I dated a girl once,
She was in my dream this night,
We were laughing,
And livin', together there was no difference,
But then something happened,
Someone entered,
The girls life,
Another better guy,
She gave me her look,
Like this ain't gonna work,
I busted out in tears wanted to go home and drink,
But I didn't go, I wanted to see him,
He was laying in bed with you sleeping,
He saw me I started screaming,
He started to choke you for some reason,
I just went straight for his face,
Beat him till I had no energy left,
Then I woke up here,
Please god just let me sleep.

And if you're still breathing, you're alive,
Don't dare to quit, make me proud,
Make everybody who doubted your​ smile,
Prove them wrong,
Show me what you got,
And if I will still be here to see it,
I will help you with the believing,
But this journey is yours to take,
I walked mine the same way,
When you will achieve it,
Don't thank me, I will be long gone,
Make somebody else to believe it,
Make somebody else this strong.

The things I wanted are now pointless,
Without you I feel like homeless,
Drinkin' till my feelings fade away,
I can't think of any other way,
I don't really want to live like this,
I wanted to be with you,
Have kids,
And else,
You know I make mistakes too,
I can't think of better ending,
Than with you,
The problem is you don't see it that way,
You feel like i have nothing to say,
I miss you,
I miss your voice,
The things we did together,
You were everything I had,
Now without anything it makes sence,
You know life is not always just sunshine,
It gets so dark sometimes,
Holding the knife I once used,
To hold all the issues​ and dark thoughs away,
Should I make me fade away?
Or does it have a end,
I would like to stay,
But I feel like you don't see it my way,
I know I've hurt you,
I lied to you,
But I didn't see back then,
That you were the girl I always wanted to stay,
Now I feel so worthless,
Everything's just useless,
When you ain't there,
I wish it could stay that way,
It once was,
I wish I would get a second chance,
To prove you how much I want you,
How much I adore you,
The things I said weren't fake,
But now you have a boyfriend,
I wish this suffering had a end.

I'm sorry for what I did to you,
I wish some things weren't so painful,
I needed some space to get my **** together,
But I should've done it some other way,
I know I've hurt you in every way,
I don't want your forgiveness,
I just wanted to let you know that you're a princess,
And that I regret smashing the best thing I had to pieces,
And that you should do what is best for you,
What you want to do,
Loving sometimes means to let go,
And I will understand if you don't want to try anymore,
When it was me who let you go.

You know how to be alone,
My hands are slipping from the Throne.
Ow how i feel alone,
The things i wanted go by,
You will never feel how am i,
These things are blurry on my mind,
Will I ever live to see my kind,
Or will I die?
These questions never dissapear,
Am i the only one to live to see the point,
Or will i die trying to be on front,
These things never dissapear,
My mind goes clear,
What do i want?
What's the point?
If i die nothing happens,
Just another soul will fade to no point,
If i lived for a reason why don't i see it,
Fading forever these reasons,
So be it,
I should live to see another reason.

Why are all the best memories,
The most painful to remember,
It seems like yesterday to me,
Saturday, it was december,
She had dark hair and such bright eyes,
I couldn't do anything to stop her from getting in my mind,
With just one simple smile she got me,
Yet she never intended to keep me,
It was cold and snowy,
The stars could tell the story,
We talked,
We hugged,
We kissed,
All these things I miss,
We told ourselves this is not the last time,
Yet I never saw her again,
Oh those past times,
The time flies by there is no doubt,
It was four years ago and now she's gone.

Like I don't know if my decisions are right,
I hope that everything won't fall apart,
That I'm right,
Why do I keep breaking hearts,
I don't know if I ever was in love,
I keep falling for these girls,
I keep changing the way I want,
I wish there was some guide,
That I could know that I did right,
I miss all those things that were here at the start,
The funny thing is that I never get really what I want,
It always slips by,
Yea these broken hearts,
I guess I'm not used to be alone anymore,
I wish I was that strong,
I hope you don't know these struggles,
Such a shame that I was never so strong to really get what I want,
I'm so confused now I need some sign,
That finally I'm not wrong,
That I won't change my mind,
The chemistry behind relationships is so dark,
Oh girl why are you so smart,
I hope I won't break your heart,
Because if I will I know I will regret it,
You're still the beacon I've selected,
And without you there’s not much to do,
Not many ways to find out the truth.

Do you know how it feels to be down?
Do you know how should you act when you're breaking down?
What to do when they ask you what's wrong?
When you want to say everything,
When you want to get anything,
That would help you to get up,
That would help you not to cry,
Not to give up,
Because you have no other choice than to make it,
If you fail you don't forget it,
You will regret it till the end and you will see what it means to regret.