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Oct 2013 · 472
far too late
flynt Oct 2013
i've been drowning in the water
trying to find my father
what happen to my powers
this time i'm too late
these lyrics we wrote together
will never be put to our music
for i was too late to realize
too late to understand how much
you've meant to me
the person in my dreams
standing across the street
was you the whole time
when my heart would swell
out of times so rare
it was only you
and i was far too late
Jul 2013 · 1.1k
porcupine
flynt Jul 2013
I've made you happy
And I've made you sad
But I don't know which one
To be sorry for.

you wrote your feelings all over me with a blue pen
and i remember all of it



*sorry about everything
Jun 2013 · 424
evenwhen
flynt Jun 2013
"I love you even*       "I love you even
               when I think       when you think
                       about death."           about death"  
                                          -JG                 ­          *-BB
May 2013 · 919
=IT=
flynt May 2013
painting red across my wrist
and all i wanted was a better view
"wake up"   it says   "let's go get high"
my cheeks flushed hot red
damped by my fears
bored because i'm dumb
it calls me a queer
my mind although
is a riot that you watch
from your tv
pupils dilated
doll parts scattered
bless my body
bless my soul
wrap it up in
turpentine
you're so *******
fabulous babydoll
you fit right
******* in
this goes in with the other poems all written under the influence
this makes absolutely no ******* sense, and it's *******
enjoy - who the **** am i?!
May 2013 · 1.2k
~Sublime~
flynt May 2013
Of such excellence, grandeur, or beauty as to inspire great admiration or awe

*"ranging from the sublime to the ridiculous".
May 2013 · 551
Drown
flynt May 2013
I'm under the water
Facing up at the sky
I see the rushes of water
Above my eyes
Hands are reaching
Making the water
Uneasy
Which makes
The sky look broken
Everything is in slow
Motion when you're
Drowning as Simon's
voice plays sweetly along
With Garfunkel's
And those hands are
Vigorously reaching out
To me
I just want to sink
Deep

Deep

*Deep
Apr 2013 · 673
~peach heart~
flynt Apr 2013
So soft and plump
I want to throw up
Cobwebs clinging
To my skin
Glowing and fading
So delicate and
Locked up
Holes and spirals
Of where bugs have
Made their nests
My chest blooms
Blossoms
And my heart
Swells with
*evanescence
Evanescence - the event of fading and gradually vanishing from sight.
Apr 2013 · 506
B~H~Warner
flynt Apr 2013
You, my personal jesus.
Something I can't possibly believe in.
But you, I know you're it
as I reach out to touch your taste.
Touch my faith.
Make me a believer.
Teach me your ways.
You, my personal jesus.
You, reaching out to touch the insides
of my legs.
You're my own.
Reach out and touch me.
Do you know who Brian is?
Apr 2013 · 737
Gifts From Me To You
flynt Apr 2013
I will wrap up my scars in a bouquet      I left a jar at your window

lay them gently on your door step    filled with sighs and cigarette butts

ring your doorbell         so you could get high in the morning
      
and runaway            off of my sleepless nights of          
                                  
                             ­ boredom and sadness
can you dig it? it's bad, i know this.
Oh, yeah two separate columns are two separate poems.
Apr 2013 · 1.1k
I Reach
flynt Apr 2013
I reach into my pocket, and pull out some Autumn leaves.
They're damped red, brown, yellow, and some green.
They smell like musky air after rain.
I reach into the ocean and pull out some seashells.
One looked like it had a heart in-graved,
and the other had a face.
I almost got hit by a car that day, but I
think they must be lucky.
I reach into my past, and I pull out my heart.
I put it in my pocket along with the musky leaves,
and the shells from the sea,
because all I do is
reach and reach and reach.
whatthefuck/ baaaaddd
Apr 2013 · 450
Hummy ~ Scar Bright
flynt Apr 2013
I am standing in a weird red light.
You can see my scares, they glow bright.
And all I've ever wanted is to be ripped opened,
and then pulled under.
I look over my shoulder into a different light,
and all I can see is you
looking over your shoulder back at me.
Oh, and it's strange.
Don't look at me in this light, *Hummy.
Hummy is someone very special to me, and the crazy cool part is he isn't made up this time.
Mar 2013 · 497
B.H.R
flynt Mar 2013
He says faces come out of the rain.
Well, I'm still waiting.
All she wanted was to be free.
Now she's the wind;
now she's inside of me.
Oh, and she was too good for this world,
and that's why she left.
Leaving us in wonder.
She's shooting to the stars.
Now her vibe is buzzing my bones.
Out of her body, she won't fall apart.
The world was too cruel, and life was never fair
for a girl who was so wild and too stunning to bear.
All she wanted was to be free.

She is free,
*she will always be.
for my dearest friend. I understand as much as I can.
Mar 2013 · 373
deepest/sofest
flynt Mar 2013
Late at night
What is that light?
Hopefully something is coming to take me.
Mar 2013 · 529
red light ~ after glow
flynt Mar 2013
I remember it was after midnight.
Everyone in the whole town were at home asleep.
I walked on the empty streets of Main.
I felt as if I were on a stage.
Such a strange world it felt at that time.

And you were there.
Mar 2013 · 339
Oh, I Am So Numb
flynt Mar 2013
I don't feel my ribs,
and I can't feel my chest.
I'm just going to keep hidden from the rest;
rest of everything.
Oh, but I do feel something, actually.
The hard swelling of my heart.
The dwelling of what I think is a soul.
Mar 2013 · 478
I Melt Into The - Unknown
flynt Mar 2013
I am here. Where am I?
I lay on the floor, I become a snake.
I melt into the

I've always been nervous around snakes.
poem i wrote while on acid.
Mar 2013 · 458
I Burn Black For You
flynt Mar 2013
He had given me some bittersweet stories.
All spoken of him leaving.
He says he always misses me.
He says that's why he has to go.
The void keeps growing.
Every night it's tearing at my chest; a hole.
And I'm trying to come up for air.
I'm trying to take control.
I'm not listening, and I'm not fine.
I said "you're not from this planet."
But really you're not from mine.
Like a beautiful supernova.
Something too heavenly to keep in.
old/revised/billy/my love/memories/
I'm glad he stayed.
Mar 2013 · 382
Slipping Away
flynt Mar 2013
Hello, are you the one?
The one to see me through?
I am a missing person.
I linger in your bones.
I fit in your skin.
I swear I do, I fit right in.
Bind me from doing harm
to others, but never from myself.
For I am nothing but a bundle of flesh.
And I am slipping away.
I wish I could describe my thoughts and emotions better. ugh
Feb 2013 · 607
from my burned childhood
flynt Feb 2013
You're the air I breath.       (how cliché)

The sun I see.

The moon I envy.

You are everything.        (that makes me something)

Now I am everywhere.         (and it makes you nothing)
dumb/bad/ugh/burned
flynt Feb 2013
I was the child with the coral painted brown on my head.
I was his fawn. I was his lost death.
I feel this buzzing in my bones.
I think I'm dumb.
I was just as bored as him.
I was his polly. I was his kin.
I think I'm dumb.
This one is for you. I'm so sorry it's not a good one either.
Rest in my peace.
flynt Feb 2013
I slap my skin to let the poison set in.
My hand is in yours as I drag you with me.
Tomorrow comes today.
I have never been so afraid.
I hear grim whistling up from the hill.
I feel as though it's too late.
killing myself to be with you on this plastic beach.
this is bad. from my mind to the computer. Gorillaz inspired, yo
Feb 2013 · 1.5k
Amethyst
flynt Feb 2013
How dare you enter without warning into my life.
Now I carry my feelings with a butcher knife.
I was innocent once, but you punctured holes into my soul
only to inject the poison.
You breaking open a rock to find amethyst, which was my heart.
And when they get what they want they will never want it again.
I dare you to take everything. Go on take everything from me.
My ribs are wire bending along with your breath.
I'm on the ground again, and I'm raged with hate.
How dare you enter without invitation into my mind.
Now I carry my goodbyes with a butcher knife.
Out of my head onto the computer.
walk over me, please.
Feb 2013 · 2.5k
My Heart Is A Graveyard
flynt Feb 2013
My heart is a graveyard.
Full of all my past imaginary lovers.
Full of memories, and scars.
Full with all the drugs, and dead fallen stars.
All of the dead kitties and birds lying on the streets.
They all rest inside of me.
This graveyard inside my heart is full of all the
sounds that made me feel my emotions burn.
Full of all the fools who have hurt me.
It's full of rage, chaos, and hate that I had boarded
under my skin since I was just a child.

Once you've entered my heart consider yourself dead.
"Sounds that made me feel my emotions burn." - Sounds meaning music that have inspired me, and that I hold so dearly to me.
Feb 2013 · 913
My Sorries For My Hate
flynt Feb 2013
I would like to say, I have let my hate control me.
No, I don't dislike it. Honestly if I may say, I enjoy it very much.
But I feel bad for being a complete and utter ***** to this girl.
It started with her dating my bestfriend, and then cheating on him.
Everyone thinks she is a poser, but at the same time they act like they are her friends so they can use her. There is no way around it. At all.
But maybe she isn't a poser. Maybe we think this because she is just now going through what we all (my friends and I) went through many years ago. But the way she did it makes her look like an utter poser. And two things I hate with a passion: posers and hicks.
But before all of this her dating my bestfriend, and being a poser thing happened,
I was almost starting to be friends with her. Had NOTHING in common with her, and I liked it.
The only time we actually hung out we went to some guys house, and there were a few people, and every one was talking and laughing, and being loud.
Her and I sat on the floor away from everyone. I liked that.

I think she is a pretty cool girl, and is fun, and pretty out of all of this.
So, in a way, but not entirely I'm saying *sorry
Adrienne Myers (aka Effy)
I'm sorry for being a ***** to you. I wasn't going out of my way to be mean to you that's just how it looked. I still strongly believe that you're a very big poser.
Feb 2013 · 683
When I Was Young
flynt Feb 2013
When I was young
I would close my eyes and hum.
Hum away the pain.
Where were you when it rained?
I lie coiled up on the ground
wishing to be a pretty leaf on a tree.
Only to grow old and fall down.
whatever, bad poem, always, ugh
Feb 2013 · 460
Druxy
flynt Feb 2013
I'm whole on the outside -  rotten from within.
All my dreams and thoughts are molding.
And the hole through my chest - lets the demons slumber in.
ugh, bad, whateva
Feb 2013 · 903
Ambivalence (n) :
flynt Feb 2013
The state of having simultaneous, sometimes
conflicting feelings towards something - like feeling
happy and sad at the same time.
exactly my case always.
flynt Jan 2013
I have these raw pink bruises all over my hands and knees.
"What the hell are you doing!?" He yells at me.
I look at the razor, then to my wrist, then back at him,
as I reply mindlessly "I like to see myself bleed."
Blood runs down my thigh.
All I ever want is to be high.
High above the barrier of my body.
He says I smell like strawberries.
He likes the way I taste.
And I'm just a soul in a shell of a body,
so I just close my eyes and wait to slip away.
Why do I always wright such a mess?
Oh, yeah feelings of mine, I guess.
bad
flynt Jan 2013
My feelings burn through my skin.
Darkness is my old friend, and he has come to visit me again.
We sit by the window and drink our tea.
I smoke a cigarette, which is not like me.
But that's what Darkness does.
Brings out all the ugly parts of me, and turns them into beauty
that only it can see.
idon'tknowanythingever
Jan 2013 · 458
Life?
flynt Jan 2013
As my tung became an ashtray,
we sat around and laughed about Heaven and Hell.
Nothing was ever easy to tell,
but if hate was Hell,
and love was Heaven;
we came to realize that we're stuck in a place
where none was forgiven.
old, freshman, bad poem, ohwell, heaven, hell
Jan 2013 · 380
Bad Poem - My World
flynt Jan 2013
Oh, I see you've been crying.
Is that why there is blood all over?
Oh, come on, honey.
This is my world.
Where have you been?
Coiled on the ground bruised and pained?
Wow, I'm so far ahead.
It will only get worst.
Stop living in my world.
I DON'T KNOW
Jan 2013 · 553
My Window View
flynt Jan 2013
I often think about that time in the morning at your house.
I was awake, because I always woke up early, and once
I sat up, and left your arms to sit by the cold window,
you reached your arms out grabbing for me saying in a
very sweet, hushed, slumbered tone:
"Come back to bed, Ashy."
Once you heard me start to cry, your eyes shot open, and
you have never said you were sorry so many times in your life.
bad memories.
Jan 2013 · 426
Here I Am
flynt Jan 2013
So here I am floating in the waters of oblivion.
I seem to have tangled myself into the waves.
The chaos and hatred has been engraved.
I am sheeply covered in your blood.
You are so far far away from me,
but I keep reaching.
bad poem
Jan 2013 · 397
Every Single Night
flynt Jan 2013
Soaking in the shower.
You can see my scars
through my pretty dress.
The thoughts in my head
have gotten sour.
Red swirling
down down down
as I sing
"come on, baby, bleed."
You should see my scars
Jan 2013 · 874
Gold Dust Shadow
flynt Jan 2013
I have dug my grave.
This silver spoon has gotten *****.
And his illusions were my lost challenge.
Pushed to my knees.
I don't pray.
Fleetwood Mac inspired, though I love Hole's cover.
This was a dumb poem.
Jan 2013 · 738
My Personas
flynt Jan 2013
Mexi: I'm the right kind of lover on Sunday morning.
Ramona: I will kick your ***.
Aurora: She's so sweet, and graceful, and cherry flavored.
Knives: *******


Many more to come probably because I hate myself.
Crazy
flynt Jan 2013
I feel this everyday, for it is not new.
I feel it when I eat, and I feel it while I sleep.
I feel it in the mornings, and I feel it wide-awake in the middle of the night as if it is a monster lurking in my closet.
I have never been in control.
In fact I can’t keep falling out.
I feel normal, for this has become me.
I will forever be trapped, and out of control, but in the dawn I sit at my window as my cat jumps up onto my lap with her sweet purrs.
Her purrs fill my empty shell of a body, and for that I am full, and start to make my way onto the day.
And I’m not being fair, because I am trapped, and I am trapping others who meet me, and or choose to keep me in their lives, or stay in mine.
I ruin everything.
And this I tell them, “You’ll be trapped like me. I’ll ruin you completely.”
They never seem to listen and soon enough they are just like me.
Trapped and utterly out of control with their lives, and feelings.
Welcome.
By: Jordyn ******* Ganes
feels, friends, life, oh well
Jan 2013 · 382
"Once Upon A Time."
flynt Jan 2013
I was a girl, now I'm a monster.
I'm here, but not seen.
I keep living, because I want to.
Because I have to.
Because there is no more heaven,
nor hell.
Those were just stories
in which was freedom to tell.
by: jordyn ganes
Jan 2013 · 621
Come On.
flynt Jan 2013
Oh, man how I enjoy the pain.
I'm craving the burn.
I want my turn.
Come on, put your body into it.
I want to bruise.
If not you, I'll do it myself.
These scares are so pretty.
And I am burning.
It stands for knife.
Cut deep into me.
Thank you, mind.
Thank you, life.
By: Aurora (Jordyn K Ganes)
stupid, depressed, pain, life, neat, K, Courtney Love
Jan 2013 · 781
Ghost
flynt Jan 2013
These lines that trace from me to you.
Oh, how they tug and they pull.
They're almost like webs.
They almost feel dull.
And I will travel just like a ghost.
Where ever you may go.
May that be here to there,
or even cost to cost.
And these lines that trace from me to you
are the traces I love most.
By: Aurora (Jordyn K Ganes)
Bestfriend/long distance
Dec 2012 · 1.4k
My Aurora
flynt Dec 2012
Oh, my Aurora.
Oh, I'll keep you in me.
Are you drowning?
Can you breathe?
Oh, my Aurora.
You've burned through everything.
Stay perfect under my skin.
Following my Aurora.
She's taking me to a place inside.
Without her it's so hard to reach.
My Aurora lead me.
Oh, my Aurora.
The glow that stays under me.
You are so much higher than me.
And you have burnt through all of me.
I am drowning.
I can barely see.
Following my Aurora.
Oh, my Aurora.
Rest in my peace.
Spirit/my world/demon mermaid
Dec 2012 · 1.4k
Ava Adore
flynt Dec 2012
I knew a boy who came from the sea.
He traced my scares and kissed them.
He couldn't understand the pain that I had conquered up in my head.
He was the only one who had ever known the truth about me.
My therapist though I had made him up.
She couldn't grasp someone so graceful, and so magical could ever exist.
He did exist.
He existed more than I ever could.
I would let him read through my journals full of poems, and self harm.
And he would touch my arm, and leave burn marks.
I had four so far going up my wrist.
At night lying in the dark, the round burns on my wrist faintly glowed.
And when I traced over them his face flashed through my mind.
I would spend each day with him, but the moments we had to divid I will never forget.
I stand facing him, as he lifts his hand in front of my chest.
He smiles.
I start to smile back until a sharp pain rushes up my spine, and out my chest.
Everything gets bright, and my head goes dizzy.
It almost feels as if something is being pulled out from my chest.
Everything goes dark, and numb.
And after awhile I gasp for air, and open my eyes.
I'm alone again, as if it never happened.
As if I never was with him.
This is not new.
By: Aurora (Jordyn K Ganes)
This is bad. Short version of one of my stories.
The actual version is better... I think..
flynt Dec 2012
No, I could never show it.
Show it to the world.
How I really feel is ugly to most.
Sinking inside myself.
Becoming a slumbered ghost.
I'm in the comfort of sadness.
And it's getting bad again.
My own feelings turning against me.
He sang the words as a joke.
Later to realize it wasn't a hoax.
And now he's gone.
I'm gone.
By: Aurora (Jordyn K Ganes)
My feelings, Sadness, Kurdt
Dec 2012 · 443
Your Soul.
flynt Dec 2012
I am a soul.
I'm searching for a body.
I am a soul.
And I'm searching for a home.
I am a soul.
And you have found me.
You found me.
I am a soul.
And I am deep in your body.
I am a soul.
And you are my home.
By: Aurora ( Jordyn K Ganes )
flynt Dec 2012
What if I live off of hate?
I love the feeling gravitating under my skin.
No, *******, I will never let you in.
But you want to be inside.
You want to be my friend.
If you only knew the things that I hold deep within me.
Things that prove of your living beneath me.
I've been crowned as the evil and weird.
And you will never be worthy, my dear.
By: Aurora ( Jordyn K Ganes )
You don't want to **** with someone like me.
Dec 2012 · 514
Religion
flynt Dec 2012
He orders me to sit down.
I'm blind, I feel around.
He watches over me,
but never makes a sound.
He sits while I dance,
he likes it when I fall.
Rope ties my body.
I never feel ready,
but I know he is.
And I can't flinch.
And I can't cry.
But he likes it whenever I scream,
"Daddy, please!"
By Aurora ( Jordyn K Ganes )
Dec 2012 · 382
Higher Than Me
flynt Dec 2012
Oh, I have done it again.
burned up, and then faded in.
It's better that way so he had said.
But I feel so brand new whenever I take their hits.
The pain is still there.
It is my friend.
I know this will never end.
Let me take your hits.
Oh, I have done it again.
By Aurora ( Jordyn K Ganes )
Is this about drugs? Bad
Dec 2012 · 455
What's Left Of Me
flynt Dec 2012
In his face I still feel him.
In his grace I still breathe him.
Emptier than god
I always need him.
And in all my ugly,
Take what's left of me,
And feed him.
By Aurora ( Jordyn K Ganes )
Should you capitalize "god" if you don't believe in such a person?
Or is that disrespectful that it's not? I don't hate god. I just simply do not care for any religion.
If anything I am my own "god", but just to let you know I don't mind who you believe in.
I hate everyone no matter what.
Dec 2012 · 368
Never, I won't.
flynt Dec 2012
I'm bruised up again.
Falling in and out of it.
And you swore you'd be here soon.
I'm never going to be worth you.
Alone, I will cherish all my misery.
I will follow you.
Oh, just say you don't care.
Never, I won't!
Take me far away.
Come on, baby just stay.
Never, I won't.
By Aurora ( Jordyn K Ganes )
old
Dec 2012 · 448
To Love Someone Like Me
flynt Dec 2012
Open up and bleed.
Your secret is locked
in me.
Shut down and drown.
I can hear you from
miles away.
Oh, honey
Don't blush while I
rip you open.
You think love will
save you.
Baby, tell me why
you're still dying.
By Aurora (Jordyn K Ganes )
old, kind of, don't love me, haha
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