Sitting alone on the park bench

watching the sun set,

While feeling all alone

a beautiful stranger i met.



He said his name was Johnny

he already knew my name

Johnny was so perfect

with him, it just wasnt the same.



Johnny’s eyes were lovely

a darkened shade of brown

Johnny was there for me

with him i never wore a frown



Johnny drowned my sorrows

and johnny loved me so

johnny was so perfect

he promised he’d never let me go



whenever i felt alone

and so out of place

johnny was beside me

told me “dont give up this race”



Im so much happier now

i have somewhere i belong

Johnny is my voice

my strength to keep me strong



Johnny would hold me

when i’d start to cry,

when darkness had me surrounded

Johnny was my sky



sitting on the park bench

Im feeling all alone

I cannot find my johnny

he isnt there at home.



I called out to johnny

but the park was very quiet

I was crying now

and johnny didnt hear my plight



Johnny where are you?

Where did you disappear?

Johnny i cant find my way,

why did you leave me here?



People passed me by

staring at my face

No sign of my johnny

Not a single trace.



The dawn of truth struck me

shattering me like glass

i entered into the real world

dreamworld wouldnt last



Johnny was my imagination

johnny was from my mind

and while i was lost in dreamworld

to reality i was blind.



There never was a stranger

I was all alone,

still sitting on the park bench

far away from home.



see johnny didnt leave me

nor did he stop to care

while i was sitting on that park bench

a “johnny” was never there…

They asked me why I did it

For I am the one to blame

When the gunshot triggered

He was screaming out my name



I wish I could directly fold

This hand that I’ve been dealt

I wish that I could hold

and feel what I once felt



This round is not over

I won’t last till it’s done

I need me a four leaf clover

To win back what I once won



Is this punishment for disobedience

chastised for things gone wrong?

Save me from my personal Hades

For I’ve forgotten about being strong



I can’t resolves these issues

revolving in my head

don’t know what I’ll tell his missus

Her husband now is dead



“Why do such a horrible thing

You vile and heartless beast!

He was everything that I ever loved

How am I to live with him deceased?”



Blame it on the liquor

or on the vile medicine

What once held fervent favour

Is now wearing my soul thin



How am I to show her

the things he did to me

Should I let her know

his hidden hypocrisy?



Give me hope and reason

to keep on going forth

Don’t bar me with my treason

and expose me in my court





I know I must protect her

This weak woman in her youth

Her husband would have finished her

left her mad and mute





A twin soul we share

but this dark twisted side is mine

I know I love her dearly

but I saved her just in time



My mind is speaking a dead language

The dialect now unknown

My voice just echoes back

I am speaking it alone



I will not seek her forgiveness

nor will she spare me from eternal hate

It doesn’t matter to me

As long as it wasn’t too late



Guilt I know is mine

And verdict shall soon be passed

My last words on death row be

Take me home atlast



I glance into the eyes of his missus

and just in a flash, my twin soul I see

the woman staring back, horror struck,

that woman, his missus, is me.