hello
its been awhile
but remember that time when
we were chasing each other in the rain
i guess you dont
and now i see
how time could drift two people apart
sigh
if only he remembered
i'd be ecstatic
yeah *if only

it is a word you say
when you're leaving or away
it can be sad
or the opposite of bad

you see the word 'goodbye'
why is it a combination of the two words
good and bye?
i wish i had the knowledge why

but anyway

goodbye my friends
i havent been a good one
but i did try
though soon i realised
that i probably shouldn't have been
why should i -----
but what is the word you put there?
is it care or try
or is it seeking attention or just mere impression

but whatever

i apologise for everything
i really am
i envy you all
all of you are beautiful without doubt
people who be themselves
and dont change for others
are beautiful
and i envy them
you

anyway my point is
do not change for others
though i highly doubt you will
because you are probably laughing at this ****** piece of work
but whatever right

im saying goodbye
without knowing how
and ended up with this
i bid my goodbyes without saying them
cos thats exactly what i had planned in mind

it was a nice roller coaster meeting you guys
you beautiful crazies

she's awkward and shy,
but she's got a thing for that guy,
the one making a fool of himself,
falling at the entrance of the class

they have been classmates since 1st grade,
they have held few eye contacts,
they have collided in a few bumps,
but never have they ever spoke to one another

he shouted the answer for her,
he said her voice is too low,
he tells stupidly foolish jokes,
that secretly cracks her up

She is blonde
She is pretty
She is smart
She is rich
And she knows it

She is that one person
I really hate
Her every action
Made me want to stab her

One time
I forgot to bring a pen
She gave me hers
And gave me a sickening smile

At that moment
I wished i had a truck
A gun
And a bomb

Another time
We were both in a race
She got first
I got second
She congratulated me
And gave me a sickening smile

At that moment
I wished i had a truck
A gun
And a bomb

On October 11th
She came late to class
Mr Bobbins gave her detention
She cried and gave a speech
About everyone being mean to her

I came infront
And gave her an apple

She cried louder

And everyone snickered

i haven't been that person
who talks and laugh confidently
nor have i been that person
who is outgoing and cheerful

though i have once been
but it's all over now

i hate myself for the person i've become
a pathetic loner and an awkward seal
the words i tell myself
are the most cruel and harsh

others see me as
the girl who is quite, awkward and shy
innocent, smart and annoyingly kind
to some others

i was respected in school
in a way that they wouldnt even crack a joke
without getting the feeling
i would be affected by it

i dont know how i seem to them
but it is something i seem to care most
the impression of others;
though i dont know why