often
i like to imagine sitting in a medow of flowers
of all sorts of kinds
and colors
and being happy
with you
just like
how a flower isnt happy without sunlight
i am the flower
you are the sunlight

a lot of times,
i remember moments of once being happy
and it makes me even sadder,
to realize that i forgot how that feels
all i have left of the common feeling
are the memories relating to it
and i will hold them forever
until i can eventually feel it again

its 2:00
and i miss you
even more
than i did
at 1:59

although
this is pointless
because i have nothing
to say
other than
i miss you

especially now
that its 2:01

dont ask why i did it
because i will not be able
to give you an honest answer
                maybe it was depression
                            maybe i was confused
                                       maybe i was just pressured
                                                    
                                                     or maybe i just needed to feel emotion