Incompetent, that's all I am
Irrelevant, that's what I've become
Pain, the feeling that consumes me
Depression, it drags me deeper
Suicide, what I long for
Death, it seems like bliss

I slowly feel his presence fade away, like the darkness when the sun begins to rise. Hope begins to fill my body, I no longer am overwhelmed by the thought of his laugh or the way his body fit mine perfectly. Our bodies like jigsaw puzzle pieces made for each other. I no longer dwell on the fact that he is gone now. My body ached for one little ounce of joy. I needed it. I was submerged in my sadness. If my tears could build up I would be drowning in oceans filled to the brim with tiny droplets of pain that has escaped from my eyed and rolled down my cheeks. I would lie in my bed, wondering what I ever did to make him decide that I was too much. The constant feeling of irrelevance choking me. I needed relief so I let go. I let go, and I moved on like he did. His touch was instantly erased from my body and memory. His entire existence is fading from my mind.

Depression. The feeling of drowning while everyone around you can breathe. Struggling for air, knowing that you won't get it. Oceans of pain that you cant seem to escape. Depression is a war. You either win, or die trying. People tell you to just 'be happy' like that's even possible. They don't understand that you don't even know what happiness is anymore. You doubt that you'll ever feel it again.