So when we leave it'll be a quick midnight escape.
We'll disconnect ourselves from all of yesterday.
I'll dig for water and fashion our very own wishing well.
Then, we'll throw our coins down hoping to rid us of this little hell.

I've decided I'm worth nothing.
That all my cries have only caused others pain.
I've decided... that instead of holding my head so high that it makes my back ache
I'll do everything for others
and swallow all this pain.
Stop crying.
You don't deserve self pity.

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I'm quiet inside
no thoughts
no words
to say.

I suffocate myself
with nothing.
There was never anything.
or was there?

Did I once feel something
even pain
or hurt.

Clawing
scratching
breath comes too fast.
Masks.

A pretty face.
Pretty smiles.
Happy words.
Nothing is real,
anymore.

Dear dark space,
will you let me feel?

hahahahaha
hahahahahahaha
hahahahaha

He wanted her.
He wanted to reach out and hold her.
He wanted to stare deep into her eyes.
He wanted to make her his own.
He wanted her.
He wanted to watch her sleep.
He wanted to know her.
He wanted to be the one she loved.
He wanted her.
I think he forgot he was here...
..lying next to me.

I want to cry, but the tears won't come
I choke and repulse out feeble breaths
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, so....so sorry." They scream
There's nothing left for me, somehow I've managed to devour myself.
Chew my body whole starting with my heart.
Though my words may make no sense,
It is the grief I cannot fit into words.
To feel this way..
my empty heart..
I have no soul.
I wan't to cry, the last comfort of tears I have left.
But nothing falls, only silent cries.
Words that make me wish I were dead.
What if I just hit another joint or let myself fade..
It won't ever be enough to cover what these words say is pain.
Because then when my mind floats back down to earth..
Whats left?
Nothing...
Nothing at all.
Just a bunch of words on a page...
No one cares at all.

There are songs ill never write
because of you
walking out of my life.
There are words that don't belong.
Because of you,
I'll never write another love song.


*Anberlin

Sometimes the moon might waver
or change
but always remember
its shape stays the same.

I don't know what it is about me...
maybe I'm just farsighted.
The further away things get,
the better I see them.
But then,
they're gone.

Could you
strum me a tune
loud,
surround.
take me away.

i don't want to feel

Can your words
cut my skin
and bury in my soul.
Scream a whisper
closing my eyes.

Cure me from life
When things start to get too real.
Too many noises
all I want is sound.

Just take me away
I've been here too long.
Drowning,
falling,
slipping,
letting go,
drown.