Someone telling me that someone is dating a Millionaire, was not intentional to hurt me but maybe, I don't know all that well. I swear there has to be a sweet revenge for me after learning this. I am not hurt this feels like I am ramping up for some big success, because I know that I won't stand for that. I do not want to give anyone any credit for making me feel a certain way. This year I felt pretty ugly. I do not want to feel ugly no more so I am intentionally making my self beautiful by getting a hair a cut and dressing nice. I am surrounding my self with what  I love and putting God first.

I prayed for someone in pain today. God said he is our healer in faith. So prayed I did. I hope Gamaliel finds relief he can barely walk his pain is bad.

Dear God let your light shine through me, let me see through your eyes and let me hear like your ears, and let my light shine and if anyone tries to dim my light then let them feel your wrath God. Let you strike fear through me. God use me like you did all the Prophets. Thank you God for your mercy and guidance.

Just let the dude think he is the Alpha male, stay quiet and show you're the real Alpha later.

it is so frustrating to think that we can never be friends. my body hurts from stressing a relationship with you that doesn't bloom.

Why do I have to brawl with my brother. He is my best friend. I worry that he is not taking advantage of his youth and being studious. I worry that he waste time on mundane, life ******* games that have no merit, How I wish that he would consider how I feel and go to college to appease me. The fight made me ill , I am nauseous and sad about it. My heart feels broken and mangled and I got nightmares from a character called The Terrifier that I have never seen because I know that it is a disgusting movie. I read in Eat Pray Love, that in order to be happy you have to keep happy even during trying times. "keep even your liver smiling". I am tryin to but thinking about how unfortunate the night was, makes me sick.