I want to understand
An explanation exists
But you're the only one who has it
And it's gripped firmly by your fists

We talk and we talk
Now and then I get a peek
Of your piece of paper
With the answers that I seek

Though now I've grown tired
So I asked if I could see
But the ink spells terrible things clearly
Because you've put it in a safe, and thrown away the key
I tried for as long as I could
Told myself 'Fin, just leave it be'
But no, I need to understand you
And why you're doing this to me.

These liars
They never hear my soul scream the words
Please don't keep me in the dark
If there's something I should know
I want to know it
But they always want to keep me there
Or maybe they don't
Maybe I'm not right
Maybe I keep myself in the dark
Because I don't want to see the light.

Can't pick up a crown when you're holding what's holding you down.

I used to love that phrase
It helped me through my darkest days
I try so hard not to remember
that positivity is only ever a phase.

By now you're starting to get the gist
I can never escape that dark mist
Because what's holding me down, well I'm not holding it
What's holding me down is chained to my wrists.