Here I am sitting in front of the screen
Thinking what may come at the end of WAITING.
Waiting for someone’s arrival at my doorstep
Kneel and say “will you be my forever?”

Does my waiting is rightful,
Or I’m on my way through heartaches?
Am I doing the right thing while I wait?
Or just my time is wasted? And what will I do then?

The second me saying, “You’re a fool to hope for his love,
How can you haul in a strainer-like bucket?”
Though I know, this is a vague hope!
There’s still the first me saying,”He will love you as the way you are”

When will the time come?
The time where I’ll be with someone,
Someone whom I love, and whom the Lord’s wants
Oh, love why you’re so hard?

Why aren’t you just granted my wish?
Couldn’t you be my fairy gad mother, for just a moment?
Because he’s just the one I love.
He’s just the he I dreamed of, where I could sit next with.

What on earth! That scourges the heart?
What’s in you to make me lame completely?
This you’ve bring slices me fully!
Which I’ve got that swollen my eyes ‘till ******!

My eyes can’t see the beauty of this world
Though heart can’t feel the happiness!
Ears are deaf to hear the laughter
Even my nose can’t smell any sweetness.

Here I am, hoping to scratch out the pain from last night’s tears!
Tears, where I hope cleansed the mess,
Where I wish could leached out my regrets
But I’m no right! The pain still grows.

I never have an ordinary day since ever which I know not.
The days I have are folly and pale.
“For everything you love, you have to pay the price”
But you can’t let the world to see you cry(

I never have a moment of peace
Never felt the sunlight when I had to set you free
Every time my life turned a page hoping to left this pain from the latter
But still the mark of my pen reaches the bottom
So every day is painful.

Take care my love wherever you go
May a couple of year of your absence makes me fine
Today you’re goin’ far
And I have nothing to hold with
You may come back but not fully
You may love again but not with me(

I miss you so much!

They say, to wait for him is the rightful idea to do
So, I wouldn’t think of that since we broke up, because I had
Put an end the thing that we had had by me. I said, that end
Is the closing and I will stand for it no matter what may.

He persist himself stupidly to me but I said no. “Do
You not find it clear that I like you no more? All things we had
I did not put asunder, I will cherished them ‘til the end”
The thing you did not understand, I did, no matter you’d say.

I hurled you devastatingly! Hated all the way you do,
Blamed you alone for the sin we’d shared. That mistake we have had
Was the reason that makes us apart. I tore, left you unmend,
Now tell me, is it rightful to expect you come back one day?

From that time I’ve threw you, all I’ve had was relations that boo,
That made me thinks of consequence. Is this the thing I have had?
Is this the way I’ll suffer from that choice when I made an end?
Or maybe they’re right, wait for you. But I’ll have the final say.

The love that lies down to dust is no stronger against the waves.
The love that lies onto a rock will find its fate and never falters.
Just like the sun that burns a farmer’s drying skin
A man may feel the scourging heat of a heart in pain.

When a heart so heavy in pain is like the heavy clouds in the sky,
You can’t hold the water but you’ll rather choose to let it fell from the eyes.
Let every drop of tear fall, so that it’ll water your soul.
Tears! So tears to ease a throbbing temple.

How can we fix what’s broken to bring it back together?
Healing is not as easy as that, you’ll say move on! That’s the fact!
Does that really mend the broken parts?
The truth is, it does heal. Indeed! It has.

But the wound will leave a scar
Wherein some parts are nowhere to be found,
That part, so small is a bunch of pain when recalled.
But it finds a way through, to love the sorrow.