This world is so crazy,
I don't know what to do lately,
When the things I woud like to do and the things that I do are so diffrent,
I can't see any end,
I have so mixed up feelings about everything,
**** I want to change always stays the same,
People only see what they want to see,
Never looking through eyes of me,
Selfishly talking to me,
What they think I should be,
But if I won't listen to them,
Then I will end up alone in every way.

I would like to sit down and cry,
Drowning in these feelings I can't make up my mind,
Why do I have to go through this when noone else does,
Why did you raise me in this hell,
shouting all the time,
Both of you should've reconsider having a second child,
when you weren't even able to take care of the other one,
You argued every night,
You shouted and attacked each other with knifes,
Hurting each other you shattered our past,
Destroyed everything that could last,
Now when I look back,
I have nothing to smile for,
Nothing I can remember I could hope for,
Everybody else has something,
Some nice memory of their childish dreams,
I have no imagination of how it feels,
To have a normal family,
Without this I will never be able to live happily,
The only redemption I could've,
Would be to create a new family,
Not failing my kids the way they used to fail me.

I wish my life would've some better cause,
Drinking myself to death,
I don't really mind,
These pretty flowers going blind,
These silly voices lost in the crowd,
People singing 'bout life,
Drinking themselves to death,
We don't mind,
Maybe it's the human nature,
To waste all things we can find,
Trying to recreate them when they are gone,
I hope one day it will be fine,
So I can look back,
Tell my son that I'm proud,
Lay down in the field and close my eyes,
Hold the hands of my wife,
Before we say one last goodbye.

I see the light,
I see the spark,
I see the passion to ignite,
The hatred towards our enemies,
The desire to see them bleed,
Gasmasks on so we can breath,
Silencing the ones that don't believe,
We've been hurt enough in the past,
You won't take away what's mine,
You can try but won't succeed,
Because life has taught me only one thing,
Not to give up on what you love,
Or rather die than to wander around.

This headache it kills me,
Voices that will never leave me,
Wishin' I could take some pill,
Just like you did,
No happy end,
You choked on life just like me,
But you chose to forget,
Left what you wanted to keep,
Now standing alone crying,
In the cold rain where I can hide it,
Burried in the ground,
Under the stars where I couldn't find it,
You rest there, sleeping,
With your eyes closed, weeping,
That you didn't get the chance,
To live trough these nightmares to the happy end.

There are thousands of pieces and memories lost,
From every dead body under it's cross,
For every little tear that did your daughter lost,
You should give her a necklase,
To remind her she's so close,
For every scream we had to hear,
For every night we wanted to dissapear,
If we would get a coin for each,
We would be rich,
And we could save ourselfs from that precious drinking *****.

Without sleep life is blank,
You see all the people chasing noone,
They rush so they can wait and they wait so they can rush,
It's just a neverending circle of crap,
Who did create this society,
Was it a god?
Was it a human?
How can you throw me in there and expect me to obey,
How can you expect me to not say **** the system,
When I didn't even get a chance to escape from this hell.