

Sweets you have given those beautiful moments to me.....and taken away back all the happiness with you...

Miss you sweet heart...

I dont know to write a poem, my english is not as good as yours, but still you are the person who showed me what is life, what is luv, .
Where do i start and where i do end? ....when you are inside me.....
Life is beautiful.....when you are with me.....now the same life is fearful when you have left me......
Sweets you said you will be there for me till my death...kiss me on my forehead....before i go inside the sand..
now i pray atleast that death should come now....so that i can have you beside me....
Missing you SWZ.....