I'm working hard
Almost everyday,
I do two jobs
But it's still not good enough
I wonder, if they want me
To **** myself?
Or maybe run off
Cause in their eyes
All I see is bitterness
My heart is dying inside
I really love them so much
I really want them in my life
But they keep pushing me
This is my sad story
My life has been
Black and white all the time
They called me stupid
It feels like I never asked
To learn something new
I've been wondering
What they would say
When I'm gone someday
Would they say
We're glad she is gone?
I got a question
To you all who reads me
Have you felt this way?
If you have then you know
What I'm talking about then
Thanks for your time
Pray for me to get better

I know you're
Suffering
I'm sorry for
Everything
I've been praying
Darling
For God to give
You healing
Is there anything
That I can do
To get you back
The strong you
I want your pain
To be gone
I want to see you
Walking normal again
I've been praying
for you my darling
I want your illness
To go away very soon
I want you to know
I don't want you
To go, I miss you

His love is  moving me tonight
From His unending great love
No one is going to depart me
His love and grace is my key
God knows every part of me
For my own sin and for this world,
Jesus, God’s son gave up His own life
Oh what amazing Love
He died in that wooden tree
On third day, He defeated death
Because of Jesus, God’s son lived
I’m completely set free
What a love can this be?
From my Big Father’s Love
No one is going to depart me

That painful day,
She remember it well,
That dreadful day,
She couldn’t forget

They all left her away
Never had a chance,
To tell them goodbye,

God could hear her cry,
He could hear her plea
After all she Couldn’t fake
The pain was making her weak

Life to her becomes an awful
She lost them one by one
So on everything
She blamed on God

Lord, Lord,  Oh dear Lord
She said, this is not love
No one is there to hold

To above the sky
She believed, she could fly
Only because to say hi
To her loved ones
And come back to earth
Till God calls her name

Still it was not the answer
She knew they look down on her
It just the matter of loneliness here

Why your eyes,
Still are not fixed,
For so long, for so many years
We’ve been living together,
But we look like stranger,
I can’t look at your eyes,
They are intense and uptight
Evil, and so it seems,
Every time I try to look your eyes
I get so much headaches
I hear a voice telling me to run off
It just never told me to where
Some think, it’s scary
And Some think,
Something is wrong with me
But I’m not crazy
I wish they could see what I see
Your eyes still scares me

The kids I loved the most
Had become an  evil
Oh life what did I do?
There is no a place to go
My soul cried so hard
My Blister heart
Have no rest
I’m weak and powerless
This place makes me sick
I’ve no a power to speak
Every day, I’m frighten
I’m left by myself alone
I’m scared of them
Their action tortures me
From inside and out
While I was crying,
I Prayed to God
I told Him everything was alright
I just feel unwanted and unloved
So take me away If I don’t belong in this world
If I die and leave from their sight,
The kids I loved the most,
Wouldn’t they be happy at last?

You have to let me go
Don’t you know
I don’t belong with you
Even if you don’t want to
You have to let me go
I know boo you’ve said
“You’ve tried your best”
Every time you say,
You will change for us
But, I’m sorry It was a mess
I had gave you so many chances
Our days were full of cries
You have to see,
You have to accept the reality
After all of this, No matter what you say
I can’t take anymore chances
I’m so Sorry can’t go on
I’m sorry I couldn’t be
Your number one
You have to let me go
Now we have to say
Our goodbye

He is an older man.
Taking care of his own  mom.
He has been so strong.
His mom matters to him.
Though he has been crying.
His soul has been bleeding.
No one could ever see.
Sometimes it’s hard for him.
To handle the situation.
Cause he himself, is an older man.
Taking care of an older woman.
I told him to take her to nursing home.
No matter how much it’s out of control.
But he said, “I don’t want her to go.”

I dont know where to start
But I want you to know  that
Don’t you ever doubt
One hundred percent
You’ll always have a place in my heart
Anywhere I go you’ll be there too
I‘ll never give up on you
When you feel all alone,
when you feel the world is
Coming to an end,
Just remember that,
You’ll always have,
A place in my heart

Today I realized you have no a heart
It was not real from the start
Today I realized you have no a heart
I dont know why I let you hurt me
I said sorry for loving you
I said sorry for the things I didn’t do
You have no Idea how many times I’ve cried
You have no Idea how many times
I’ve broken deep down inside
But today I realized you have no a heart
It was my fault to give my pure heart
I did not listen to my dear friends
So there, that made me real unhappy
Today I realized you have no a heart
May the Lord forgive thee
For the pain you had caused deep down in me
Today I realized you have no a heart
It was not real from the start

Why do you have to pretend
Why do you have to be secretive
To me so many times
Why do you have to lie
Why do you say lies about me
Why do you say cruel things
That does not even exist
What do you gain from it
Don’t you know it, your lies
Cuts  me deep down in my heart
You have no idea how much it hurt
Oh why do you have to lie
Especially at this time
Why do you have to lie
I don’t get it, your lies
Your secret and voice
Gives me sleepless nights
It does not make any sense
They all together spin in my head
Oh why do you have to lie
I know you won’t stop till I die

When I ran away from you
It was not because I wanted to
It was not because I hated you
It was simply, it was these
The look in your eyes
I could not take it any more
So I ran away not knowing to where
Imagine that, only your eyes
Made me to run away
These is your story and I
If you could stop the eyes
I could stop running away
I don’t want to be tortured by this
So listen to me closely please
All I want is you  to stop the eyes
And I want your love and peace

I believed in my dream
I believed tomorrow
My dream would come true
And I believed I would never
Face any trouble
I believed in this world
I believed deeply within my heart
I truly did believed
I would make a difference
Though suddenly I noticed
Deep down, I was falling asleep
Till my birthday, came around
I finally opened my eyes
I wasn’t following my own dream
Someone was leading me
The voice said, day by day
Before you die, enjoy all you can
I could not enjoy my life
All I desired was,
My dream to come alive
I was super trusty
So I listened the dream
The voice had for me
Tomorrow was today  here I am
still dreaming to help somebody

When I’m gone tomorrow,
What are you going to do
Are you going to run after me?
Are you going to sit there happily?

When I’m gone tomorrow,
Between the clouds
The air, the birds and the winds
What are you going to do,
If you don’t find me there next to you

When I’m gone tomorrow
Miles, miles away from you
When I’m no where to be
Tell me what you’re going to do
When you don’t find me beside you

When I’m gone tomorrow
I just want you to know,
I don’t need any sorrow

When I’m gone tomorrow,
When your time becomes too slow
Remember me by our good memory

At the end the time,
If you’re going to hurt me
Why did you come around
And say you care?

Love is not a game
Love is not a joke

Why did you want to see
When my eyes are crying
Why did you do want to see
when my heart is bleeding

Oh I loved you so dear
I didn’t  want to be apart from thee

Indeed life is miserable
Especially for me
Cause you’re the “one”
Who I loved rejected me

Have fun tomorrow,
With your movie friends
Have fun tomorrow
With your college experience
+Faith L

I have lost everything I needed
I don’t know why you can’t be satisfied

You can call me anything you want
It doesn’t matter anymore does it?
You see I’m getting used to it

The more you hurt me
The more I realized
That you never loved me

But you know what
Even though it’s your plan
I can’t let you bring me down

Every day I will  try
To hold myself up high

If you keep doing this to me though,
I know depression will **** me some how

Look at you, how you came along
Look at you, those smiles are so bright

You’re giving me a stomach ache
You’re giving me a headache

I’m burning and bleeding inside
I swallowed my tears so hard

I smiled through that every day
And so here you see the happy me

Be thankful that I am brave enough
To show that my life is perfect

Remember,
Someday the truth will explode

Your words do hurt a lot
Emotionally
But not physically

Before I die
And say goodbye
I wish we could have a happy day