my mouth has been shut
words keep lingering in my head
nothing comes out
it’s so loud and clear.
every single day
every second
feels like i’ve been trapped inside
it’s so unsettling and unserious
my body is even projecting
on its own.
nothing could ever be more or less better
than this horrible
feelings that i fear,
if only
i could do something
but nothing
could ever express
the words that i have
in my mind.
I wrote this during one of my darkest moments, when I was still deep in grief, haunted by the past. My thoughts were consumed by the weight of the darkness inside me, and it felt like there was no escaping it.