this beauty that is yours
is impossible to ignore
and this body that you own
is so enticing for the ones
who wish they could access it.
you are so rare
and so well sculpted
they wish they could explore
every waves
and every crevices
that carve the piece of work
that god made you.
so they drape you of their kind words
just so their sneaky hands
can feel your delicate frame
and they bathe your soul
in what it wants to hear
just so they can dance
with your enchanted physique
but be careful
because once they drain
all the purity that fulfills you
you lose your utility
and they leave.

💫💫💫
i dont want your words
to hurt me anymore
and I don’t want your thoughts
to affect me
ever again
I keep trying to please you
I just really want you to love me
but your expectations
are unattainable
and I will never be good enough.
for so long
I’ve been tearing myself apart
for a single drop of your acceptance
and I have changed so much
I had to lose myself
to find comfort in your arms
but the safety of your protection
didn’t bring me peace
and I have been at war with my soul
for so long
I am exhausted.
I am finally learning
that your benediction
is not what i need
for my body to flourish
and for my mind to bloom
therefore I promise myself
that I will not keep fighting
I am raising the white flag
and if you still want to change me
then come and plunder my lands
because I won't try to stand anymore
against an unbeatable army
so you can try to destroy me
but you will never hurt me again
i have come to understand
that my existence follows a path
and you are not a part of it.
i can finally breathe
after all these years
of holding my breath
the eggs may hatch
because I will not walk on them
after all these restless nights
may I finally sleep
with both eyes closed
because I am not scared
of your demons.
and if this version of myself
does not match your expectations
then may your expectations
stay unmatched
because for the first time in forever
I am free.