you showed me love
the love at 4 am
the love that is a sin
the love of forever and always
the love of never again
the love you took for granted
the love you shared with them
the love I thought was love
but merely I was deceived again

I saw it in the mirror
I closed my eyes
to my surprise
I took a breath
it disappeared
it slit my throat
and let me choke
I looked again
to see the pain
I had lost at my own game
misperception
my reflection