Megan

Megan Nov 2013

suicide crossed my mind lately,
everything was falling apart
and all I could do was stare blankly.
I tried to **** myself,
took a blade to my wrist.
at that point in time I didnt think
that I would be missed.
I wanted so badly for
the pain to end
but hey, that's what happens when
you don't even have a friend
by your side to tell you it's alright
I just want to give up
I can't put up with this fight.
I finally told them
that I'm not okay,
I got help so why am I
still feeling this way?
why do I still want to die?
I will never be happy
no matter how hard I try.

I wrote this while I was in a mental/psychiatric institution, since I'm back I thought I'd share it. It's obviously not the best seeing as I was incredibly mentally unstable, but here you go.

Megan Aug 2013

I Miss You

Maybe it's the way you held my hand
the way you gazed into my eyes
or even how you said my name
Either way I miss you
I miss everything about you
being by your side
kissing your lips
holding your hands in mine
I try not to think about it
but it's just so hard
You're always on my mind
yet I probably don't even cross
yours

Megan Aug 2013

So Don't End It

You're not okay
I can see it in your eyes
You wear this broken smile
as your disguise
You're dying inside
but you say you're fine
You're worth every breath
I promise, it's not your time
This is just a chapter
the end will eventually fit
Your story isn't over
*so don't end it

I don't take credit. Found this online by unknown.

Megan Aug 2013

Suicide

April 19, 2010

to you, this is just a past date
to me, it's when I found out I was too late
too late to save her from her misery
to help, to stop, to make her happy.

you left this world without
any warnings or goodbye's
I still to this day ask myself
why did you have to die?

I know you're in a better place
I just wish you were happy here
although you aren't alive anymore
your presence and soul is near

the day you died
I can't explain the tears
I hate the thought
of you not being here

I just wish you didnt
hold it all inside
or decide the only way to be happy
was to commit suicide

I always think about you
I'll even shed a tear
it's just sad to think
it's already been three years

I'll never forget you
or the memories we shared
memories with anyone else
could never compare

you were always there for me
that's what best friends do
right up until the end
I will always love you

— The End —