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Ffinian Jan 2019
Just as I had settled down,
And all was back on track,
The knot of dark and past regrets,
Came crawling up my back,

Its claws sharp, tearing up my spine,
Pierced and scratched my skin,
It crept on up to the back of my skull,
It paused, then burrowed in,

The air went black and the sky and the sun,
The floor and the people too,
I looked out through new sunken dark eyes,
And I knew what I saw was the truth.
Ffinian Oct 2018
I wake up suddenly,
Eyes watering, repeated tears,
Not yet properly awake,
Haven't felt that way in years.

There's sleep in my eye,
It won't go away,
And blinds me from myself,
Please, just one happy day.

But happy will not do,
It teases with illusion,
My ******* God, what I wouldn't give,
For sorrow without confusion.
Ffinian Oct 2018
My mind raced with thought and possibilities and methods and problems and in the midst of all the voices and questions, I suddenly found myself answering back:

'My mind, your soul,
Thoughts are spilling down my spine,
Give time, give patience,
These ideas, they aren't mine,

Please go to bed,
My engine, core existence,
Before I leave my head,
It rattles with insistence,

The whirlpool of connections,
Conscience sinking in its wake,
I've half a mind to drown you,
You won't give, you only take.'
Ffinian Oct 2018
My chest expands,
Its words coming through seams,
Forcing through, breaking
Holes of an inflated head.

Each page of my consciousness is
Filled with unending sentences,
Hurrying through the paper and
Scrawling over the sides.
A book of emotion, devoid of expression.

The spine of my mind is dying,
Too long has it supported such pain,
Chaos has withered its soul and
Mine follows it closely.

The thick, heavy novel cannot
Handle more chapters, and
Cracks at the next turn.
Words spill out,
Like blood,
Wet and
Cold.
Ffinian Sep 2018
The tonne-heavy door,
Swings open with malice,
My house of his past,
Which I cannot recall.

The creeping stairs,
Some indecisive doors,
I know them
Not, and they recognise me.

Winding walls **** me
Into his room, of
Imitations and antiques,
The centrepiece lost.

I cry for his return,
For his wisdom, his naivety,
But I cannot hear him,
Inside my empty bedroom.
Ffinian Sep 2018
The facts upon my back,
The weight of the Universe,
Give me it all:
I am not strong enough.
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