please dont kick down the door
my bloods still all over the floor
its red and pink
i cut my hair, its in the sink

please leave me alone
pain in love is all ive known
let me cry
but dont let me die

i miss you and love everything you do
but you cant see me now, im just so scared of you

we performed a seance for ourselves
and whispered delicacy till we forgot
all the misery and heartbreak
which helplessly brought us together in the early night

what will then make of us?
as two strangers lost in the absence of everything
apart from the stars above our heads
radiating like our halo of dappled light

i loved never knowing you
it made me blind to anything you could do

wasn’t it your birthday?
when, for only a tender moment
we disappeared
smiling like we had gone missing on the way home - charming

promise me, if we ever meet again
we would soon be dead in absentia

i hope when i die i’ll see you
i hope
i hope…

worried nights wasted, waiting for my mind to be misplaced
but you know how I adore being such a mess
completely heartless

I hallucinate a heart shaped halo over my head
meaning - I’ve been a good girl but naive
with my bruised longing to feel agony of several ghosts
fall inside me.

bundles of floral cotton sheets
in a peachy light, under our feet
as my eyes follow the stars in the night
tracing them to wires in a misty haze

while he only exists again in this imaginary phase
asleep but not dreaming by my pretend side
white figures gathered at the end of the bed
watch my insomnia play with the patterns that spill through my head

but I love it like this
I love this dreadful bliss
this place where I can wear my shoes home instead of
crying all the way, under a barely pink moon

i’m seeing things
my blood is pale
it’s sickly white

to my unfortunate delight

it’s curing my cute cuts
healing them
in adorable bandages

i'll only have lilies soon

even in memories of summer, the flowers are dying.
we asked for too much and gave such little back,

now irises bloom black

when it rains they’re suffocated; drowned instead of fed
we were thoughtless, even after they were dead.

so many wilted petals for my dread

my heart has never been full
yet it still overflows - i’m half empty

but silently splitting at the seams, scared
to have these same dreams

but i'll close my eyes for you.
with all my heart slowly spilling

kissing me with blood.
i’ve hidden us well, but

i still cross my legs when i think of you.
you left me blinded,

with pink stains forever in my skin.
at least you no longer see me as broken.