And they loved me,
I held their hands while they cried,
brought the tissues to every period,
beat my brain for resolutions to shoddy problems,
listening day by day to a broken record,
And they loved me for it.

I hurt more and more, silent
Family not knowing what to think,
grounded for the first time in 5 years,
alone because of the love I give
and they never noticed.

I did what I do, played me
divorce, heartbreak, panic attacks,
there I was, with a kind word
And I became broken.

the sadness that was theirs was mine,
I take that burden, it grows
never stops growing, day
after day, after day, after day
and they kept being sad,
And I was always alone.

Silence, don't say a word,
I will make it worse for them
never worry about myself,
just because I have attacks,
Cut, my family was fine
And never will be the same again.

Until I changed, they never noticed
the only ones to notice were my parents
and they loved me... My friends, they did love me until I opened my mouth,
They loved me.

She sat in the corner
No one saw
Twitching and hiding her prize
It writhed and curled
Then suddenly became still
And the spider, full,
Was alone again.