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Dec 2010 · 6.1k
Jealousy
Gabriela Abalo Dec 2010
Jealousy
An awful advisor
That leaves you by yourself
Heartbroken and grieving
For what was not
For what was lost
For what it really was…
© Gabriela Abalo
Nov 2010 · 778
Thanksgiving
Gabriela Abalo Nov 2010
After so many years of hard work
I finally managed to move to the home
I always dreamt for.
This magic place is blessed every morning
by a stunning sun rise over Rio de la Plata,
while in the afternoon the blessing comes
from another awesome sunset over the city.

My magic kingdom is almost at the top of a building,
so the views always take my breath away
while filling my heart with warm gratitude
and the sense of oneness.

Here I feel at peace with myself,
I reconnect with my essence, feeling alive…
part and parcel of the entire Universe.
Past and future stop existing, the mind clears up;
emotions rise and then settle down
(just like the sun and the moon),
and the only thing that matters is the magic jiffy
where I’m still breathing and fully conscious.
To me happiness is that magical tick where I just am…

Looking at the sun and the moon,
observing the sky and the river
teaches me a lot about letting things be
and go with the flow…
that resisting to what it is
takes me nowhere…
because life is about change,
transformation and awareness.

I’m thankful, and attempting to live in gratitude,
free of expectations, open to receive and give.
© Gabriela Abalo
Nov 2010 · 950
Regaining harmony
Gabriela Abalo Nov 2010
I have run out of words
Here I am on my very own
Nothing to say
A lot to observe

Trying to make sense of the nonsense  
Struggling to locate the symmetry of the self
Promiscuous feelings confusing everything
Provocative thoughts tempting the heart
Pretentious blasphemies insulting the soul

Overwhelming ego’s cacophony
Forcing the slow brewing of mixed feelings
One big *** to mix them all
Quietly observing and appreciating what it is

Attentive to the Universe messages
Resisting the resistance to what it is
Making a conscious effort to go with the flow
Getting deep into the being
Silently conversing with the soul
Free of pretends and inflexible principles
At peace with what it is
Unconditionally loving the self
© Gabriela Abalo
Nov 2010 · 959
Legacy
Gabriela Abalo Nov 2010
Clumsy hands moving up and down
Haunted fingertips infinitely counting
For every pearl a tear dropped
For every tear a pearl counted

Memories attached
Feelings concealed
Plenty to reveal

Symbol of purity and renovation
A continuous prompt to be sincere
An urge to remain dignified
A push to keep searching for happiness

The perfect gift she has ever received
From the one she will always grieve
© Gabriela Abalo
Nov 2010 · 811
I
Gabriela Abalo Nov 2010
I
Stubborn as I am  
Obstinate as I may appear to be
Determined to just be
Inflexible to restrain

Rarely looking back
Unconcerned of tomorrow
Forever in the now

Mischievous with rules
Impishly laughing to the “I”
Adventurously defying the “am”
Daringly trying out

Frightening sometimes
Intimidating from time to time
Constantly changing
Eternally living
Perpetually reinventing the “I”  
Always embracing the “am”
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 846
Absent
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
Silver smoke blurring your vision
Noisy TV distracting your mind
Shallow books keeping you busy
Detached, isolated, standing apart

Unable to forgive or forget the past
Bitterness poisoning your feelings
Incapable of showing love
Absent from life, inaccessible
Unaware of your greatness

Master of pain and resent
Forever a victim you remain
Weeping past events  
Detesting life all the way  
For what you will never repent

Master of disguise
Never showing feelings
Always wearing your iron mask
Books and TV help you forget the life you hate
Smoking keeps your monsters away

Always longing for your deserting mum
For you always felt “not good enough”
Constantly grieving the only man you ever loved
For he was killed on your wedding day
Forever resenting the unwanted child
For whom you married the wrong guy

Master of revenge
An eye for an eye  
Always haunted by the past
The world has to endure your pain
No matter what

Motherhood couldn’t mend your shattered heart
For you stayed loyal to your acrimony
Eternal victim of your bitterness
Afraid of abandonment, deserting everybody
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 752
Silence
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
Silence, please be quiet
Pay attention and listen carefully
To the silence within

So many things going through my head
An analytical mind doesn’t rest
Hardly trying to silence all the cracking voices
Asking and answering concurrently
As if everything should have a logical answer
For the mind to take it easy

Silence, please be quiet
Pay attention and listen carefully
To the silence within

I must be careful with what I think or say
As I know that thoughts and words create
But regrets don’t undo and sorrow isn’t a fine ally

Silence, please be quiet
Pay attention and listen carefully
To the silence within

I don’t like what I see and hear
The silence is too loud to bear
Stubbornly I kept quietly observing  
The mind attempts to complain
But contentment appears
After that there is nothing to fear
For silence becomes a friend and nice place to be

Silence, please be quiet
Pay attention and listen carefully
To the silence within
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 717
Be and let be
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
Mirror, mirror of my soul
Please tell me why you howl
Every time I look at you

Why are you playing games with me?
I dislike what you reveal
Please reflect only nice things
Just the ones I like to see

Mirror, mirror of my soul
Let’s create a better world
Just by changing our approach
When reflecting what we see

Let’s get undressed
Throw away our prejudices
Tear up intolerance
Erase discrimination
Don’t stop until we are naked

Mirror, mirror of my soul
Why did you stop reflecting?
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 1.0k
Released
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
One moment of pride
Unmasked the disgraceful lust
Releasing the auto imposed sloth
Impetus envy and gluttony were the driving force
Unleashing the wrath hidden within
Greedily buried and contained

I became an outcast
A skeptical sinner
Forever to walk on my own
Condemned to eternal damnation
Unless I repent

But I am just a human
Envious of the wind that can flow and be
Proud of who I am
Lusting for freedom
Sloth to follow the rules
Gluttonously enjoying each jiffy
Reacting with rage to the auto impose limits
Avariciously living

I am a human
An unleashed dreamer
Fully living
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 665
Too late
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
Didn’t make the front page
Another statistic  
Just one more fact
A name added on the list
A casualty soon to be forgotten

Yes I do…
I said while soaked in tears
Not for love but fear
Pain kept me enslaved
Fright left me empty
In and out I was broken

A lethal kiss sealed the deal
You in black, I in white
Predator and prey
Gambling with death
Keeping the act until the end

I could have asked for help
I should have said it wasn’t right
I could have walked away
I should have… I could have…
But I was afraid
And blamed myself

Weakness and regrets aren’t the answer
Your rage was my punishment  
As I keep saying “I do”
After each punch and kick
I never fought back
Only crawled and cried

Overwhelming shame
Betraying the self
I let you smash my self-esteem
Believing everything you said
Detaching myself from life
Was my only escape

Incapable of asking for help
I determined our fate  
Things could have been different
But now is too late
To change our destiny
To get things in place

I shouldn’t have said “I do”
I could have said “I don’t”
I should have… I could have…
But I was afraid
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 528
Deserted
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
Why am I left alone?
I am feeling abandoned
On my very own
I was in her womb
From her I was born

Where shall I go?
What did I do wrong?
Doesn’t she love me anymore?
Where has she gone?
I don’t want to be alone!

What is going on?
I want to be home
Please don’t be cold
I really need your warmth
Don’t put me on hold

You are the mother
That doesn’t bother
For any other than your lover
Leaving me without cover
On my own to hover
Until you recover
From being a wine lover

I need my mother
I love my mother
I beg you Holy Father
Please give me back my mother
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 707
Poetry and I
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
Whispers of the soul
Chanting of the heart
Tribulations of the mind
Guide my fingers to write
Open up, don’t be afraid
Everything will be OK

Transmuting feelings into words
Letting them go and be
Clearing the foliage of my being
Tenderly falling like autumn leaves
Landing on my fingertips
Who in trance, dance and type  
Without asking why

An open heart, bleeding feelings
An egocentric mind playing drama games
A juggling soul offering light
Writing poems is their thing
For they do it as a team  
Being fair to what each feels
© Gabriela Abalo
Oct 2010 · 1.1k
Essence
Gabriela Abalo Oct 2010
I am an eternal freak
The keeper of an everlasting mystery
Which is the secret of my vanishing grim?
Light or darkness makes a difference
Sometimes you see it
Sometimes you don’t

Games of your mind
Mirror of your emotions
I am me and I am you
A light hearted-woman
Or a Hermaphrodite?
To hold the enigma
Is my stigma

I am my master in disguise
If you really look you can see we are alike
I am not the mother
I am not the son
Since I am both and none

I am his masterpiece
His life companion
His mirror
Not his darkest secret
But his portrait of humankind

I am left and right
Masculine and feminine
Good and bad
The one with two faces
Who smiles and cries
At the same time

Yesterday, today and tomorrow
I am the world’s sorrow
I keep a mystery that none can borrow

I am Mona Lisa
So they say, so you say
I am La Gioconda
The one with the most famous, elegant smile
The entire world will ever talk about
© Gabriela Abalo
Sep 2010 · 3.6k
Warrior
Gabriela Abalo Sep 2010
Feeling out of place
Craving for familiar faces
Longing for warm welcomes
Aching for the sense of belonging

Trying to keep it together
Defeated?
Isolated?
Anxious?
Not at all!

A warrior of light never gives up
A warrior of love is never alone
But a warrior is always challenged
Invited to look within

It isn’t easy to start a new
Walking through unknown paths
Holding faith very tight
Allowing patience to guide the way
Embracing contentment until the end

Sometimes loneliness is suffocating
Patience runs out
Faith is nowhere to be found
And contentment seems a fairy tale

Wondering on and off
On all I know
Doubting anything
Suspicious of everything

Breathing in and out
Reconnecting with the self
Acknowledging who I am

Displaced…
Learning…
Growing…
© Gabriela Abalo
Sep 2010 · 640
My rune
Gabriela Abalo Sep 2010
That distressing night
It wasn’t pretty light
But I still wanted to write
Many verses in spite
Raising my voice like a kite
And with all my might

I wrote my rune
To recite it to the moon
During the month of June
That was coming very soon
And needed to be in tune
With my upsetting afternoon

Looking at the stars
While hearing the guitars
I devoured all my chocolate bars
As if they could cure my scars

A tune to the moon
Written by the lagoon
A chant to the starts
To be played by sitars
A hymn to the night
calling for the light
© Gabriela Abalo
Sep 2010 · 509
Promise
Gabriela Abalo Sep 2010
I stare at you from afar,
Like a thief I hide and survey
I wonder how happy you truly are
I muse how devoted you really are
I ponder how you can live like that...

Without a thought I walked away from my hiding place
No longer aware that I may be seen
I get closer to the window that is keeping you away
Looking through and devouring your image
Hating the disguising clothes hiding your exquisite figure

With rebel tears running through my face
I hold my urge to call your name
I’m no longer begging, imploring or pleading
I’m done with all that!

I’m going away
Leaving you in my past
and by no means, coming back

But then again I know I should return
To steal a glance every Thursday at noon
when you are by the window praying to your God
while sending your forbidden love to me

You kept your promise
But I can’t keep mine
The pain and loneliness is unbearable
knowing that we will never be together

You chose your God
I just choose my freedom…
© Gabriela Abalo
Sep 2010 · 1.0k
Home, sweet home
Gabriela Abalo Sep 2010
Home, sweet home
All I ever dream for and beyond
Heart pounding, pulse rising
Contentment overwhelming the being

A sense of peace
The wonder of believing
that dreams do come true
The astonishment of seeing
that they really do

Once again I’m a small child
with wide open eyes
sparkling and shining like two stars
on the open sky of my happy face

A free spirit, a dreamer, a believer
Devoid of past and future
Honoring the present
Enjoying the magic jiffy
Counting blessings
Accepting the good

Home, sweet home
It is nice to be home
© Gabriela Abalo
Sep 2010 · 575
Father Time
Gabriela Abalo Sep 2010
Tell me; oh tell me my dear
What I want to hear!
Come, come near
Can you see my tear?

Whispers in my ear
Things I don’t want to hear
Truths I fear
Matters that aren’t clear

Stop, stop… please don’t disappear
I will try to be sincere
So please reappear
and tell me all about yesteryear

Why are you too severe?
I’m not acting weird!
I’m full of revere
And not at all insincere

I know you will persevere
Until I’m convinced there isn’t any frontier
Tell me; oh tell me my dear
What I don’t want to hear!
But don’t jeer

I did hear what I fear
I did clear my tear
You have been sincere
but please disappear…
© Gabriela Abalo

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