I'm barely breathing, barely breathing
How can you not tell?
I'm barely breathing, barely breathing
Can you see how far I've fell?

My heart is thumping, heart is thumping
How can you not hear?
My heart is thumping, heart is thumping
It happens when you're near

My legs are shaking, legs are shaking
How can you not see?
My legs are shaking, legs are shaking
It started when you smiled at me

My breathing falters, breathing falters
whenever you pull me close
My breathing falters, breathing falter
Now we are nose to nose

I love you so much, love you so much
So much that it hurts
I love you so much, love you so much
when you say it back you make it worse

I know you love me, know you love me
I know it from everything you do
I know you love me, know you love me
It will be just me and you

A blank page
Where I can write a story
A story of you and me one night
And no one will ever know if it’s true

You follow me out the doors at the school dance
As I head to the bathroom
And when I turn around a corner
you catch up and reach out

To pull me behind a statue
You lean into me and I into you

And this story could end so many ways
It could last for minutes, hours or days
But
I think,
At the very end there is a

Happily Ever After

Where oh where
The cat inside me howls
Where is my mate?
He whose growls
Slither up my spine
Taking their time
Enfold me, unwind me
Control me, bind me
To him

Where has he gone?
It hasn’t been long
But where did he go?
I don’t know, I don’t know

Where is my other half?
He who makes me smile
He who makes me laugh
He who makes me wild
Where is my other half?

Words on a page
Put me in a daze
Put me in a trance
It's a solemn sort of dance

Aye my life is a solemn sort of moment
My night is of a solemn sort
A solemn sort?
A sort that is solemn

What does solemn mean?
Can you give an example
Sure! the child was solemn
Before he got trampled

Oh God no! One less horrific
But a solemn child is horrifying
Now isn’t that terrific?

No it’s not at all!
Who are you to say what’s not?
After all, what have you been taught?
I’ll tell you what-absolutely naught!

I’ve been taught!
Yes taught by me
You are just a piece
Of machinery
A clog in my pain
Clogging up my brain
Making me inebriate
I’m drunk on my thoughts
And I can’t see straight

I can help you!
No you can’t!
I know where your help leads to!
Me drowning in the deep blue
Either of my tears or the ocean
Drowned until I cannot make a motion
Who needs alcohol when you are me?
And you are me, you piece of machinery

Turning in my bed
Sheets twisted around me
Feet cold
Arms too hot
I feel my forehead
Too hot
Put it against the bed frame
That’s better

Feelings in my heart
Below my rib cage aches
My head is filled with shapeless forms
Dancing and fighting and loving
Random lines from books float in my head
I remember a song
And start to cry
I think of how every day a sloth is run over by a car
They don’t deserve that

if I die tomorrow
Have I lived my life well
Will I got to Heaven
Or sink straight down to Hell

Did I live
It up
Did I give
From my cup

Did I love him right
Did I hurt him instead
Did I waste those sleepless nights
By staying alone in bed

Why do I get to live
And others die
Why do the evil live
And the good die

A cat is not a person

I wrap myself around my cat
An arm slung across her back
My cat purrs and tries to lick my arm
So I move my arm back

There is a warm body against me
But it’s not who I want
I don’t want just anybody
There is someone I want

A cat is a poor substitute for a boy
A boy or a man?
What do you call a teenager

It’s getting colder

Everywhere

Purr
Says my cat

I love you
Says the boy in my dreams

I don’t like you like that
Says the boy in reality

Well **** me
Says I