Your faults speckle
Across the sky
Illuminating your strengths

Constellations
Exposing
Your soul

I don’t need
Perfection

I need you

The idea of you
Is terrifying and beautiful
All rolled into one
But I believe you will stay
A dream, a vision
Of a possibility
I never really wanted.

You'll be a blue eyed beauty
With pale skin
And your father's sense of humor;
Maybe you'll have my smile
Or my intellect,
But you'll have us
On either side of you,
Showing you the world.

I trust you
More than I could ever
Trust myself
And I know
You have my back
In a way I couldn't expect
From anyone else.

I know you
Would catch me
If I fell, or tripped,
Or jumped,
Because you believe
In me
Like no one else
Ever has.

This love
Is more real
Than anything
I have experienced
And it makes me believe
In fairy tales, in love songs.

It makes me believe
In us.

I know I said
I didn't want to promise forever
But somewhere
In the past year
I fell so hard
That forever is all
I want.

I want to balance
Forgiveness with boundaries
But I feel so hurt,
So heartbroken, betrayed
And I don't know what to say
So you will understand my tone
Without chasing you away.

Believe me when I say
I want to try again
But there will not be
Another second chance.

I am stumbling now
Over sadness, tears,
But I want to move towards the other side,
Towards you.

I think I'll get there.
Can you just wait
For me?

I try to tell myself
That sometimes good people
Do bad things
But the black and white dictates
That I am a bad person
Trying to escape
Justice.

I want to believe
That we are more nuanced
And more sophisticated
Than binary decisions
But maybe I deserve
To suffer for my actions,
For hurting you.

I want to reach out
And do everything in my power
To right this wrong
And set this straight
But can I be redeemed
After all this?

We must be more
Than the sum of our mistakes,
Or at least I tell that to myself
While I stop the world
And change.