It's okay,
I'll just look away,
when your eyes meet mine.
For I can not,
handle,
that feeling.
When our gazes meet,
for those overflowing moments,
look away.
The flutters,
in the pit of my stomach,
once beautiful,
now corrupted butterflies,
with their acid wings.
Acid that,
eats away at me.
Stop it,
I tell myself.
Dont you dare,
fall for him again.
But it's,
okay.
When your hand,
grasps mine,
I'll remind myself,
its friendly touch.
I won't let my,
skin,
tingle anymore.
I wish your fingers,
and lips,
left burns,
as reminders.
And really,
it's okay.
When you open up,
your dusty vault of,
feelings,
worries,
fears,
I'll just be there,
for you.
Good friends,
listen.
Your self-disclosure,
does not mean,
I'm special.
And at the end of,
the day,
these long nights awake,
I'll remember,
to ignore it.
That tiny voice,
inside my,
mind,
heart,
that tells me,
*It's okay,
you know he loves you too.

She drops her,
towel,
to the floor.

Her mirror,
screams,
*eat nothing more!

Each day that passes

you will love her more

and you will love me less

until I've faded from your

consciousness.

I can either let it
consume me and
destroy me and
s w a l l o w
me whole

or I can continue
on about my days
with new faces and
old faces and laughter
to mend my heart

Just know
I can never rid myself
of the love I had for you,
traces of it forever
flowing through my veins.

The time will pass us regardless

so why watch it go by (in tragedy)

instead of running with it? (an adventure)

Always

blood smeared
nightmares,

don’t panic

late
night
screams

I sit upon my bed,
listening to the songs,
of lovers,
words that only they,
would find meaning in,
yet still beautiful to my ears.
Looking out into the,
pitch black night,
through my enormous window.
As the soothing tunes flow,
from my eardrums,
sending a to tickle my heart,
my mind wanders far,
into the depths of wonderland.
Adventures my mind creates,
except I travel alone.
If only these were the days,
of love like Romeo and Juliet,
you’d be sitting beneath my window,
waiting for me,
to travel to wonderland with you.

Stranded out in the bitter cold
wind slicing up my cheeks
while it slaps me with its icy fingers

Limbs buried in the dense snow
weighed down by the frozen
hopelessness that is as far as the
eye can bare to see

Although weakness threatens me
and death nips at my nose
I beg of all to leave me be,
I dare them

For I know that through the
darkest night of my life
thoughts of you will rush
to comfort me

I think of your piercing eyes
and how the blueness calms me

My mind runs to thoughts of
your lips- to each pure kiss

These frigid fingertips of mine yearn
to be entwined with yours once more

As love awakens in me
the warmth you’ve embedded
into my being multiplies

I find myself free of the icy *******
in a pool of warm hopefulness  

Green emerges from the thousand
shades of melting white
and I know lovely things will grow
from what I have made it through

The sun kisses every inch of me
the way only you do and I know
I can get back to you now.

Drip.

Drop.

Drip,

drop.

Drops,

of blood,

find their homes,

in the marble white,

tiles.

Falling,

from her life-less arm,

that hangs over the edge.

Once clear water,

now crimson red.

Flickering candle light,

illuminates,

her once beautiful face.

Her once rosy cheeks,

now a grey hue.

Her flowing black hair,

which once danced in the water,

now sticks to her,

chilled neck and chest.

Finally,

the voices,

can’t hurt her anymore.

You lured me in that night
with words that concealed
the monster you’d unleash.

Then it just-
Hit me.
Like a red block of concrete,
a bone-breaking brick
smashed straight into my face.
With every poisoned syllable
that poured from your mouth,
another jagged tooth
sunk into my flesh.

Disbelief struck the side
of my head like a baseball bat,
while Sorrow tore through
the very flesh of my heart,
a bullet sent from Hell itself.

All of my blood
that once coursed through
my veins for you,
now in puddles on the floor.

You left me,
lifeless.

Every ounce of lonely you've pushed away
throughout the day.

I feel a hundred emotions burning in me,
waiting to erupt like lava from the Earth
while I fight to hold them in.

I cannot quite imagine a sorrow
like the one that would drown me
if you were to start a new life like
you say you want to.

The idea runs through me,
a venom that threatens my heart.
I’m choking on the thought.

I think of this, and then look into your eyes.
What would I do if they told me goodbye?
To truly love someone, is unselfish.
Go if you feel that’s your dream.

But I cannot help but wonder
how fast my heart would crumble.
I cannot help but wonder
what those infamous “goodbye” kisses feel like.
A bittersweet taste for the lips.

I've heard a kiss can ****.

every single word that

once dripped

from your lips

                                                lies

While I lay here
blades of grass tickle
my feet

Sun shining brightly
warming my face
with its cheer

And the wind blows
just enough
to rustle the leaves

Maybe if I close
my eyes
for a moment

I can imagine
someone lovely
sharing this with me

Trying to **** blood from stone,

will it ever bleed?

Theres a theory
I hold onto.
One that says
every seven years,
each skin cell in your
body is renewed.

But
I cannot wait that long
to have skin that
hasn’t felt your
fingertips running
down my back,
or your tongue
dancing to the
rhythm of our
breathing.

I cannot wait that long
to have skin that
hasn’t felt your
sweet kisses,
that sent a sugar rush.


But at least
in seven years,
my skin
can forget.

Bright red hickey
branding your neck
I can’t help but stare

Fighting back the tears
I almost ******* hate you

I want to flip the table
scream
but I sit in silence

The sight of it guts me
uppercut to chest
with the sharpest knife

Each word
spilling out
your mouth
disgusting
like maggots
one by one
cuts me deeper

The thought of her
infected lips
kissing you
makes me want to *****

Im not even supposed to care
you make it look so easy

Just let me hate you
because I know I won’t

I can see you
standing down there
feet hidden by
the over growing
blades of grass,
I just can't wait
to get to you.
You're looking
up at me,
from the bottom
of the hill,
hands patiently waiting
in the pockets
of your blue jeans.
The smile you
so casually flash me
is brighter, warmer
than the sun itself.
I can't stand
not being by your side
for a moment longer.
Do I just,
jump, dive?
I close my eyes
and count,
1...2...3
And now im
tumbling,
absolutely falling,
for you

And then she was gone
lost
ran away,
with the wind.

If you listen closely
whispers
you can hear her,
within rustling leaves.

All she ever wanted
love
but each door,
was slammed shut.

So she faded away slowly
dissolved
evermore she’ll roam,
melancholy amid the wind.

And now we just pretend,
you never said,
those words.

maybe more dead walk the earth

than we’re willing to admit

when your heart is just a rotten

slab of meat that hangs in your chest

and you struggle to rise each day

just dragging through the motions of life

your limbs heavy with sorrow

..are you really alive?