I missed your call
I hate to fall
Yet it is much to late
We shan't debate

I want your for my own
Not just on loan
Yet to them you run
Night after night with the setting sun

I never realized,
I never knew,
I never recognized
The pain I heard
In a voice,
The hurt I saw
In their eyes.

Today I realize
Today I know
Today I recognize
How deep that pain runs
How much that hurt kills
How difficult it is to survive

One may wonder
What triggers this
What leads to such demise
Yet now I know
There's no one thing
Unless it's name is life

So many factors
So many events
So many choices
So many thoughts
Running through my head
With no escape

All it takes
Is one more thing
And SNAP goes my sanity

I lay here thinking
Wondering
Contemplating
Could I have done something different?

One factor,
One change,
One choice
Would it make me happier?

I shall never know
If I had chosen
Other paths along the way
Whether they would lead to this
Or help me in other ways

I do believe,
Despite my pain
That this is where I should be
That one day,
Looking back,
I will see what I am meant to see

Yet for now,
I lie so fragile
Broken some may say
And think my thoughts
That hurt so much
And don't know what to say

Long have I waited
Long have I looked
Sometimes even baited
Yet have never hooked
My knight on a white horse
My perfect man, matching soul
I though perhaps I was on course
Yet all I've found is a hole

Though I have not found you
I do have some hope in sight
Even though I am feeling blue
Believe you exist, I just might

I have found one so close
One with every perfect trait
No quite perfect, but very close
Too bad I found him too late

I hate to see you stuck
I hate to see you cry
It would be just my luck
To lead you to this lie

I can't believe I told you
I can't believe I said yes
I know its now true
Yet how could I guess

Never meant to hurt you
Never meant to harm those six
Now you are all so blue
You and your precious six

I hate to see you stuck
I hate to see you cry
It would be just my luck
To lead you to this lie

I can't believe I told you
I can't believe I said yes
I know its now true
Yet how could I guess

Never meant to hurt you
Never meant to harm those six
Now you are all so blue
You and your precious six

I worked so hard
Behind her back
To help your heart
From out of wack

She made assumptions
Oh so wrong
Of my intentions
Oh so strong

You tried to come out
Tried so hard not to hide
Yet, with a shout
She declared you lied

I struggle so hard
To try to reach
This broken heart
I may never meet

She made up her mind
Though change it I try
I am not the kind
To come back from a lie

If only it had been
True from the start
Perhaps we could then
Avoid each broken heart

I write for you
I found your note
I was so blue
But then your wrote
A few words so new

I hope all is well
I take back the pain
For when I tell
I have nothing to gain

Still in agony I lay
Craving things I can't
And then I pray
As I know I shan't
Drink on such a day
Feeling tiny as an ant

Broken, I do lie awake
Painful is my heart
My thoughts linger at a lake
Where I gave said heart

Sleep will not come
The pain does not ease

Please call me, my dear friend

Here I lay.
Broken you say.
Yet you left me
Lonely, you call it free.
What you don't see
As you ignore me
It's all for naught.
I thought you had been caught.

Broken and pained,
What have you gained
By leaving me like this?
I hope you got your wish.

You said you were the villain.
You said it time and again.
Yet I didn't listen,
And now, my tears, they glisten.

These long days I have been crying,
While you spent them lying.
"I will always be there for you"
You say, but I had not a clue.
You are just like the rest,
Even if I thought you were the best.