These poetic issues are full of antithesis
consistently random at best
no means yes to friendly enemies
personal business is as public opinion
it's all pretty badass, now and then...
an adult child speaks invalid relevance
the big baby in a dark comedy
mild enthusiasm of a life denied,
constant ambivalence of brief speeches
this chilling fever has risen in acute apathy
of confirmed rumors by current history
equally diverse in the same difference
whilst the walking dead, accept rejection
burning cold in their blind sight
sigh to a clearly ambiguous sad smiley,
yet everyone generalizes a beautiful disaster,  
odds are even, my head is seriously insane
living deceased what a crime, the future is today
honestly kidding*...No comment

...and there you submerged yourself
       a warm bubble'd spot in my heart
against all storm warnings and precautions,
you fancied a challenge or crazy I suppose
this chambered heart is made of titanium
shot down, where once emotion pump'd
running rivers rage of icy futile frigid waters

I'll be the first to admit, still waters run deep
and this placid exterior hides a passionate undertow
although once the levy was broken,
            it took all warmblooded survivors

yet, still you linger without a preserver in sight...

perhaps, there's more to this element,

       the nature of drowning's decent

                     gingerly takes another breath

You dropped my faith in the gut bucket
I thought you were to be trusted
I was sadly mistaken once again
a dependable friend is a commodity
your perfidious words slayed my credence
the testimony can be found in written word
inconceivable after what I've been through
intentions of loyalty misconstrued in your head
never fed the fire, never asked to be rescued
a fraternization in need was what was spoken
my hand in friendly alliance was not enough
crumpled trust wrecked, strewn bits pen'd on paper
i may be broken but these cracks are uniquely mine
in the meantime i nursed you whilst in desperation
should have known you were radioactive
by your past nefarious grievous verbosity
you corrupted every sentiment set forward
a bitter fire to light for public consumption
hard pill to swallow being openly ripped
aspersions cast within my treasured love of words
it was always about sheer joy of shared poetry
the lunatic in your head took a giant leap
landed in my cup of realistic doubt
bitter taste took a dive in my elixir
yet another painful lesson ingested
you drew your sniveling sword unjustly
then cowered amongst those you spewed upon
little do they know the wickedness of your ways
far be it for me to come to rescue any
who'd listen to the likes of your grotesque tongue

put your big boy pants on, you fight like a girl...
who the **** do you think you are?

Perdition falls from your lips in pretty posies
sanguinary lies woven within embellished fairy tale
they drank the kool aid of your bastardized  aspersions
it's evil spell cast, hypnotizing the living dead
devil with archangel wings doth pose in velvet idioms
spewing respite in dark undertones of ego's rejection
perusing any that would annihilate acrid truths
peer in the mirror to see the lying heathen lecher
****** venom dripping from your deceptive sword
in bitterness of jagged tongue's kissass contempt
'don't talk about it, talk about the weather'~
hell hath no fury as the man unveiled to the masses
history repeats itself and no one seems the wiser....**



How did you get to be so unkind?

...and I never did learn to fly
   always trying to take flight
came close a time or two,
  could never quite get off the ground
wings were clipped as a fledgling
       stories written on caged walls
echoed, yet there were no lyrics to sing
   without a voice on a prayer
plummeted to  abysm's bottomless pit
    till I could feel no more
there in the dark stillness lie the secret
          rhythm and music filled the air

Found the poetry within my soul
realized the wings were in my heart
all along, I was meant to dance

...when the quiet transfixed my eyes,
finally realized your darkly overt tenor
no matter how often you change colors
beastly burdens invasion upon mine soul
piranha eating flesh of thy innocent young
professing peace, love, interminable charity
wolf in sheep masquerade of disavowel's claws
scraping bottom of bowels and viscera
have you no soul, even fiends take offense
cut thy own tongue and feed it unto thy ego
wallowing in the contradictions thine own self
repudiation will be thou own ruination in* HELL

Drink your Hemlock down
    as you've doled your poison out tenfold
choke on your own ignorant arrogance
     and grandiose excuse for self worth
your filthy lies caught up with you before Heaven's gate
    Angels snagged your ***** *** before it was too late
now burn in Hell you lecherous, hostile ingrate*

CHEERS

Where did it all go, that 'true love' intention
   caught up in the flames of fiery impulsion
you ride me like a stallion into oblivion
   then flip me over and tease relentlessly

I unfolded in your heat scorching touch
prayed you'd linger deep in me for a moment
your evil ways were never satiated
  wanted my tears within the luster
tore a hole in my heart then ran with it
   wanted me to worship at your feet
although that was not enough
    those nights in white satin sheets
had to be ruled by your bloodlust

You broke apart my insides,   devour'd
    me like an animalistic charlatan
back to black once again for satisfaction
   drained my heart till there was barely breath
******* the air from vital emotions
'came into my life so tenderly'
then maimed me with your mighty sword
   deep inside my psyche, you hurt me so bad

You don't need me, just want surrender
like a bitter coffee addiction, I drink you in
helplessly falling under your wanton spell
I run from you but I can't hide
           from how you unfurl my senses
that flaming yearning is all that remains
  it hurts so good, yet, it hurts so madly bad
still you left your mark on me for eternity

I beg of you taint me once again till you've had your fill
I'll die within the confines of this sweet heavenly misery

Etch upon my soul with resplendent golden ribbons
so that my heart will beat within the rhythm of your rhyme
write me sonnets of splendor and ephifanies of poetry
pen emotion's bliss in pomegranete's evocative style
I feel the earth move within the whispers of the wind
force gales or zephr's take flight upon the senses
indescibably delicious taste of another's rapture

"Thou art mine distant moon
Influencing the tides of mine soul
Illuminating fragile words of grief
That grieve in longing of thee, o' distant moon"

I stand in the light of rays that dwell in the present
swoon me to another time and place of peaceful serenity
your words written on my skin mark its stance in perpetuity
I shall dance endlessly in the lavish brilliance of your grandeur

Your musky scent lingered
wafted through my mind
my eyes glistened in the recall
echoed in enthralled moments,
Chantilly laced and perfumed
my body aches to do it again
a shiver tickles my inner thigh
flutter of fiery passion enraptured
left its brand upon my breast
your torrid kisses bruised my lips
pain and ecstasy of divine bliss
sizzling in thrashing slow motion
within my trance of sultry nights

Cut me, leach this tumor within me
it has festered into a separate entity
with its own blood supply
grown overbearing in  its voracity
taking up more space each day
edging me out of the picture entirely
seems as though it'll devour me whole
dismemberment appears imminent
I'm only afraid of what I'll find
a face similar to mine with two heads
a cancer of your caliber, eating me alive
cold, ruthless treachery of no denial
ancestral antecedent, I'd prefer it dead
set fire to your name in vain
demon feasting decades after
it will never surrender peaceably

   ...people ask me why I am so cynical,
why can't you take the chance and trust,
the answer is simply 'because of you'
reflective views flip my psyche into another dimension
you ask why, I keep my distance never to connect on a deeper level
I laugh and smile, I learned that from you, a keen cover to hide the truth
'because of you' my mind is twisted, my body  recoils
listless in the heavy load, a burden that was not my doing
so, when people ask 'why so wary', I say something flippant
to cover my painful angst laden reasons why, but we both know...
it's 'because of you'.....................

" COLLABORATION Jack & Frieda "

A hush does wake this early dawn
in whispers formed on breathless dreams
Sunrise of horizon’s glow
through flowing curtains on opaque glass

I sense in the distance, a tingling  
the air crisp with Fall's spinning
a tangible scent of warmth is mulling
like hot cider's comfort beside a fire

Crimson and ochre paint the valley
in a tapestry of nature’s desire,
gently woven in patterns of bliss,
collecting thoughts in blue tinted jars    

Memories of far away encounters
as if captive in snow globes embraces
Topsy-turvy recollections and reminisces
painted in hues of yesterday's resolve

Secured neatly with plaid and gingham ribbon,
set upon the sill amidst cranberry ornaments
Reflecting past love and new day wishes,
scented by a heart longing for autumn’s sweet kiss

*A gentle sway of a zephyr sweeps my hair
I'm reminded of your touch at the nape of my neck
a season of whirling calyx in sweet surrender
I sigh in this moment, for I wish you were still here

you, my insidious temptation
the lover that taunts me
seduces me to acquiescence
my haunting addiction
you, wrap around my senses
absolute cunning & Machiavellian grace
annulled my comprehension
drained my rational mind
took me on your flight of fancy
careless beast of burden
you burn so smoothly, pounce so quickly
knocked my perception off kilter
still, i take you in slowly              methodically
till every inch of you inside me bursts into flames
                                             takes my breath away
fire lingers  flagrantly brazen
warning my head, warming my *****
I tremble in the delectation of your touch
sigh deeply,              as I plead for surrender
you flip me over again in a rush
my head dizzy from the pleasure*


two ***** ***** martinis are more than
                      I can handle as I fade into you

Your embrace, the sweet taste of hot mulled cider
touching upon my poetic soul like burning embers

Scent of sun's ripplings upon ocean's salted clean air
I hear a soft babbling brook, aside a majestic tower

A rhyme sung out in epical tunes of yesteryear
calling upon idyllic temptation's imagination

Swept away in the grasp of imperfect rapture,
zealous release of poetry's tenderhearted bliss

Perdition falls from your lips in pretty posies
sanguinary lies woven within an embellished fairy tale
they drank the kool aid of your bastardized  aspersions
it's evil spell cast, hypnotizing the living dead
devil with archangel wings doth pose in velvet idioms
spewing respite in dark undertones of ego's rejection
perusing any that would annihilate acrid truths
peer in the mirror to see the lying heathen lecher
****** venom dripping from your deceptive sword
in bitterness of jagged tongue's kissass contempt

hell hath no fury as a soulless man scorned*

How did you get to be so unkind?

Do you even feel the glue
that holds the cracks together,
did you hear the broken pieces
is this layout put together so concrete,
the facade such a slip of the eye
scaffolding a mere set em'brace,
somedays I have to ponder
who is reflecting off these walls,
made your way to the top floor
never stepped foot in the basement
   it's just not happening,         as if
when the tangible starts to crumble,
   everyone makes it to the safe room
draft another blueprint of the heart,
   stuck together with spat out remnants
"I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it"
   plays on a scratchy loop in my head
apparently you're not       only blind
this cinder'd block is going down
   there are no doors out of this shaft
    once you crash that cellar floor
you end up six feet below the ground*      

start over...

I am a fragrant lily
soft as morning dew,
strength of mother lioness
    protecting her cubs

I am nonsense, clever,
   sensual & extravagant
I can make your day
   or break your heart

Take care of business,
   roar in the bedroom
     appetizer in the galley  

I could raise your sun
  or blow your mind
Be your concubine
   or take control

I am tender inside
and out
with a soul
   of titanium

I bend but
don't break me

I am woman
in purest form

I fell for you like amber raindrops
burnished by the sun's satiation,
golden in my heart you will remain
our love story as sinister storm clouds,
turning sapphire skies to bleak trickles
sank in drowning pools of our own undoing
  baubles of lust dissipated on the horizon
     yet I still swim in you on dismal days*...




© 2013 Frieda P

Butterfly haunts me
flutters by in the dark of night
when the smoke cleared
all that was left was a still photograph
no breath to be had, no words to be spoken
perched upon my mind where no one can see
all the secrets that taunt me

Left behind in in your spirit
like an erratic zephyr they twist my head
nothing sacred in how you fled the atmosphere
I oft wonder have found that freedom
as you floated from this earth
markings on the sky of colorless clues
the painted scenery still not clear
all that's left to do is exhale poetry

drowning in emotions of deceit & despair
  you waded in taking chance we'd go under
       held my head til tiny bubbles appeared
i swallowed heart not to feel the pain
   rushing  inhales made it hard to see
    through the dizzying whirlpool of  twisted lies
          your guilt burnt my fused eyelids
i dove in the deep end of abstract remission
   only to drown in your ***** transgressions
         truth surfaced to find a lifeless repose
            repast held without honor of mourning
there was no burial, no flowers, not a tear shed
        just an empty casket that encased your heart

Sleep, yes go to sleep
so you can visit that hell again
when the night arrests your breath
until it's nothing but a whimper
it comes again to **** your soul
leaves merely a reeling shell  
madness in being buried alive
are they nightmare or memories
a blend of blood's spilling guts
twisting  entrails till they fail
bleeding the heart, ******* it flaccid
neurons flashing in neon putrid green,
deep repulsive murky shadows of inky ebony
pulsating to the beat of slicing knives momentum
they don't hide in the closet or under the bed
these are the true monsters in your head, as the un-dead
take a chance on some zzz's tonight
if you're really lucky, perhaps you will wake...

A hollow stippling of a soul in the breeze
    hiding in the bushes of perilous vexing
there are days when the wind howls
    whispers darkly  at the ominous night
feel the chill that passes through
           dances coolly on pressed eyelids
                   floats tepid beyond the senses
             know it's the emptiness that comes
        right before realities' disenchantment

Where is love laid to rest
when it takes that last breath

are there markers at a grave-site
or does it purely burn out
much like ashes of cremation
no bejeweled urn to possess

terminated last rites,

sacrificed primordial
spiritual strength for recovery

~Rest in Peace~

if you've faith enough
  to say 'AMEN'