I lie still in the midnight surf
crashing waves rushing over me
pummeling an already broken soul
ravaging my cold chamber'd heart
torn apart by thunderous clouds,
that day you sail'd for better horizons

Sinking breathlessly onto the edge,
hoping for ocean's depth to unfurl
this magnitude of boundless space
left behind in your parting tides,
sand engulfs my weeping eyes
etching how blind'd love can be


Hauntingly sad violin cries in the distance,
strumming the siren call on wing'd strings
whilst ebb'd flow of tears immerse,
drowning ceaselessly in streams...

Beginning of the end or the other way around
one moment melds into another impertinent
moon that's now a pasty light in your eyes
taking prisoners that died a thousand deaths
heart bleeds blackest crimson tears
evidence of trust's blind vision pierced
words of contentment now tarnished
with the soulless questions of guilt
fairy tales sink down the rabbit hole
forever after lasts but a moment in time

Swept away 'tween rapture's dance
       pause'd naked round fiery embers
our souls like whispers
    hush'd in the wind's howls
stars smiled gently upon ***** skies
   enchanted lunar moon
      twinkling in his eye
         lit upon desire

sipping streams of dahlia wine
   drink you in with each sinful spin
thrumming in this twirl of ecstasy
  music pounding in the heart
bodies pulsating to a swaying tempo,
   thrashing rhythmically in this crush


   fading into each breathless tremor
       sounded a gentle quiver
  bodies bent in intoxicating unison's swagger
connected in a rhapsodic concerto
   intertwined in synchronized euphoria
           exhalations of frenzied elation
                      blared a sultry night

My ink bleeds unto the page
        wandering from the mind's vortex
  spiral twisters, compulsions
                      and desires  
  wafting through rambling quills
     hearts devour'd & core exposed
        unstrung melodies of spirit's zest,
         flutters of gossamer wings on zephyr's glide
            touching moments unravel'd,
                  nature running poppy wild

               ...and then once again,

  ~EXHALE POETRY~

start
    the
          process
                over
                      again

  from the top one more time
    gliding on a dance floor
           of rhythmic seduction
             is it rhyme or reason
                 that keeps me coming back to you

I should have seen you coming
fine wine of the worst kind,
missed all the clues in your roving eye
your demeanor won me over
confidence up the *****
now I'm wondering
what the **** was I thinking
with the likes of your kind,
bought me pretty posies
that just wasn't enough
thought I'd beat the odds
so did all those other women
who took a chance at gambling
with their hearts and souls
left a sour taste in my mouth
to accompany my age'd  whine

i've lived through a life of stolen kisses
baby blankets, hits and misses
cried a million tears in retrospect
soup du jour and soup for one
apple peels and bruised egos
all encompassing lust and love
& tiny tots bouncing on my knee
lived within passion, pity and grace
fall out from past grievances and haste
endured & defied vast undefined confines
treading in my own footprints,
yet, the world goes round & round
no matter where i've been or what i've seen
shut the door on one chapter and another begins
pretty posies and hurricane's wrath
ups and downs of this insane merry-go-round
yet in the corner of my eye always exist
a glimmer of sanity that walks the dog
takes out the trash and sips regal tea
clouds illusions in my mind
changes in the valleys and high seas
lofty inspirations awakening the dead
'work it or leave it alone'
over the rainbow in my head
spinning to the tune of the beat goes on
high on life, then giddy to a frown
i've made myself dizzy no doubt
at the end of the day
when the world is at bay
i wonder still, would i want it any other way

...another year gone by
time for contemplative reflections
stand with grace     ease deliberately
away from grievances & heavy sighs
wondering when the past will adapt
another challenge of the heart & soul
new reserves of inner strength
fortified through friendly smiles
another step forward to new dimensions
wandering somewhere above the clouds of mind
must embrace elapsed time to live the present
weakened resolutions now seeking restitution
time on a silver platter graciously abounds
another day, another lesson, another year gone by
surrendering to this brilliant gift we call life

My soul
has purged
a thousand lives

I have traveled,
many destinations

I found my peace
and contentment
within my heart
floating through air

no matter
how wide my longing
it drifts ardently

amidst this reverie's mystery,
holds tight onto a cloud

coming full circle
it always takes me back
to this sacred place
dancing on the midnight skies

Consecrate me in your madness
    sanctify this communion,
sketch me in bursting metaphorical hues,
  color'd tinges blushed of cardinal's soft sonnets
paint a picture within inky filigreed lace,
  finely woven silken thread'd tapestries
my religion breathes your affinity
      harmony's rapport of favored essence
twist poetry into my hair,   whilst
   dancing upon the music in your stanza's hymn
bathe me in peachy champagne bubbled prose
  suffuse butterfly shivers up my spine
i breathe the air you've fervidly script'd
   etch'd in blood flow awakens my senses,
the emotions artistes' bleed out
   you are my strength, my power
          my weakness, my Achilles heel ~


swooning in the phases of your darkly lit moons
           cut me deep into the heart & gut
piercing movement of echoes unfold.  
        moving majestic amethyst  mountains,
shred my soul with your dragon's breath
     anoint my *******, oils that seep from thy quill
            make me punch drunk aberration's tipsy
        drenching me in sparkling scarlet wine
clinging from the vines of destiny's path
           my soul's existence is solely dependent
    upon your utterly blissful verses within Elysian Fields

You know you love it when I'm a wild thing,
    i can hear your heart pounding out your chest
when I lick you so seductively
         and you rise to the occasion
my ***** are on fire, c'mon
       give it to me one more time
no gentle caresses,
       give me the nitty gritty
real passion with flavor
             you wanna hear me scream
put me over your knee,
            you call'd me wild thang,
    now, make it worth my while
set my spirit to frenzy off the charts
    then i'll show you how a real lioness roars
              reverberate me...move me,
my soul is singing to your machismo
  i'm machinating to throw you off guard
        our dance of the sheets is just the beginning,
                 groove into me with all your might
              bend me to suit your needs,
         i won't break, perhaps only your heart

I don't know how I got here, or where I'm going
Recordings process chants to where I've been
I'm broken but you can't fix me
I am not a project, I am flesh and heart
My soul's been tattered to the wind
Random and disjointed suits my mind
I used to think I was invincible, unbreakable
Now I'm lost in the muck and mire of past
Stay with me and don't judge
One foot in front of the other, stand by me
You instigate my fractured remains
Nothing good can come of it
Don't say what you don't mean
Barking habits that make me fall
I'll drag you down to my abyss
That phantasmagoria won't be pretty
Alas, then you'll have walked in my shoes
Tell me, how's your future looking now?

Behind her veil'd facade
she writes her memoirs
enticing nectar'd touches of a woman
pickled with tartness & zest of a wanton need
closes her eyes when she takes her quill
upon her honey'd *******
scripts love letters of a past sinful lust,
seasoned times she can reminisce
  in her foolish head she had a dream,
    blinded by desire, was never meant to be,
in her rush to be discreet
    her scarlet letters smear'd
emboss'd her mark upon raised braille
despair'd should anyone find her
             true heart's intentions,
one final evanescent indulgence
  of a poison pen'd sleeping beauty

I can't see through my heart,
as I watched my resolution's stare
blindly running against the rain
to disguise my own teardrops,
trying to avoid your blustery glare

Ended on a sinister cloud creation,
I tried to breathe/
       whilst I gingerly swallowed,
I found you stuck there
rasping ambiguous,
nothing could dislodge
the abrasive taste,
             my own voice stifled by regret,
started out a tempered,
            genesis love song...

I wanted to believe that it was true
    you placed your raucous sword
        upon my breast, cut me deeply,
       leaving scars,         apparent
         you craved the bloodstains
        resonating in my chest

...I wavered in the hailing discontent,
afraid to leave, afraid to stay,
was a little sliver of Heaven
with a lot of Hell to pay

I lost my way, only the pouring rain
   understood exactly what to say...

Your untouchable promises
     chill'd in my veins
my fragile posies were left
           out in the frosted reign
swept me up in your darkly
                 abstruse sweetness
etch'd love songs
          on my skin's tremblings
prayers that were answer'd
          with sad weakness
lullabies dull'd my sensibilities
        and dying fortitude
fell on my knees upon
         my own strangled heart
rescuing  me from myself,
          you brush'd ***** tendrils aside
in contemptible silent sighs,
               from the depths of apathy
i need your emptiness to
      fill my void'd briny spirit
frosted over my convictions,
             i lie frozen in icy drifts of regret

Butterfly haunts me
flutters by in the dark of night
when the smoke cleared
all that was left was a still photograph
no breath to be had, no words to be spoken
perched upon my mind where no one can see
all the secrets that taunt me

Left behind in your spirit
like an erratic zephyr they twist my head
nothing sacred in how you fled the atmosphere
I oft wonder have you found that freedom
as you floated from this earth
markings on the sky of colorless clues  
the painted scenery still not clear
all that's left to do is exhale poetry

   ...people ask me why I am so cynical,
why can't you take the chance and trust,
the answer is simply 'because of you'
reflective views flip my psyche into another dimension
you ask why, I keep my distance never to connect on a deeper level
I laugh and smile, I learned that from you, a keen cover to hide the truth
'because of you' my mind is twisted, my body  recoils
listless in the heavy load, a burden that was not my doing
so, when people ask 'why so wary', I say something flippant
to cover my painful angst laden reasons why, but we both know...
it's 'because of you'.....................

She scribbles endlessly, ferociously
waiting for her true love to glance
  the aching in her wanton heart
pen'd in crimson's darkly hued soul
   inky passages of the past
when the sun still shine'd a'glow
   and all was write with the world

As the wind rushes over the moors
  she thinks of her Heathcliff'd dreams
reverie of timely love season'd skies
   when spring sprung eternally
old man winter was only a notion
  frozen in another's memories
  til stormy nights overcame the fantasy

Still, she revisits her place in the sun
  bleeding out on paper without conscience
a wavering inner voice triumphs demurely
   as emotions spill over the tethered wastelands
once a land of wide open lush filled pleasures
  this place now only a reminder of tormented defeat
yet, her resolve for passion's affection remains

Silent pain screams volumes
in the middle of the night
it blares like a herald'd trumpet
by day its sound blatantly echoes
lost the words to speak
or convey the angst within,
stuck in a butterfly's cocoon
with no metamorphosis in sight

Butterfly haunts me
flutters by in the dark of night
when the smoke cleared
all that was left was a still photograph
no breath to be had, no words to be spoken
perched upon my mind where no one can see
all the secrets that taunt me

Left behind in in your spirit
like an erratic zephyr they twist my head
nothing sacred in how you fled the atmosphere
I oft wonder have found that freedom
as you floated from this earth
markings on the sky of colorless clues
the painted scenery still not clear
all that's left to do is exhale poetry

Sleep, yes go to sleep
so you can visit that hell again
when the night arrests your breath
until it's nothing but a whimper
it comes again to **** your soul
leaves merely a reeling shell  
madness in being buried alive
are they nightmare or memories
a blend of blood's spilling guts
twisting  entrails till they fail
bleeding the heart, ******* it flaccid
neurons flashing in neon putrid green,
deep repulsive murky shadows of inky ebony
pulsating to the beat of slicing knives momentum
they don't hide in the closet or under the bed
these are the true monsters in your head, as the un-dead
take a chance on some zzz's tonight
if you're really lucky, perhaps you will wake...

...and I never did learn to fly
   always trying to take flight
came close a time or two,
  could never quite get off the ground
wings were clipped as a fledgling
       stories written on caged walls
echoed, yet there were no lyrics to sing
   without a voice on a prayer
plummeted to  abysm's bottomless pit
    till I could feel no more
there in the dark stillness lie the secret
          rhythm and music filled the air

Found the poetry within my soul
realized the wings were in my heart
all along, I was meant to dance

Waiting on a Black Moon
    to rise from my heart
paradox's of kaleidoscopic
     cobalt blue views
absurdity of lovers clueless
          tune'd melodies
wrapped in gauzy tunnel
                  vision'd eyes
dance'd around the floor
       of self contradictions steps
changing reflections continually
              shifting under foot
symmetry of heart's desire
              gray'd under the influence
high tides shifting to the skies
                    of lovers in denial

Last time I saw your face I danced in your essence

    the tempo deliberate and hauntingly alluring

you provided the rhythm for my wanton heart

      your Grandioso sent me over the moon,

            then crashing back to earth




I felt it'd be our last tango,

          yet, you expressed devotion

I fell into your staccato without missing a beat

      till I realized you'd always be a cappella

with no reason or rhyme for your deceptive cadence

    there'd be no encore, you were falsetto in disguise




Now, I dance alone on a dark moon with no harmony

     no Maestro to entice an impromptu interlude

sad violin music the only melody that tunes my soul

     still, a free spin above the kick of devils symphony

Do you even feel the glue
that holds the cracks together,
did you hear the broken pieces
is this layout put together so concrete,
the facade such a slip of the eye
scaffolding a mere set em'brace,
somedays I have to ponder
who is reflecting off these walls,
made your way to the top floor
never stepped foot in the basement
   it's just not happening,         as if
when the tangible starts to crumble,
   everyone makes it to the safe room
draft another blueprint of the heart,
   stuck together with spat out remnants
"I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it"
   plays on a scratchy loop in my head
apparently you're not       only blind
this cinder'd block is going down
   there are no doors out of this shaft
    once you crash that cellar floor
you end up six feet below the ground*      

start over...

........and then you touched me
not in the usual fashion,
but deep within my soul's fancy
a fondling embrace that took flight
clutch'd and pique'd every relevant moment thereafter
life would forever be changed         yet
most everything stayed the same
except for deep within the recesses of time
breath stood still and the imprint within my heart,
lasting well beyond a lifetime of  endlessness
still just a mere drop of water in an infinite sea
oftentimes, especially when it rains blissfully
i think of how you enveloped me for perpetuity

I longed to speak to death,
                        it was silent as a lark

Screaming at the night I sought truth
beg'd your return on a wing'd prayer
what sinister darkness looms overhead
words never heard, hearts bled black

Vengeance was never in my name,
revenge never part of the game

Whisper the secret of the ages in my ear
I'd die for you I swear, accept the broken flight
gone before the brilliant light was subdued
enslaved by the insanity of moonlit passages
******* in the valley of darkly trespasses
flickering in dusty stars of nightmare

Wolves bled you before the story was told
         silence is a steel drum ringing in my head
you were first to leap into the valley of despair
            I'd take your place if I could only hear
                 the voice of death pounding in my  heart