Birds chirp
and bees buzz.
You left
and I miss
what was.

Frogs leap
and flowers bloom.
You took my happiness
and left only gloom.

Wind whispers
and silence echos.
You'll never came back,
but I miss you so.

There is an ocean in between us.
It churns in violent winds
and shimmers in shining sun.
The inky black depths of this ocean
seem to reach infinitely down;
I've yet to find the bottom.
An entire world lives in this ocean
and it is one that I'm not a part of.
A toe dipped into this water reveals
the true frigidness that lingers just under the surface.
The ever moving waves pull me in
just to push me away again.
I can hear the ocean through the
empty conch that was once full of life.
There is an ocean in between us
and we're still holding hands.

I am the mouse quivering
under a claw,
the crumpled paper
tossed into a bin,
and ***** clothes
shoved under the bed.

You are the fire that spreads
in a field of dead grass,
a freshly washed blanket
still warm from the dryer,
and the hint of lemon found
in sweet desserts.

I am a baseball being hurled past the pitcher's mound
at lightning speed.

You are the waiting glove,
always ready to catch me.

You called me at 1 AM just to hear my voice.
I forgive you.
I was hoping to hear from you
before I fell asleep.

You had a hand on my thigh all the way to the drive thru parking lot.
I forgive you.
Your hand was warm and
I liked knowing you wanted to touch me.

We fogged up your windows.
I forgive you.
We were two souls
caught in the heat of a moment.

You didn't want to stop when I asked you to.
I forgive you.
I know you've waited for me and
I shouldn't have been such a *****.

You groped at my chest while you took what you wanted.
I forgive you.
I was the one who wore my new
push up bra and pleated skirt.

You punched my chest and held me down.
I forgive you.
I shouldn't have tried
to squirm away from you.

You slapped my face and spit on me.
I forgive you.
I knew you were angry and
I just should have done what you wanted.

You told me I would never amount to anything.
I forgive you.
You were tired and I am an nuisance
who is nothing without you.

You dropped me off with ripped ******* and whispered threats.
I forgive you.
Now I know what to do
to please you.

You made me wear a long sleeve shirt to hide the bruises your fingers left on my arms.
I forgive you.
You didn't mean to hurt me and
people would worry unnecessarily.

You called me at 1 AM tonight and
I forgive you.
I know you can't wait
to show me your love.

Slice me open.
What do you see?
With so many cuts
will I even bleed?

A *** for a tat,
An eye for an eye,
You can't see my pain.
You choose to be blind.

Why can't you
just see me
and keep your hands,
your precious,
callused,
weathered,
beautiful hands,
to yourself.

There is you,
a marble statue
made to be seen
and not touched.
You,
a towering pillar
standing strong
when I cannot.
And then there is me,
a ball of clay
not yet hardened.
Me,
the flickering flame
caught in your winds.
We are different,
but when our
stars align
and shine just right,
we are beautiful.

Remember the time
that you and I
took a trip to the zoo?

You flashed your
dimples at me
while we watched
the penguins waddle and
your grin was infectious.

I smiled so hard
I thought my face would
shatter
into a thousand
happy pieces.

Remember the time
that you and I
took a trip to the zoo?

We strolled
down the path
hand in hand
with cotton candy
sticky fingers
and light hearts.

The animals
caught our eyes,
but we caught
each other.

Remember the time
That you and I
Took a trip to the zoo?

You probably don’t,
But I do.