I'm screaming here now, leaving
nobody is hearing
these voices here now, feeling
that I was never even
while I drown here in sorrow
with no vision of tomorrow
while I hide behind the pain
as you tell me that I've failed
with you forsaking me maybe
maybe I'm just crazy
with blurry visions of the past
I reach out for the last
as I'm slowly dying
I can see you, crying
wishing that I would maybe
maybe call you baby
this would never happen and now I'm forgotten.

I could use a friend who would catch a bullet for me,
I could use a parent that wouldn't abandon me,
I could use all these things while I'm digging this grave,
They say they would **** me for the words I say,
But there's no way,
That I'm still alive after all this pain,
All these sorrows,
No bright tommorrows,
Would you miss me when I'm gone?
Would you cry for me with those beautiful eyes?
Would you tell me that you loved me all this time,
After I can't hear a thing?
After I die?

And if I die it should not matter,
The words I wrote will speak for me after,
My voice is gone,
My skin torn apart,
Yet still I smile,
I can't breathe, there's no air,
Only selfish beasts,
Come to feast again,
So tear me apart,
Beat me till I can't feel the beat of my heart,
But all I see is her smile,
She's the angel of death,
And she came for me tonight.

She's special to me,
She's all that I seek,
I don't know how to deal with it,
How to know if she sees me,
I want to let her know,
But I'm scared, what if I'm wrong
I hope that time deals with it all,
That I will get a sign,
That she's the one,
And that maybe she will accept me,
As who am I,
That she will see some future in the eyes of mine,
As I see in hers,
The eyes are so dark,
So full of life,
Hiding the truth that I have to find out,
I love her smile,
I love when she's around,
I guess I really love her,
I can't think of better life,
Than to be with her,
And her beautiful smile,
Until I'm gone.

The fact that I deal with all this alone,
Is the best and the worst at the same time you know,
I don't need anybody in my life
and I don't need anybody in my life,
That fact kills me more than anything,
I can deal with the issues but who can tell what's real,
If noone stays beside you,
You walk your path, I call you,
But you can't hear me, why could you,
I was never able to speak to anybody nor to you,
So I sit here alone, wonder what time should I make my call,
Death is already on it's way.

I acually don't care anymore,
All I hear is nevermore,
Well if I stay alone, nothing terrifies me more,
I think I love you,
And that's the worst,
But I will try to not focus on the words,
If you can tell you should say,
Let me be or always stay,
I'm shutting down my feelings now,
All I do is grind.

I don't know how to feel,
What are you saying?
What do you mean?
The only thing I know is, that you stole my heart with your show,
If it was real I can't tell,
Who knows,
Such dark eyes and such beautiful smile,
Please be the one that breaks my heart.