I want someone who,
When I say

I’m useless.
I shouldn’t be alive!
Why not **** myself?

To say

I’d miss you

A man is made of angles and lines
Drawn swiftly
With great confidence and unleashed power
In black charcoal on white paper
A Study in Contrast

A woman is a thing of curves and hollows
Drawn over and over
At times swiftly and at times softly
Until she comes to life

A man can wander these hollows
As a woman can fall into a man’s
Ridges and crevices

And the woman softens the man
Has him curve over her
And the man tightens the woman
Until she is taut and ready to strike

A poet is often in darkness
Even when we are young

The nights I strode surely
Then stumbled
On the dark and moonless journey
From my desk to my bed
My lamp being frantically turned off moments before
For there was a sound
That could have been my parents

I had climbed out of bed
Carefully and quietly
The phrases and words and ideas
I had created moments before
still
Darting and flying and hiding and crying
In my head

My heart is beating
And I think I'm going to faint

Is this what love feels like?

Just wanting to stare into your eyes until you have no choice but to sweep me into your arms
Hold me against the wall
Never let me fall
Never let go at all

I can’t live like this anymore
If I die tomorrow
Won’t I be happier if I lived first?

But what if you say no
Dealing with rejection is healthy right?

You’ll never know until you ask
So will you

Like,
you know,

Hold me against the wall
Never let me fall
Never let go at all

I like to imagine you in my shower
You are one tile height above my head
I start at your hair
A brown and down to your shoulders
Brown eyes
With depth, shades, and windows
Your mouth
Ready to kiss
And then the shower peals out its death squeals
And you shatter into shampoo foam
At the bottom of my tub

I'm barely breathing, barely breathing
How can you not tell?
I'm barely breathing, barely breathing
Can you see how far I've fell?

My heart is thumping, heart is thumping
How can you not hear?
My heart is thumping, heart is thumping
It happens when you're near

My legs are shaking, legs are shaking
How can you not see?
My legs are shaking, legs are shaking
It started when you smiled at me

My breathing falters, breathing falters
whenever you pull me close
My breathing falters, breathing falter
Now we are nose to nose

I love you so much, love you so much
So much that it hurts
I love you so much, love you so much
when you say it back you make it worse

I know you love me, know you love me
I know it from everything you do
I know you love me, know you love me
It will be just me and you

A blank page
Where I can write a story
A story of you and me one night
And no one will ever know if it’s true

You follow me out the doors at the school dance
As I head to the bathroom
And when I turn around a corner
you catch up and reach out

To pull me behind a statue
You lean into me and I into you

And this story could end so many ways
It could last for minutes, hours or days
But
I think,
At the very end there is a

Happily Ever After