Moments too dark to see.
Moments to hard to breathe.
Forced to make a decision.
For an answer you are wishing.
Take this agony,
Set me free.
Need a moment to cry,
Can't watch him die.
No longer can I be so strong.
Please God, don't let me be wrong.
If I could, I'd take his pain.
His tears like rain.
Show me the way,
Show me he'll be okay.
Lost so much, so many.
My own tears, aplenty.
Images in my head, echoing.
But my tragedy is legend.
Birth to present,
Its never been pleasant.
I need to find the answers.
To show him his life matters.
Moments I am blind,
Answers I can't find.
Moments too hard to breathe,
Moments I wish his pain would leave.

Savor those moments too, they are so few.
Love a little more, unlock and open those doors.
Free yourself from the grim reality all around you.
Let those wings reach for the heavens above.
Untie those self imposing bonds you long ago wove.
Breathe in the serenity that you've called upon.
Shake free of the pain and just move on.
Give this moment it's glory.
Each one it's own memorable story.
Soul deep, you shall wish to stay, within its bliss.
Sweet, silent as the rain droplet bestows a rose a kiss.
Rainbow colored images flashing behind closed eyes.
Your perfect dream, wished upon stars, slowly dies.
Giving way to half formed, tempting new desires.
Peel away the long dead layers.
Emerge from your dark past.
Escape the curse, now broken, ages ago cast.
Choose to live in this moment.
Making this your fondest memory yet.

Stepping in, stepping back.
You play the fool.
Always you fall, you crack.
Dance the dance, you're just a tool.
Back and forth, same tune.
Never ending revolution.
To the pain we are not immune.
Never a solution.
Close your eyes, fake it.
Smile back, fake it.
Keep dancing, fake it.
Keep crawling, fake it.
Knowing it will always be the same.
Knowing it will never change.
Shake your head, what a shame.
Call it as you see it, strange.
Point the finger, toss the blame.
Keep it in, don't let them see.
Ever growing sense of pain.
Let me go, set me free.

Ignored, betrayed, forgotten...
Lonely, broken, rotten.
Her path of misery and pain,
Shadowed by eternal rain.
Reaching deep
Her hope to keep.
Process begun
By the maternal one...
What has burrowed to the core?
A disease one cannot ignore.
Take these chains off,
Standing, she's had enough.
Shed her tattered skin,
Cast aside all sin.
Wings purged of darkness,
Piercing through shoulders skin.
Break the curse,
Time to play the next verse.
Given a moment's immortal clarity,
Baring oneself, wearily.
Head thrown back,
Waiting for the next attack.
Shake loose the bonds,
Yesterday's tears now gone.
Face the dawn,
Burning rays withdrawn.
Fly little one,
With next breath be gone.

12/05/13

I close my eyes in hope,
I breathe just to cope.
Asking for help is not possible,
When it's not understandable.
I wake each morn with a weak desire,
Fall to pieces every twilight, no inner fire,
No reason to pray, I'm alone.
Not one being listening, none.
Inner strength is caving,
I'm not looking for a hero or saving.
Taking a deep breath,
I wait my turn for death.
Too many reasons to stay,
Pulled too many directions each day.
Slowly falling apart,
Remorse shadows the heart.
Brilliant pain envelopes me whole,
Shattering my weary soul.
Release me from my mortal bond, free me,
Let me rise with wings and flee.
Find what is so close, I'm blind,
So Close yet I cannot find.

Sometimes the sky just isn't as blue,
The sun isn't as bright for you.
Sometimes the days fade to night,
And most things just don't feel right.
You feel the wind dance all around you,
You dry the tears, none too few.
Will the moon to light your shadows,
But even rainbows
Fade away leaving us facing the moment.
Words are hollow, not what they meant.
Eyes see what the soul hid.
A weak smile the dark will forbid.
Shattered pieces cannot heal,
Your soul no longer real.
Whispers dancing nimbly within,
Tell a tale of foretold sin.
Weak willed and a strange destiny,
Finding peace, heavenly.

You look at me and think you know me.
You open dark eyes and still don't see.
Listen with ears too deaf to hear.
Feel with a heart that will no longer care.
Kiss with lips that no longer taste.
Stumble forward with eager haste.
Say goodbye little one, say goodbye.
Take a deep breath and no longer cry.
Whispers from the Shadowed One,
This living dance of death now done.
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