Maybe I just missed you too much today.
That I crave for your long.
That I wanted you to stay, always.

Im sorry that Im feeling this way.

At this point everything, everything, everything, seems to be hurt.
Everything gave such a strong feelings that you cant even explain.
You're unsure and all.

You're happy and sad at the same time.

But I,
Im just done at this moment.

(thursday march 3rd 834pm)

The thing is i dont understand why you meant so much to me.
Why you left such a beautiful scar on me yet so painful.

If pain demand to be felt,
Then i agree.

But i also always wondered
Why cant we be together
Again.

At this point im tired hopeless and i cant see us no more.
Im hurt.
Im done. So done.

But at the end of the night,
Why did you seems like trapped in my mind.

Dude, explain me why.

1259am.

life is always a hunger games.
how to survive.
to **** or not.
but u have to survive.
or else, you'll die. or get killed.

get it? no?
goodluck.

andai, dan kalau
orang boleh jenguk hati orang lain seorang seorang,
naluri nya
atau mungkin periksa tahap remuk jantung nya.

aku rasa,
itu sudah cukup buat mereka untuk diam
mungkin sentap seketika

sebab,
sebalik setiap insan,
remuk hati, mati jiwa,
setiap perasaan yg berkecai,
tidak akan mampu didefinisikan dgn sebuah 'insan'
di luar roh dan nalurinya.

ada yg gigih sembunyi.
ada yg kecundang.
lalu mati bersama jiwa.

i miss the way how things used to work.
i miss it the most where you'd fight for me.
i miss it, when both of us actually in a relationship

not anymore.
we fail to define love.
i dont feel any
i cant feel any

promises,
are now, only meant to be broke.