How do I make myself happy?
By enjoying yourself with others, by delighting yourself with God. My goodness my heart is lost. I don't want to be up. I can't even. I feel psychotic but I'm not. I Just want peace and a good work out. God more money. Why am I so !@#$%^& sad?

I really hope that Leviathan is waking up.
I really hope that it's not scary, and if it is oh well.
I really hope that whoever doubts is scared and if they have to face him I hope that I can see their faces.

I got a text from you that I wanted three months ago. It was simple "wyd?" I did not respond. I think you only text because you needed something. I am fine with out your drama, and inconsideration. Do not forget that you left me on my birthday to go be with someone! Do not forget how you laughed in my face when I asked where you were going!

I can't tell you when it started. My ears ring when bad thoughts are thought of me, I sense them and my ears ring. I don't confront because what is the point of sounding crazy of an outburst demanding "why don't you say that out loud to my face?" My ears ring when gossip is said about me. I ignore it only to be in the center of an accusation. What is this gift? how do I benefit from it? Stand guard for the advisory the Devil is out to devour and destroy.

It could be fun if only we could be perverts with one another, but you have created the boundary and now it is boring office talk. If I could go back to the beginning then I would have never talk how I did at first with you.

Time traveling exists. It exists in our minds. We go back and then back to present. The past brings tired old feeling's some are exhausting. We vividly relive what we have been through. My chest feels despair and disappointment. I feel I have lived a happy life. Then why every time I go back it is so daunting?