this is not a poem but all I to say was God Bless You!
Let us take the moment to thank God all that he has provided us. God is unbelievably GREAT to us and no matter how you feel towards him, just understand he love you. The Lord has a plan for you and me. I might be like you and always ask him " Well God i praise you, I love you, but when is my day going to come. The day when I truly know and understand myself. I pray and read your word but why can I not feel it in my soul"
As you read, READ. God is telling you something and He is listening to you! That is just the way He works and He is wondering how willing you are to wait for His great day for you.
What ever you do DONT EVER LOSE FAITH IN GOD! There is also no reason to be afraid of what tomorrow will bring! PUT ALL YOUR BURDENS, PAIN, AND SUFFERING TO GOD!
God is real and He love you. There should be no fear in your soul if God is with you always. He created it so you can overcome your challenges.
When you feel you lost your spiritual identity then just look to the Sky and Smile at God and say, " Lord what you have planed for me is big but right now I feel small. If you have the power to create all the things in this world, then I KNOW you planing the journey in my life will be a success"