Who are you that I am so unworthy of your time?
Or simply of your glance?
I pity you
And your foolish pride

I pity the weak
I pity the poor
I pity you
And your foolish pride

I pity those too far gone to see the damage they’ve done
To see the bridges they’ve burned
On which they can never return
I pity you
And your foolish pride
I pity you.

Can’t even breathe
Tripping
Falling
So far down
Sinking now
Six feet under the ground
Shouting
Can’t hear a thing
Deaf to the cries for help
Deaf to the pleas for sanity
Pinch me I’m dreaming
Can’t feel a thing
Numb to the hurt
Numb to the
Cold shoulder
That I’ve turned on the world
Your voice in the back of my mind
Pushing me closer to the edge
Of the knife
Sharpened to a point
Aimed to ****
Ready to cut
Through the tension in the air
Free falling
I’m calling
Out
No service
Just count me
Out
For this round
And round we go
Who’s right anymore?
We don’t even know
I just wanna go
Far away
On an airplane
To a new place
With a new take
On life
Come help me out
Of this hole I’ve dug
Myself into
So far down
Reaching out
Hold me now
Can’t see the stars
Or the hope they bring
Me back
To the way things were
To the way things ought to be
When it seemed like life
Was lived more simply
I’m starving for air
Can’t even think
Suffocating under the pressure
To be
Everything
To carry the weight
Of the world on my back
Turning a blind eye
To the sense I’m losing
Wishing on the stars I’m seeing
Spinning round my head
To grant me strength
To take one last breath
And lift my head
To scream out shamelessly
As I pass into
Infinity.

Eyes eventually tell everything that man had hoped to hide.

Franticly evading telling the truth that torments and tempts to break free, man forever fights to keep the fierce feverish fire, inside his fragile existence, cooled and contained.

Reluctantly reconciling rash reasonings riotously retained and rightfully remembered he realizes no room remains for remorse or regret.

Had warnings been headed, harsh words and heated discussions would have ceased to have been carelessly created to counter the creeping crawling suspicions cornered within.

Vanilla yogurt and strawberry cream
Hint at the beginning of a very dull dream

Eating breakfast, how exciting
The end of my nails, I’m enthusiastically biting

Let me dream of something exhilarating
Not sitting at my table waiting

I’d rather dream that I could fly
Or travel the world in the blink of an eye

Swim underwater without ever breathing
Win in Vegas without ever cheating

Box in a ring for the world title
Become a judge on American Idol

Fly to Paris and date Johnny Depp
Dance on Broadway and not miss a step

But here I lay and begin to dream
Of vanilla yogurt and strawberry cream.

The lights from the city burn through the night
setting the world on fire
illuminating the blackest corners
of mind and matter.

Buildings rise from the ground
towering over all
casting shadows over
even the most wealthy powerful and strong.
They are but dust in comparison
specks swept beneath the rug.

People come and go
A steady stream of consciousness
Flowing through the streets
Business to be dealt with
Always far from home.

Sirens wail
slicing through the air
a silent chill
an electric thrill
as danger flirts with death.

The moon shines bright through the window
And sails across your eyes
Turning those small blue oceans
Into soft white pearls
Casting off reflections
Like a fisherman casts a line
Reeling me in closer
Tempting me
Like a baited hook
And suddenly I’m yours
Tangled in your net
I could stay like this forever
Swimming through your oceans
And never come ashore.

Standing on the edge of the world
Wind rushing through my hair
I lift up my arms
And cry out to the emptiness before me

The nothingness calls back
My name carried on the breeze
A blatant reminder of the humanity I’ve left far behind

One step further is all it would take
To leave the familiar for good
To fall endlessly into the lonely abyss

Turning a cold shoulder
Closing my eyes
I make my move
One great leap

The blackness consumes me
Swallows me whole
The wind picks back up
A spins me around

I open my eyes
Only to find
I’m sitting on that ledge
Legs swinging in the breeze

Squaring my shoulders
Back facing the wind
I let out a sigh
And a shout of frustration

The world refuses still to let me go
So here I remain
Conscious and pensive
Waiting for my moment
Biding my time.

Wooden steps
Creak
Under the weight
Of secrets locked inside.

Light up my night
Fly away with my dreams
Firefly.

Stop signs,
Concrete,
Racing cars,
All blind to the stars.

Let it fade away
with the bright light
of day.

Simple things
like porch swings
and sweet teas
make memories.

The sun sets
on the brokenhearted
girl
down the street.

Look at what we've created,
our very own,
beautiful disaster.

You say you don't sleep
you say you won't eat
you say many more things
that bring tears to my eyes.

I see you sliiping away
silent and fast
and I don't even know
who you are any more
or how long you'll last

But that's not what concerns me

It's that I can't seem to reach you

Far off
in your distant world

To give you advice
to help you see clear
that you are still here
that you can still live

You've already accepted
your impossible fate

I'm affraid I'm too late
to make a difference here

So I let you go
I watch as you die

Darling spread your white wings
and fly my friend

Fly.

Cucumber mornings and coconut breezes
Embracing the moment
As the wild wind teases.

Painted red roses and stunning green eyes
Surrender your heart
To harmless white lies.

A lifetime to fix it
A lifetime
That's what it'd take
To go back and fix them
All those stupid mistakes
That we've ever made
Sometime or another
Along the way.

A lifetime to change it
A lifetime
That's what I'd need
To go back and change things
To make sure that we'd
Never have to doubt
The things we were doing
And what we were all about.

Sunshine
Hair down
Feet in the sand
This it it
The good life

Birds call
Waves crash
Salt in the air
This is it
The good life

Cold drinks
Bright smiles
Summer livin'
This is it
The good life.

Corset lace
and cigarette waste

Hushed voices
and risky choices

Rusted stairs
and twisted hair

Slippery lies
and severed ties

Stage lights
and stage fright

Behind the scenes
ends justify the means.

Words can not describe
What the thought of you does to my mind
To put it simply you make me feel like
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There are a million things,
running through my head,
when I try to lay down,
and go to bed.

Hate,
It's as clear as a sign on an iron gate.
It paints the faces of those who embrace it,
And follows those who don't.
It burns down bridges and severs connections,
Costing those for who you had affection.
It fills the heart and blackens the mind.
Once it takes you, you're hard to find.
Balled up fists,
A world of dark mist,
Living on the edge.
You are consumer by this,
Your ever growing list...
But it's too late for you now,
You've already said your unholy vows.

The painted sunrise
of new beginnings
washes away fears and doubts
from yesterday's fight to survive.
Every day's a battle
but it's only one small part of the war.

Hope is the hand holding yours,
lifting you up,
when you have fallen.

Sleepless and thoughtful
I can't stop thinking of you
The question of what if creeps through
The darkest shadows of my mind
Slinking through cobwebs
Peeking round corners
It pushes its way forward
Slowly making it through
To front and center stage
It sheds its worn cloak
Dust flies through the light
Showering other thoughts with filth
What If's eyes shine
It begins to dance
Throwing its arms up
Causing a scene
All eyes on it
No use trying to hide
Or to even deny
That What If fills my mind.

I just want to feel the heat
of
you next to me

Hold me even closer
and
tell me a lie

Something so beautiful
that
I'll have no choice

But to trust in your words
and
forever dream

Lul me to sleep
Make me concede
Don't let this stop

I want you to be here
stay
infinitely

If only for tonight
just
let me believe.

I crave you now,
My sweet addiction.
Wrap you up,
and take a bite.
You're bitter sweet,
My secret delight.

Trust not in what you see,
But what you feel.

Knee deep in passion,
No turning back,
Quicksand, quick to love,
Lost in the moment, lost in your love.

I don't judge you
For believing,
So don't judge me
For not.

Sunflower summers
and
Dandelion dreams.

Endless horizons
and
Peaceful beginnings.

Sugar, satin, and spices
Every girl has her vices
Words slip out like sweet molasses
Time slows down as each one passes
Take me captive in your arms
Each breath you take calms and warms
Let this moment never pass
Love me now, like no one has.

Dancing in the shadows of rain,
Let the darkness sweep you off your feet
Each drop, easing your pain
How simple to get lost in the night.

Turn your face up to the stars, my dear
Picture yourself falling up, far from here
Drifting higher
A ball of fire
A shooting star
A firefly from inside a jar
You're a weightless wanderer
A philosophical ponderer
Let yourself fly free
Don't think, just be.

"Tell it to your pillow honey, no one cares for your sob story."
So I do.
But my words come out mangeled,
Twisted up and tangeled.
I want you to understand,
To show you what I've done,
To know what I 've overcome,
The most trivial things,
And my greatest feats.
But you've gone and met your end,
You'll never hear again.
Now this pillow is my only friend.

You have his eyes, his temper too.
I don't think you realize he's here, in you.
You promised that you wouldn't be him,
But you know what they say; you can't always win.

You said that he was the one sole reason,
That your childhood was lost, was broken.

I can't believe it was all that bad,
He was after all your idol, your dad

But when you find yourself lost in rage,
You bring more than you into this war you wage.

It's like you become a whole other person,
And now it's me, the one that's hurting.
I promise myself I won't be like you,
But you know what they say; not everything's true.

Tear stained eyes
Watch as their dream dies
A wasted life passes
Fallen eyelashes
Soft as butterfly kisses
Collect them all and make your wishes.

My mind goes out to reach the brightest star
Past the dark side of the moon
And beyond the constraints of simple things like time
Words fail
As thoughts run free
Let it go
Leave it all behind
Stargazing
Starblazing