the evenings are getting darker sooner
normally I would be excited
excited to lay down and snuggle near the fire
excited to watch as many movies as we could
excited to spend time and be warm together

instead all I am is cold
longing for the warmth of the sun to creep back
longing for those feelings that we once had
longing for you to come back to me

no matter what I do or how much I beg
the leaves will keep falling
and the sun will creep farther away
until I can’t touch the warmth and instead
creep down into coldness along my lonely bed

everything reminds me of you.

the waves crash over the shore
and all I can think is I want you more.
do you even miss me?
do you even care?

when you see me online, do you stop and stare?

I know I shouldn't think
about all of what we had
but it meant a lot to me
so why isn't it making you sad?